Meme Fi5teen

June 7 2010

The Se7en Layer

LAYER 1: Tell us your... 
* Name: Prabhu
* Birthday (month, day): June 15 
* Birthplace: Tiruppur
* Current location: Chennai
* Eye color: Black
* Hair color: Black
* Height: 175 cms
* Righty or lefty: Righty
* Zodiac sign: Gemini


LAYER 2: What's...
* Your heritage: Love
* The shoes you wore today: Green
* Your weakness: Emotion
* Your fears: Alto phobia
* Your perfect pizza: Chicken cheese with chilly flakes
* Goals you’d like to achieve: Adopt a child
* Your first waking thoughts: How ll b today?
* Your best physical feature: Eyes & Nose
* Your most missed memory: Anipra


LAYER 3: Do you...
* Smoke: Nope
* Cuss: Sorry
* Sing: Yes
* Do you think you’ve been in love: Of course!
* Did you go to college: Yes
* Liked high school: Very much
* Want to get/stay married: Ya!
* Believe in yourself: Trying
* Think you’re attractive: Some what
* Think you’re a health freak: Yes
* Get along with your parent(s): Ya
* Like thunderstorms: Nope
* Play an instrument: Learning


LAYER 4: In the past month have you… 
* Drank alcohol: Yes
* Smoked: Once upon a time
* Done a drug: Yes
* Made out: Yes
* Gone on a date: Yes
* Gone to the mall: Yes
* Eaten an entire box of Oreos:. A lot
* Eaten sushi: Yes
* Been on stage: Nope
* Been dumped: Yes
* Gone skating: No
* Gone skinny dipping: Yes
* Stolen Anything: Yes


LAYER 5: Have you ever…
* Played a game that required removal of clothing: In childhood
* Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: Nope
* Been caught “doing something”: Many times
* Been called a tease: During teenage
* Gotten beaten up: Yes
* Shoplifted: Nope


LAYER 6:
* Age you did get/hope to be married: Yes
* Numbers and names of children (either you have or want): 2, Auro and Aathiti
* Describe your dream mate: Anipra
* How do you want to die: Peacefully
* What did you want to be when you grow up: A good human
* What country would you most like to visit: Australia


LAYER 7: Now tell...
* Name a drug you’ve taken illegally: Pentazocine mixed with  Promethazine
* Name a person you could trust with my life: Sharmila
* Name a favorite CD that you own: Yanni's Acropolis
* Number of piercings: 2
* Number of tattoos: Nope
* Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: Once
* Name a past experience that you regret: I was a drug addict 

The Sunday Stupid Thirty-Three:: Meme 4 teen

June 6 2010

1. When was the last time you cried?
Yesterday :(

2. Were you named after anyone?
Nope!!

3. Why are you so fickle when it comes to women?
Duno!!

4. What is your favorite lunch?
Of course Chicken

5. Do you have kids?
Nope!!

6. If you were another person would you be friends with you?
Ya!

7. Do you use sarcasm a lot?
Nope!!

8. Do you still have your tonsils?
Yes :(

9. Would you bungee jump?
I love it!

10. What is your favorite cereal?
Corn flakes

11. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off
No

12. Do you think you are strong enough to be with me?
Yes

13. What is your favorite ice cream?
Black forest

14. What is the first thing you notice about people?
Eyes

15. Red or pink?
Pink (means Krithi)

16. What is your least favorite thing about yourself?
Nose

17. Who do you mess with the most?
My Dad

18. What was the last thing you ate?
Idly & dosa

19. What are you listening to right now?
AR Rahman's fusion

20. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Sharmila

21. Why aren't you married?
Arghhhhh....

22. Last movie you watched?
My name is Khan

23. What did you dream about last night?
Anipra, anipra, anipra

24. What book are you reading?
How to stop worrying and start living

25. Summer or winter?
Winter

26. Hugs or kisses?
Both

27. Do you have any special talents?
Lots to say

28. What are they?
Secret

29. What did you watch on TV last?
Songs

30. What is your favorite sound?
Piano

31. Rolling Stones or The Beatles?
Rolling stones

32. Most likely to respond to this meme?
Sruthi and Pooja

33. Least likely to respond?
Not sure...

Tamil Anthem by AR Rahman

June 5 2010

Semmozhiyaana Tamizh Mozhiyaam is a Tamil anthem composed by A. R. Rahman, penned by Tamil Nadu Chief Minister Kalaignar M. Karunanidhi and performed by several leading Tamil artistes of over three generations

A major highlight of the anthem is that it features singers who have distinguished themselves in other genres of music such as Carnatic (Aruna Sayeeram, Bombay Jaishree, Nithyashree and Sowmya), folk, Sufi (M.Y. Abdul Ghani, Khajamoideen, Naresh Iyer) and rap (Blaaze).

