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January 7 2010


Check out the Typealyzer, which analyses your character based on your blog!
The analysis indicates that the author of http://prabhupepsi.blogspot.com is of the type:


ISFP - The Artists



The gentle and compassionate type. They are especially attuned their inner values and what other people need. They are not friends of many words and tend to take the worries of the world on their shoulders. They tend to follow the path of least resistance and have to look out not to be taken advantage of.

They often prefer working quietly, behind the scene as a part of a team. They tend to value their friends and family above what they do for a living.

Analysis



Your Role Model Revealed…

January 7 2010

1) Pick your favorite number between 1 and 9
2) Multiply by 3
3) Add 3, then again multiply by 3 again
4) You’ll get a 2 or 3 digit number
5) Add the digits together

Now with that number see who your role model is from the list below:

Twenty Questions


January 6 2010

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
No thoughts, really. The brain has not quite loaded itself yet! Or unless you’re talking about when it’s time to get dressed. I’m probably thinking, “Do I feel fat today?”

2. How much cash do you have in your wallet right now?
RS500, which is like USD$10 or 11?


3. Do you label yourself?
Mostly the negative ones.


4. What does your watch look like?
I don’t have a watch. I look for the time on my mobile phone.


5. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Fuming at a neighbour who was blasting some sport racing game. His room was right next to mine so it was really really loud. About 20 minutes later the person shut off the tv. Arsehole.

6. What’s a word that you say a lot?
So.

7. Who told you he/she loved you last?
I don’t remember.


8. Last furry thing you touched?
I don’t remember either.


9. What was the last thing you said to someone?
I’m going to my room so please don't disturb me.


10. The last song you listened to?
Some oldie on the radio.


11. Where did you live five years ago?
Pollachi.


12. Are you jealous of anyone?
Yes. Mostly of people who seemed to have their lives all mapped out, or are just living life to the fullest.


13. Is anyone jealous of you?
Nope. I don’t even want to be me sometimes, why would anyone want to be me??


14. Name three things that you have on you at all times.
Clothes, phone and book.

15. What’s your favourite town/city?
I’d like to stay in Pollachi for an indefinite period of time, but I’d love to visit Chennai for the shopping and excitement.


16. When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper and mailed it?
I wrote a letter to Anipra and I didn't post, so that’s about it.


17. Can you change the oil on a car/bike?
I can’t even change a flat tyre!


18. What is your current desktop picture?
A photo of Krithi .


19. When did you start your blog?
June 15 2008(on my B'day).


20. What country would you like to live in other than your own?
I don’t know. I’m sure I’d love to live anywhere else because it’s new and exciting, but in reality I’d want to live where I feel safe. And that means I would live with people I trust my life with nearby.

What are the 100 things you want to do before you die?


January 6 2010

First: click on the linkand move your mouse up and down the picture.

Nice, isn’t it?

This list took more than a month to be compiled.

Travel
1. Australia
2. Argentina
3. Cuba
4. United States of America
5. Thailand
6. Singapore
7. Hong Kong
8. England
9. New Zealand
10. Canada
11. Ireland
12. Portugal

Places
13. The Eiffel Tower
14. The Louvre
15. The up-and-coming Harry Potter theme park
16. Disneyland
17. New York Central Park
18. Old Trafford
19. The English countryside
20. A castle
21. Petronas Twin Towers skybridge
22. Hyde Park
23. Cliff overlooking a sea
24. An amazing library overseas

Experiences
25. Have the most mind-blowing sex (which is different than mere having sex itself)
26. Bungee jump
27. Zorbing
28. Snorkelling / scuba diving
29. Make a snow angel with real snow
30. Make a snowman with real snow
31. Ski
32. Ice-skate on non-man made ice
33. Backpack around Europe with a friend
34. Kiss in the rain
35. Learn Spanish
36. Go up to a real tree house
37. Sit at the top of a London double-decker bus
38. Attend a World Cup match
39. Ride on a desert safari
40. Learn to make coffees / ice creams
41. Learn to cook good pasta
42. Play a board game in front of a fireplace with a bunch of friends
43. Get a tattoo
44. Hot-air balloon ride with Anipra
45. Have a really happy birthday (as opposed to those past mundane ones)
46. Learn to play the piano
47. Watch again absolute favorite movie of all time, Before Sunrise and sequel Before Sunset
48. Go on a sea trip
49. Feed a deer
50. Sit on an open cable car (the kind used to transport people up the hill)
51. Milk a cow (seriously)

Career
52. Find a job that would truly love, enjoy doing and excel at
53. Start up own computer business store
54. Work with a really good boss
55. Work as a teacher / tutor just to know what it’s like
56. Work in a bookshop
57. Write an article to appear in some print media just to know what it’s like
58. Study for a Masters degree, if financially able
59. Work during the graveyard shift, just to know what it’s like
60. Be interviewed like a pseudo-celebrity

Acceptable language proficiency in
61. French
62. Spanish
63. Hindi
64. Portuguese

