tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5798023382106729669.post1387157201916621124..comments2023-11-02T17:41:24.722+05:30Comments on P R A B H U P E P S I: Destroying myselfPrabhu Nhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05187538485143344921noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5798023382106729669.post-41445307664296046912010-08-06T01:40:30.424+05:302010-08-06T01:40:30.424+05:30I know I’m like a week late commenting on this ent...I know I’m like a week late commenting on this entry, but I just wanted to say that you are absolutely allowed to complain. You can take the air and survive, but you are allowed to complain too.Poojanoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5798023382106729669.post-68903236601722599412010-08-06T01:38:53.511+05:302010-08-06T01:38:53.511+05:30I know all too well what you mean about feeling li...I know all too well what you mean about feeling like you have to justify your illness to your own mind all the time. Like you have to constantly prove or disprove to yourself that you’re defective, that you don’t quite work properly, or even those spells of delusion where you convince yourself nothing is really wrong. And if it’s not to yourself, then it’s to other people, but inside your own mind because obviously you could not really do this. Because you are you, and well they can only know so much of the inner turmoil. I think sometimes you get into the habit of talking to yourself like an idiot, like you’re a mental patient to be diagnosed, just crawling with neuroses, a guinea pig under the microscope. Maybe it’s the looking for it, and the identifying of it, that causes it to be worse. Sometimes I think this but then I’m not so sure. Maybe the looking for it all the while drives you to the brink more than simply riding it out, but at the same time, it’s too hard to not try to think your way out of it. Because nothing is worse than just accepting it, becoming complacent, indifferent, apathetic.<br /><br />I want to tell you it’ll be alright, even though I don’t know that it will.Sruthinoreply@blogger.com