"The Finish This Sentence" Meme 13een

June 4 2010

1. My uncle once Caught me while drunk

2. Never in my life have I been as embarrassed, angry and ashamed when I was in jail

3. When I was three my parents send me to school

4. High school was a place I learned a lot

5. I will never forget to cut my nails

6. Once I met  Rajini kanth in his home

7. There’s this girl I know who makes my life sober

8. Once, at a bar, I am lost

9. By noon, I’m definitely nap

10. Last night I had a terrible dream

11. If only I had a good idea for a business… Then I'd be rich!

12. Last time I go to temple  with Anipra

13. What worries me most is that my Parents! yep

14. When I turn my head left I see the sky

15. When I turn my head right I see my bro guru standing and watching me

16. You know I’m lying when I deserve it

17. What I miss most about the Eighties is my Parents

18. If I were a character in Shakespeare I’d be Romeo

19. By this time next year I will start my computer showroom

20. A better name for me would be PEPSI

21. I have a hard time understanding  feeling my way through it ...

22. If I ever go back to school, I’ll have good everlasting friendship

23. You know I like you if I love you

24. If I ever won an award, the first person I would thank would be my Saravanan Anna

25. Take my advice, never GIVE UP!

Meme Twe1v2

June 3 2010

1. If you suddenly became single or are single, do you think you could last in a relationship for 12 months or more?
Sure (as I am now).

2. Do you forgive or forget?
I can usually forgive...it's the forgetting part that's very hard.

3. Do you trust people?
I try.....

4. What are you not looking forward to?
It getting really hot & humid again this summer-ugh!

5. Do you get mad easily?
Uhhh....yeahh....

6. Tell us about the last time you were told you that you have pretty eyes.
Hm....I don't remember...my eyes are teeny tiny so it would be a weird compliment.

7. Do you have strange dreams?
Almost always.

8. Tell us about the last time you fell asleep in someones arms.
I don't know if I've ever done that.

9. When did you last play a game?
I played GTA IV with my bro a few days back. He lost...but of course I did!

10. What do you have on you at all times?
Cellphone!

11. Do you go out in public without getting well dressed up?
Sometimes....I usually feel really gross so I don't do it often.

12. Do you like fruity or minty gum?
Depends.

13. Favourite musician or concert?
A.R Rahman is my all-time favorite musician. Favorite concert could possibly be Bombay Dreams.

14. Do you like anyone?
I love 'em!!!

15. Favourite computer game?
Um.....GTA always.

16. First album you ever went and bought with your own money?
Hmm.....INDIAN by AR.Rahman. I think probably march 1996.

17. Think back five months ago, were you single?
 It's hard to say.

18. Do you believe in celebrating birthdays?
I will acknowledge 'em but usually don't do much celebrating.

19. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
I hope so...that would be nice!

20. Last thing you bought?
A gift for Sharmila.

21. Are you a jealous person?
Nope, and I hate those who are!

22. Does it take a lot to make you cry?
Not really.

23. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
Yes, and she's a really awesome friend.

24. Have you ever had your heart-broken?
Yes...smashed, broken, and bruised....:(

25. Have you ever done something while drunk that you still cannot believe you did?
Yes.

26. Is there anyone you secretly wish you could be spending your time with right now?
Yes.

27. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
No cuz I'm doing this and I probably wouldn't want to grab it (Lazy Prabhu).

28. Is your life anything like it was a year ago?
Yes...and no. Wasn't in the way I am now. So that's a good thing.

29. Go back one year on your blog. Leave us a link to your favorite post.
I know AWARDS don't mean EVERYTHING but this award was a nice one to get from a former friend/Blogger. The post is HERE.

30. You can only drink ONE hot drink for the rest of your life, what is it?
Oooooooo....of course it'd have to be an Iced vodka. YUM!