Food
65. Authentic Karaikudi cuisine - Chicken gravy, mutton fry, fish toast
66. Fish and chips wrapped in newspaper
67. Authentic English tea – scones, spotted dick, blancmange, the works
68. Authentic French cuisine – crêpes, crême brulée, foie gras, even escargot
69. Cheese pizza
70. A Krispy Kreme doughnut
71. A Black forest dessert
72. To drink as many alcoholic drinks on the face of this earth at least once
73. Eat again that black pepper-ish cheese ate years ago at a buffet but don’t know what the name is

Materialism
74. Own a apple i phone
75. Own a Coach bag
76. Own a Sony product
77. Own self’s own house / condominium
78. Own a car
79. Own a sofabed
80. Have a proper bookshelf set up for all self’s favourite books
81. Own an autographed copy of a novel that self like
82. Own a digital camera
83. Own a passport with many pages stamped
84. Own a pair of Nike poggio that doesn’t hurt feet
85. Own a cisco t-shirt 
86. Own a genuine che guevara t-shirt
87. Own a bathtub! 
88. Own a suit!
89. Own a piece of platinum 

Relationships
90. Adopt a child, if financially and emotionally capable
91. Have one lifelong friend and confidant
92. Have one shopping partner
93. Have one jogging partner
94. Have one lifelong cyber friend
95. Keep in touch with college mates
96. Have a relationship that would last longer than five year (if not a lifetime!)
97. Reveal this blog to someone who can really appreciate it
98. Have anipra read the book have written about her for a project
99. Bump into _ex and feel better about the encounter than she did
100. To have someone who looks to self as a confidant, lover and friend

from → Life

Why my blog rocks

January 5 2010


1. Anybody is welcome to comment. I adore comments! Well, not the negative ones, naturally, but so far I allow them to stay. I don’t moderate comments . You can even say hi to me if I’m logged on to Meebo.  (Don’t worry, I won’t say hi unless you do, maybe you just want to read the blog in peace!)

2. My content requires your participation because most of my posts are about things that you’ve done before or heard of or read about. It’s about life, it’s about people, it’s about you and what you think of it. Also, sometimes the blogger likes to do kinda kooky blogging projects.

3. The blog belongs to a really nice blogger.  I think nice people rock and you can’t know too many of them. I promise that anybody who leaves a comment on PRABHUPEPSI for the first time will get a welcome reply from me!

4. The blog is a virtual hang-out to some damn fine people. My commenters are a lively, witty bunch of people who makes PRABHUPEPSI a great blog to read. Even if a post is worthless, they can make it interesting with their funny anecdotes or wise perspectives. Check out the blogs in my blogroll.

5. My blog looks good, dammit. Okay, only until last few though.  But for those who’ve been reading since I got the CSS upgrade.

Why does your blog rock?

Observations of my life

January 5 2010

1. My life is devoted entirely to me alone. I don’t like that.
2. My human interaction is minimal and not fulfilling enough.
3. I need to do more things.
4. There is no meaning in my life. I’m just going through the motions, doing things that give temporary pleasure to pass the time.
5. I’m spending the bulk of my time at a place I don’t enjoy going to.
I feel embarrassed with my life. How do I manage a blog about my life when nothing happens in it?
What’s your typical day like?

I'm sorry...

January 4 2010

I’m sorry I didn’t turn out to be strong.

I’m sorry I’m such a useless son.

I’m sorry I didn’t make anyone proud.

I’m sorry I’m a coward.

I’m sorry I ruined my love.

I’m sorry I’m so immature.

I’m sorry I can’t be trusted on.

I’m sorry I can’t do anything right.

I’m sorry I can never establish a normal relationship with another human. Or even an abnormal one.

I’m sorry I can’t make myself happy.

I’m sorry I made myself miserable and killed my own dreams.

I’m sorry I gave up on my own life.

Five Things

January 4 2010

5 Things Found in your Bag
My cell phone (Was going to make this a photo blog, but the batteries are dead)
My i pod
Splash White Rose Scent (environment too hot, not enough time for more than one shower a day)
My books (at present motor cycle dairies
Lots of pens

5 Favourite Things in your Room
My oval clock
My computer with speaker system
My 22 year old color tv
My anything-goes-here box.
The ceiling is very pretty. I know because half of my life I spend lying down looking at it.

5 Things you have always wanted to do
Travel everywhere in the world to see everything worth seeing.
Sky diving
Have enough time to just be a geek without worrying about supporting myself financially.
Read lots of books
Gain acting skills

5 things you are currently into
My Blog
The Medication
Reading Motor Cycle Diaries
Taking photos
Facebook

5 people you want to tag
ASUKA
LAZYGEEK
MARINE SNOW
TANIYA
Hmm… Everybody else has been already tagged it seems.

If you don’t want to add garbage to your own blog, you can reply right here. Or you might not want to reply at all! :)

Prabhu looks like”

January 3 2010

I tried it because I was bored… but the results made me giggle


PRABHU
  1. PRABHU looks like a boy who knows what he’s doing
  2. PRABHU need to shut up because PRABHU looks like he’s going to kill me
  3. PRABHU looks like a dream come true
  4. PRABHU looks like a teenaged Asian.
  5. PRABHU looks like he’s going to give those naughty girls a stern talking to.
  6. PRABHU looks like he could take on just about anybody..
  7. PRABHU looks like he could touch you and you’d burst into flames he’s so freak in bravvvvvve!!!!
  8. I think PRABHU looks like a monkey. His face is strange looking.
  9. PRABHU looks like he would be the grown up version of the boy in U'Luvka vodka Factory.
  10. PRABHU looks like he works in an Indian farm. he’s known to be a ho and that’s why she likes him.
  11. PRABHU…looks(talks) like a Doctor.
  12. PRABHU looks like a badly wrapped Christmas gift
  13. PRABHU looks like he’s really flexible.
  14. PRABHU looks like he hasn’t eaten for days.
  15. PRABHU looks like a “fake” man.
  16. PRABHU looks like he will soon be on the next cover of business today.
  17. PRABHU looks like something you’d see either on the ice or in a ballroom.
  18. PRABHU looks like a blow-up doll. (I actually got this some days ago because of a funny picture.)
  19. PRABHU looks like any other boy, except that he comes from Venus. PRABHU can do magic with   one twirl of his finger.
  20. PRABHU looks like a 7 year old child.
  21. PRABHU looks like a Indian soldier.
  22. PRABHU looks like a musketeer with long hair.
  23. PRABHU looks like a man so hideous and scary.
  24. PRABHU looks like he’s been run over by a truck.
Harsh…

PRABHU Looks like this:
 プラブ
In Japanese.

And finally…

    25.  PRABHU looks like he is ready for bed.

கலைவாணர் நகைச்சுவை

January 3 2010

பின்னாளில் சினிமாவில் கொஞ்சம் சம்பாதித்திருந்த கலைவாணரிடம் ஒரு பத்திரிகையாளர் இப்படிக் கேட்டாராம்: “”நீங்கள் இப்போது ஒரு பணக்காரர்தானே?”
கலைவாணரின் பதில்: “”ஆமாம். ஆனால் மற்ற பணக்காரர்களுக்கும் எனக்கும் ஒரு வித்தியாசம் உண்டு. நான் சம்பாதிப்பது இல்லாதவர்களுக்குக் கொடுத்து உதவுவதற்காகத்தான்!”
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திரைப்படக்காட்சி
சிவாஜி -வரதட்சணைப் பிரச்சனையால் பெண்ணை பிறந்த வீட்டுக்கு விரட்டியிருப்பார்கள். கலைவாணர் மாப்பிள்ளை பையனின் வீட்டில் வேலை செய்து கொண்டிருப்பார்.
மாப்பிள்ளைப் பையனுக்கு மறைமுகமாக புத்தி சொல்ல நினைப்பார்கையில் ஒரு புறாவுடன் இன்னொரு வேலைக்காரனைத் திட்டிக் கொண்டிருப்பார். கதாநாயகனிடம் நியாயம் கேட்பார்.’பாருங்கஒருத்தர் இவனுக்கு இந்த அழகான மணிப்புறாவை இலவசமாகக் கொடுத்திருக்கிறார். அதற்கு அவரிடம் நன்றியோடு இருப்பதைவிட்டு அதை வளர்க்கவும் காசு கேட்கிறான்என்று சொல்லிவிட்டுப் போய்விடுவார்.
இந்த இடத்தில் புறாவையும் புதுப்பெண்ணையும் ஒப்பிட்டோ அல்லது வேறு மாதிரி கதாநாயகனுக்கு அறிவுரை சொல்றது மாதிரி வசனங்கள் ஏதுமிருக்காதுமறைமுகமான அறிவுரை
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Light Reading

January 2 2010


Phew. Need to balance the latest intensity. Here’s something fun and easy.

1. Last movie you saw in a theater?
Aadhavan (October 2009)
2. What book are you reading?
Motor Cycle Diaries - Alberto Granado (re-read)
3. Favorite board game?
Not a fan of board games really! Though the very few times I’ve been forced to play I’ve enjoyed them.
4. Favorite magazine?
I don’t have one. May be Anandha Vikatan
5. Favorite smells?
Hmmm the world of smells is something really abstract for me. As I’ve mentioned a few times, my nose is useless.
6. Favorite sounds?
Depends on time and mood… I love waking up late when it’s already daytime and hearing birds and early morning radio from neighbors. I know I love many sounds but to be honest I’m lazy to search in my brain for them.
7. Worst feeling in the world?
The time I felt I was going to die… but more, the times I’ve truly wanted to die. The moment itself is not that traumatic as much as remembering it a while after and realized how messed up it was.
8. What is the first thing you think of when you wake up?
“Am I still alive!”
9. Favorite fast food place?
All of them.
10. Future child’s name?
 Aathithi, if boy i didn't planned yet.
11. Finish this statement. “If I had lot of money I’d….?
Use it to make more money so I don’t have to work in things I hate. Then I’d use that money to travel everywhere and read & eat for pleasure.
12. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?
Nope, never!
13. Storms – cool or scary?
Loooove them. The other night there was a horrible electric storm, with thunders all over… I enjoyed them and it lured me asleep, until a really HUGE thunder fell, it made me stand up wide eyed. Turns out it wasn’t a thunder but a bomb somebody placed in the electric plant in the city and now we’re facing power restrictions…
Anyway Storms are great. Bombs are not.
14. Favorite drink?
Vodka! yum… ah… I wish I had some now.
15. Finish this statement, “If I had the time I would….”?
No damn idea at the moment, but it surely would be something interesting… not right now, right now all I want to do is: nothing.
16. Do you eat the stems on broccoli?
Nope. I hate it. but i love to eat brocoli…
17. If you could dye your hair any color, what would be your choice?
black!
18. Name all the different cities/towns you’ve lived in?
Pollachi, Pollachi… and hmmm… Chennai.
19. Favorite sports to watch?
Hates to watch sports… except the Soccer World Cup.
20. One nice thing about the person who sent this to you?
YO ASUKA!
21. What’s under your bed?
IF I only knew that…
22. Would you like to be born as yourself again?
um…
23. Morning person, or Night genius?
Night genius
24. Over easy, or sunny side up?
I suppose you’re talking about eggs?
I like them scrambled with lots of things… omelet. Sunny side up is nice too.
25. Favorite place to relax?
1. On water… or a sunny field, with lots of animals around. Like a little farm maybe? with a river?
2. Watching a movie while eating junk.
3. On my bed, reading.
26. Favorite pie?
Cheese!
Cheese!
Cheese!
Although I don’t think I have tried a pie as such.
I found one that is so strange… turns out it’s from a place I like… I swear it was a coincidence. I was looking for pies and this one got my attention. o.O
27. Favorite ice cream flavor?
Vanilla & Black forest.

Hello January

January 2 2010

My favorite month of the year.  Hurrah.

These last months have gone by really slow, but not in a nice way.  It’s like time was trying to let me know it’s passing.  It rubs it on my face.  It does it everyday.

It makes me feel old and reminds me that I am the one who is living in slow motion.  Yes… it is not time, time is at normal speed, I am the one who is . . . underclocked.  Other people seem to be moving faster and faster and I can’t manage to understand how.  All I do (unsuccessfully) is trying to stay awake on the day and sleeping at night.  I don’t feel capable of doing anything else.  I am not like this, this is not me.

At this pace, I am going to wake up one morning being 40 years old and not having moved an inch from where I am.  Meanwhile time will have passed, people will have built entire lives and there will be flying cars everywhere.

I often wonder what I am waiting for.  I don’t see how things will ever get better.  I try to think this is hopelessness talking (as a symptom of depression), but when I think really hard trying to remove any irrational thought (as if), I still get the same thing.  Things are getting worse and there’s no logic way out.  There’s no plan I envision that would make anything better.

So what am I waiting for, confirmation of this? A magical solution?

I still think it is somehow my fault.  That I caused this and the talk about this being an illness is just self indulgence.  But I recognize those thoughts as irrational (excessive guilt as a symptom of depression) as I’ve thought about it when I’m in a more reliable set of mind and get different conclusions.

I have abandoned the idea that my depression will ever be cured.   It was liberating for a minute, but soon I found myself thinking that I will not live like this.   I am only here because I’m scared of taking the definite step, like always.  Except “scared” is not the right word, it is more like… if I was waiting for something, but every day it looks more remote, and it is uncertain how long the hope will last. (read: procrastinating suicide).

My logical brain sits and watches as I deteriorate.  I am showing signs of increased severity of depression, I am showing alert signs.  There’s an alarm going off saying there’s something that should be done.  That I should ask for some kind of help.  But the logical brain doesn’t have much saying in this anyway.

And to who, anyway.  It is kind of lonely over here…

Useful Links



Suicide Hotlines Listings, State by State
Enabling Violence From Generation to Generation
Can I Kiss You
Children Without a Voice
No More Hurt
You Are Not Crazy
Save Our Tigers

I think I’ll wait another year

January 1 2010

1. What did you do in 2009 that you’d never done before?
I shifted to my new home!
I read a book in English (a physical book as opposed to e-books.)
I bought my old mobile no back 9788116669!
I had my first celebrity crush ever.

2. Did you keep your New Year resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I attempted to make resolutions for the first time when 2009 started.  It didn’t work at all.  I guess I’m not that kind of person.  I won’t play that game anymore.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
My friend sruthi did! Just before the year ended!

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Heath Ledger.  Wait he probably doesn’t count.  Except he does.
My 86 year old grandma was died last week.

5. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
 I want my depression to get cured.

6. What countries did you visit?
I haven’t been abroad yet.

7. What date from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why:
August – September – November and December = worst relapse of depression.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Being alive on Jan 1st this year.

9. What was your biggest failure?
I lost my life.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Just mental illness.

11. What was the best thing you got?
My family celebrated my birthday for the first time in my life.
Lots of books.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
The people who stuck with me and made me smile.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Nobody in particular. (Ought to say everyone I met)

14. Where did most of your money go?
I don’t know if I can call anything “my money”. I don’t work.  I don’t spend much either.  I have been trying to get myself some clothes but I haven’t found any that I like.  If I do, that would be the most money, but then that wouldn’t be in 2009.  I spent a lot in my books & DVD’s.  Hmm, I guess food? I spent a little bit in alcohol in the last few days…  Again, nothing is “my money”.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Reading several books at the same time about che guvera, static electricity, evolutionary biology and yavana rani.
Watching “The Dark Knight” in English… looking up things about Heath Ledger…

16. What song will always remind you of 2009?
Passanga Album by James vasanthan
Oru Vetkam Varuthe Varuthe ...

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
I am a lot stronger.  I am older and wiser.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
I don’t know… jogging in the mornings?

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
I don’t know.

20. How will you be spending New Year’s Eve?
Past: I stayed with my family until 2 am, then got a call from a friend and got drunk.

21. How would you sum up your 2009 in one word?
Eventful.

22. Did you fall in love in 2009?
I don’t think so and I never!.

23. How many one-night stands?
I… kissed  A..... in my dreams.  Didn’t go beyond that.

24. What was your favorite TV program?
Coffee With Anu.  I have been watching it again… It’s excellent.  Never gets old.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
I hate you.
Ha ha.

26. What was the best book you read?
Motor Cycle Dairies  by Alberto Granado.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Hmm, no. That was in 2008 with the A walk in the rain.

28. What did you want and get?
My life.

29. What was your favorite film of this year?
This one is easy.  Passanga.

30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you (optional)?
I stayed home and had nice things to eat.  I turned twenty-nine.

31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
If I was with A.....  Then I wouldn’t have to worry about that anymore and I could get ready to go to Chennai.

32. What kept you sane?
When I lost all hope, I had people who didn’t let me go.

33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
   :(
34. What political issue stirred you the most?
Indian politics though… don’t get me started.  It makes me angry.  Corruption, people die, etc.

35. Whom did you miss?
Somebody who sleeps while I’m awake and vice versa.  :(

36. Who was the best new person you met?
My dear Charan. & my phsy doc Jayapratha

37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009:
That I am strong.  That it is not that important to be in home at age 29 if it’s going to make me miserable.

38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
Plus i’m only twenty-six years old (twenty-nine)
My grandma died at eighty-three (she is at 86)
That’s lots of time if i don’t smoke (drink)
I think i’ll wait another year
Another year – Amanda Palmer.   No need to rush things right? It can wait another year.

That’s for you… YOU… Seize-the-day freaks!

Wish You All A Happy New Year

January 1 2010


100 facts about myself


ITS  MY 400th  POST
I’ll give you a prize if you read till the end!.

1. If you stink, I can still love you. My sense of smell is very limited, not to mention, random.  I can for example smell your subtle hair product one day, but not the huge stink that pollutes the house the other. I blame my chronic hay fever for it.
2. I pay attention to the weirdest things. When I see a movie or tv show, I tend to drive my attention away from the main scene and notice the little details of the background. If main character 1 and main character 2 are having a very important discussion, chances are I will be paying attention to some of the extras having a walk somewhere near the corner of the screen.
3. I kissed a girl and I liked it. I love how girls look, but I think I'd never date one except (......).  Let’s say I have a more broad taste for women. I suppose it’s not a subject that worries me excessively, I’ll like whoever I like…
4. I love to brag about my English knowledge with people who don’t know much about it. (before you say “what English knowledge?”, remember that my country’s main language is Hindi, so it’s easy to get away with it.
5. Apathetic/Libertarian?. I’ve never really been interested in politics. However, if I find myself obsessed with a specific subject, I will go passionate about it. What is life, quality or quantity? Since when does that get decided by majority? I am not a person who is to follow authority… if your argument appeals to me, you might as well be a very well read monkey hanging from a tree than a prime minister.
6. I kill spoilers for the kicks. I can get entertained with basically any movie you show me. I have my favorites, but I just like to have a nice time while watching it.   However, I absolutely cannot tolerate spoilers! You’ll lose the thing above your shoulders! Remember what it is? OF. COURSE. NOT.
7. I’m completely addicted to Vodka. The drink kind… AND NOT DIET. (just needed to make that clear). so weekly once i would like to feed my addiction.(Its my doc advise too)Every now and then I’ll have trouble opening a bottle cap because I’m tiny, so it’s alright to ask for some help right? (see this doesn’t mean you automatically assume I can’t open bottles).
8. I don’t like cats! Unless you do it as a one time joke, to look cute or something. Guess what?
9. I’m afraid of heights and it’s a relatively recent phobia I developed for some reason.  Now, I love to tease myself with this, and getting scared.   I also plan to do bungee jumping, and jump out of a flying plane with a parachute someday.
10. I can drive very well. Another year has passed, and I still didn't try to drive! Shame on you Prabhu! Shame on you!

11. Snow is still something I can only imagine.
12. I would love to learn to Juggle. I have no idea why.  It’s so hard.  Another adittion to the long list of useless talents… well maybe it’s not that long really.
13.I was in jail  That was a worst scenario in my whole life. It changed my life and made me alone. But I am Phoenix  I ll be back soon.
14. I’m not a clumsy person.  I wouldn't trust them with carrying the dishes.
15.My favorite flower is the pink sunflower. How picky am I huh? Only wanting unexistant things.
16. I am not punctual. I can’t be on time for anything unless they fool me into thinking the meeting is 15 minutes early.  I have rarely been late for work though.
17. I love to be written on. Turn my hand and write in the inside? When in movies they write their phone numbers on the back of the hand? Ahhhh… Yes it can be taken to other parts too.
18. I can feel incredibly awkward when eating and being stared at. I suppose I don’t care about this anymore! I have done it tons of times…
19. I love the feeling of having my hair washed at the salon when they are going to cut it. The cold water running. I haven’t been to a spa, but if it’s anything like it, I’d pay.
20. I tend to get laughing fits of up to 30 minutes. Barely breathing to live.
21. I can’t like a girl that is liked by many, many boys. Popularity is a turn off for me. I’ve never really had a crush on a celebrity, no matter how attractive. UPDATE: I do have celebrity crushes!
22. I’m not a movie snob either. –> Hates movie snobs.
23. I’m an agnostic. I was raised as a Hindu. I know about religion, I just don’t believe it’s real. I know why people would choose to have a God in their minds, I just don’t believe it makes it true.
24. I have known how to use a hammer and screwdrivers probably before you could.  I’d like to be independent enough to ask you out on a date and flip the bill myself.  But not so fast girl!, I’m not a sugar man either.  I will just… get very angry if I see you’re treating me like “a little boy”.  Hell, I am a person living in the 21st century, not the middle ages. And so not a little boy… ahem.
25. I love music.
26. I think the eyesight is the coolest of the senses. It’s the way I go around the world.  I couldn’t do without it, and mostly, I wouldn’t want to. I wouldn’t wish an eyesight failure on anyone.
27. I kind of tolerate my looks. I typically love colours, clothes, suits & formals, but I don’t usually wear them because I’m too lazy / can’t bother / would rather spend my little energy doing something else. (And maybe I’m secretly afraid realizing it’s not much! Then where would I go? I have never been obsessed with my looks and I don’t want to start.
28. I have a thing for guys with cigarettes, and I hate it when they take them off.  At the same time, I’m 29.
29. I value friends more than girlfriends any day of the week. Romantic love for me seems to be a fake thing composed of animal instinct, culture, illusions. Friendship seems to be more stable and real.
30. I sometimes would like to be tallest. I’m always refered to as “the normal”. I think I’m in the 50th percentile of the height in Indian men, but I look comfort.  I am cute and all, but yeah…
31. I have been in the mood for blondish – blackish hair lately, but I can’t decolor my hair because of the chemical straightening I got. I would ruin my hair and would be bald for the next few months.
32. I’ve never been abroad.
33. I Daydream 24/7. I have a great imagination for pointless stuff.
34. I was bullied when I was a kid. And I didn’t even had braces or glasses.
35. I like to watch TV while eating.
36. It can take me up to an hour and a half to finish my lunch.  That’s probably why I started doing other things while eating.  Can’t waste that precious time!
37. I am not organized. I often find myself being completely OCD about organisation, but I always lose the momentum really soon, so, as you can imagine, my room, bag, head, everything is a mess.
38. I am ADD, like everyone else. I Like to start things but rarely finish them.  Again, I lose the momentum and get bored and my attention goes somewhere else.
39. I secretly wish I could live forever, despite having suicidal thoughts at other times. It’s like all or nothing. Having just 1 life is heartbreaking and stressing.
40. I hate finishing things. Books, movies, food? Because they ended! I keep wondering what else is going to happen next.  Imagining is not the same, because I’m in control of what happens and it wouldn’t surprise me! So, don’t expect to see me writing fanfics.
41. Never been on a ship.
42. My image of myself changes constantly and is easily affected by external output. (not physical image, more like mental image) I can go from self adoration to self loathing really easily. With other people though, I see more shades of gray.
43. I am far from prude… in theory. Very deep inside I think of myself as a sexually liberated,  but in reality I don’t know much, and haven’t done much.  However, there’s a lot I could do.
44. I’m less sensitive to collective pain than I am to individual pain. I don’t really care much when there’s a big fire and everyone dies, but I can cry to see a single person suffering. I guess the big tragedies are too abstract to feel anything. Maybe they happen too often in here and you just get used to them.  But most likely it is because they are too abstract.
45. I would love to live in an European country.
46. I cry inside easily when anyone yells at me, but I’m almost never really sad or ashamed, it’s just a reflex.
47. When I’m actually depressed I rarely cry, much less in public. I just go quiet and immobile and disappear.
48. My favorite day of the year is my birthday.
49. I think regionalism-caste-etc is stupid, I should like what I like because I feel good about it, not just because I belong to it.
50. Never had a real girlfriend for over 2 years. My longest relationship was 12 years.  I was too into it anyhow.  I guess I’m more picky than that.
51. I used to dance choreographies of pop songs in secondary school (think Oops I did it again and Michel Jackson stuff). Embarrassing enough, but I was a kid, so bite me.
52. I pull my hair out a lot, one by one.  This is called Trichotillomania and it’s related to serotonin deficiency (same thing that happens with depression).  I’ve had it forever and it’s restricted to my head.  When I was a kid I used to get bald patches.  I guess later I learned to do it in a way that it causes no visible effect. I have so much hair that I consider it kind of a control measure so I don’t look like cousin it.
53. I had braces for almost 3 years. GONE NOW WHHOOOOO!!! I had open-bite which didn’t allow me to cut off the lettuce of the hamburger when I had a bite.
54. I sleep sideways, hugging a pillow, always without a blanket on no matter how cold it is.
55. Alone in bed. Can’t for damn sleep with another person on the same bed.
56. I learned to swim by listening, when watching an old TV show. Later learned the four strokes in a normal class and became a competition swimmer. My favorite kind of swimming was actually underwater with monofin swimming. But I never got to buy the monofin.
57. Only time I thought I was really going to die unintentionally was by almost drowning in the sea in vacations of 1994. All the “my whole life passed by my eyes” crap, came true. On the other side, I had the best time ever afterwards.
58. I’ve only been to the air once, for 45 mins.
59. I love chew gum.(especially orbit, mint flavour)
60. I can’t make bubblegum bubbles. Which explains #59. Why would you can’t chew gum without the bubbles?
61. Can’t for damn whistle.
62. I never had asthma, has hay fever.
63. Never broken a bone.
64. Favourite activities as a little kid were climbing on trees all the time, riding our bikes through scary lands, and exploring dangerous places. The place I used to lived back then was good for those purposes.
65. I love to get letters or emails, love to read about crazy people’s lives, hence my loving for blogs.
66. I am not very materialistic. I only want money so can travel, eat, drink vodka, and probably get some good photos while I do all that.  I can’t understand  “what boys need more than that”.
67. Don’t give a shit about expensive cars. Don’t know shit about car brands, car models, car differences.
68. I Want to have lots of money for three main things: 1. Travelling absolutely everywhere. 2. Getting the best food ever. 3. Being able to be lazy without guilt.
69. I “spend songs”. When I find one I’m really crazy about, I would play it for about 100 times, then I’ll get really annoyed by it, and then I’ll hate it. But it’s my way to enjoy them-
70. I am terrible with thing names. Can’t for the damn remember band names, song names, movie titles, book titles when asked what his favorite ones are in a regular conversation. Ever since I got involved with network sites it has gotten better.
71. Never had chicken pox. It just shows how much of a loner I was in school. UPDATE:I had chicken pox last month.
72. I cried like I never had before after from prison. Because my life, love, dignity, respect, self control, etc, etc was totally changed as a terrific tragedy. I think it’s the only one that has made me cry. Reasons are too abstract to be explained right now.
73. Hate being waken up. I would love to always wake up spontaneously.
74. I was in band during my school days for a full year. I can’t do anymore.
75. I’m an B +. I’ve never donated blood. I convince people that donating is good but I never mention the huge needles.
76. I took piano lessons when I was 10. I quit because my teacher was creepy. Seriously. Now I whine because can’t play an instrument.
77. I love video games. 
78. I’ve always gotten along better with people younger than myself.
79. I panicked about being a patient.
80. Had my first french kiss at the embarrassing age of 18.
81. I like to make people laugh but rarely succeed.
82. I don’t like curd.
83. I have an excellent vision. I’m proud of my eyesight.
84. First time I was ever online was at the age of 18. Became a regular in the internet at age 19 while searching for a pokemon rom for my emulator. Shhh.
85. My ideal way to read a book is from beginning to end with few stops. Reading it by parts is such a feel. When I read “It” on a computer PDF, it took me three days when I barely moved from the computer.
86. I graduated from high school and had my 17th birthday almost on the same day.
87. If I had not studied computer, I’d always wonder what it would be like. And would end up studying computer anyway. Best way to know it sucks is by doing it.
88. I have dreams every night, always colorful, realistic, long and complicated.
89. Don’t enjoy casinos. Winning gets me too nervous, and losing makes me too angry. Either way it’s not good.
90. I have chronic major depressive disorder and I’m currently out of work getting treatment for it.
91. I used to fantasize about watching coffee with anu . Especially season 2 . Damn that was EXCELLENT.
92. I don’t think ever want to have children. In part it’s just a rebelion against nature.
93. I was underweight most of my life. The first time I went over 69 kilos was when I started my graduation. It was a cool acomplishment.  Right now I’m going to the other side! Hilarious!
94. Can’t cook to save my life.
95. Sometimes I wish I had inherited my mom’s awesome black eyes.
96. I’m secretly obsessed with spelling, but never bother people about it.
97. I used to have a book of spells. Old, awesome.
98. I miss my chocolate-shower-fantasy-girl.
99. I don’t care much for flowers, except the pink sunflowers.
100. The most important thing in the world is to sleep, and that’s what I’m doing now.

No, no prize, sorry, but I caught you.

Prabhu


December 30th, 2009

Short and sweet, this one. What’s your cyborg/robot name??

Lift

December 30th, 2009

I’m momentarily caught in elation.  I feel good.  The meds have been making me sleep an adequate number of hours and when I wake up I stay awake.  I had some trouble at first when I took the Oleanz+ & Zee at 7:30 am so I was asleep by 8 and woke up a3 pm.   I adjusted it.  Now I am waking up at 5:30 pm and I stay awake! I have always had night time drowsiness so this is great.

I have been reading a lot, too.  Getting caught in Wikipedia for entire hours reading all sorts of things from The Middle Ages to Subatomic Particles.  At the same time I downloaded a huge collection of science books and I’m obsessed with static electricity.   I’m in love with science.  I understand little of it, but I’m in love.

I’ve stopped...

December 29th, 2009

I’ve stopped trying to be things I am not.
I stopped thinking my mind worked different ways than the rest of the humans. I feel normal even by being a weirdo. Most of the times…
I don’t feel as a loner as much as I used to. I learned to adapt to other people being different and enjoy my time with them, otherwise just get away, not linger while wondering “why I’m such a weirdo I can’t get along with them”.
I stopped feeling bad because I enjoyed being alone.
I stopped trying to make everyone happy just so I could fit.
I don’t feel ashamed of my flaws as often as I used to.
I’ve stopped being scared when “euthymic“.
I’ve stopped losing weight!.
I’ve been feeling more comfortable in my new home.
I’ve became a full  agnostic instead of atheist.

Less Abstract complaints…

December 28th, 2009

- My cellphone Got Stolen (again)!
- One of my new books, that I had not paid for yet, also got stolen!
- The batteries of my mums cellphone are dead and won’t return.
- I’m too broke to buy new ones.
- I’ve had to eat hotel food all week, because nobody is at home.
- Been watching pirate movies alone instead of going to the cinema due to me being broke.
- Still 3 months and 12 days until I at least have the possibility of getting a job that pays… even by selling computers.
- What the f..k… blogspot has a word count… now I’m obsessed… 5180
- I have work tomorrow and I don’t want to!
Oh, life is good. Yay! 175 words!.. damn, I ruined it.

Keyboards 'dirtier than a toilet'

December 27th 2009

Some computer keyboards harbour more harmful bacteria than a toilet seat, research has suggested.
Consumer group Which? said tests at its London offices found equipment carrying bugs that could cause food poisoning.
Out of 33 keyboards swabbed, four were regarded as a potential health hazard and one harboured five times more germs than one of the office's toilet seats.
Microbiologist Dr Peter Wilson said a keyboard was often "a reflection of what is in your nose and in your gut".
During the Which? tests in January this year, a microbiologist deemed one of the office's keyboards to be so dirty he ordered it to be removed, quarantined and cleaned.
It had 150 times the recommended limit for bacteria - five times as filthy as a lavatory seat tested at the same time, the research found.

Should somebody have a cold in your office, or 
even have gastroenteritis, you're very likely to 
pick it up from a keyboard
Dr Peter Wilson
Consultant microbiologist

The equipment was swabbed for bugs, such as those that can cause food poisoning like E.coli and staphylococcus aureus.
Dr Wilson, a consultant microbiologist at University College London Hospital, told BBC Radio 5 Live sharing a keyboard could be passing on illnesses among office workers.
"If you look at what grows on computer keyboards, and hospitals are worse, believe it or not, it's more or less a reflection of what's in your nose and in your gut," he said.
"Should somebody have a cold in your office, or even have gastroenteritis, you're very likely to pick it up from a keyboard."
Which? said one of the causes of dirty keyboards was users eating lunch at their desk, with crumbs encouraging the growth of bacteria.
Poor personal hygiene, such as not washing hands after going to the toilet, could also be to blame, it said.
Cleaning techniques
Which? computing editor Sarah Kidner advised users to give their computer "a spring clean".
"It's quite simple to do and could prevent your computer from becoming a health hazard," she said.
She said dust and food crumbs should be shaken out of keyboards and they should be wiped with a soft, lightly dampened, lint-free cloth. They should also be disinfected with alcohol wipes.
Research by the University of Arizona last year found the average office desktop harboured 400 times more bacteria than the average office toilet seat.
They also found that, compared to men, on average women have three to four times the amount of germs in, on and around their work area.