31. Tell us about someone that you have lost contact with someone you wish you didn't.
My ever loving Anipra. I believe she's in Pollachi but honestly I couldn't be for sure. Was one of the hardest "breakups" in my life. I think I have ever experienced. I still think of her...and wonder how she's doing.

32. What is the last thing you said out loud?
"Guru don't do that and you should start getting ready." (We are going to our uncle's home)

33. Will this year be better than last?
Hope so...guess we shall see. :)

Unconditional love

June 2 2010

Unconditional love sometime means.. just let someone hold us a little while when he/she’s going tough times… without excting returns…

and sometime means… holding them as they walk through those tough time…

My 600th Post

June 1 2010

Hello there! It's my 600th post & it's time to celebrate it with a GIVEAWAY. So here's how it's gonna go: please answer the following questions that I will list below, then e-mail your answers to me (I don't want people to see 'em here). And in one month (or maybe less) I will announce the lucky person. To participate in this giveaway, all I ask is that you either

1 Are a follower of my Blog

2 You become a follower of my Blog.

The prize is......well, it's a surprise. But there will be plenty of nice goodies and a small piece of my Gesture as well. That's the only hints you're gonna get right now. ;)

Also, Please Leave A Comment on THIS post if you choose to do the giveaway. I guess that's the other thing I would like to ask you for. That way you all will know how many people are participating. OK, sound good? If you have any questions, either let me know HERE or e-mail me to

prabhupepsi@gmail.com

So the questions. And they are....

1) Name TWO of my favorite persons 
2) If you could describe MY BLOG in 3 words, what would those words be?
3) If I were stuck on a desert island, name 3 things you think I would bring.

So this giveaway is a little bit YOU and a little bit ME. I hope you like answering these questions and please e-mail them to me by JUNE 15th(on my birthday). My e-mail address is: prabhupepsi@gmail.com

I look forward to seeing your answers!
Enjoy your JUNE~

PS: Photography by Guru.

Towards 30

May 31 2010

I noticed that a few close friends that I have at this point of my life now will be entering 30s this year.   For the past 4 weeks, my conversations with them have evolved around life after 30s.  Now that they have a steady career, steady streams of in-come, some are deciding on their next dream family, some brand new car, few thinking of investing into businesses.

I will be turning 30 in a few weeks and have another 10 years before the big 40.  I have been asking myself what do I want to have achieved by 40.  What do I want to have accumulated to prepare for my life  journey into years of 40s.  The list is getting longer.  Here’s few that I want so far..

Driving my dream car(Ambassador)…
Be d’ Man of  Business (only few will know what is this)
Have my own Digital Condo set up by 33 with the latest wireless and home IP gadgets.
Sufficient cash to start up a new business in Pollachi or my google valet franchise (by than it might be something else).
Cover AUSTRALIA or US or CUBA or SINGAPORE (all countries) by 40s.
I have no idea how I am going to achieve all these including my dream car… .  As for now, I think I need more money.  The question is how do I make more risk-free money other than my business & investment now? I have no idea..

I will just continue to persue my number 1 dream for now and start working on the rest once it is stabalized. Pray fully too it will fullfill all the rest of my dreams in my life.

Life

May  31 2010

Life often evolves in a very mysterious way, bringing along unanticipated experiences and therefore lessons. The outcome of our life is resulted from how we respond to these experiences. If we received it with open arms, learn to adapt and evolve with it… we progress, we grow. On the other hand, one who resent it, rejects it… regress into anger, bitterness & and eventually… depression.

The fundamental difference is ’CHOICE’… how we choose to respond when life experiences come knocking on our door.

The second fundamental is… to love, respect and be patient with one another despite the choices they made. We can still do that though we might disagree with his/her choice.

What’s freedom… actually?

May 30 2010

When we were kids…Being waken from our sleep, Dragged to school through the years. Life seems like a bottomless peak…We can’t wait for freedom after graduations. When we started work, As bills and debts mountains. We can’t wait to get married… with someone to share our burdens yet after D’day… we lost ourselves trying to be good spouse, in-laws, and  parents..

Life is trapped once again and we lost completely, our freedom.When they are all gone… the young and old
The mountains of debts and bills and parenting guilt.Life finally found its freedom…Only to face with our body saying… it’s about time to draw down the curtains…

So… what’s freedom… actually?.

Toyz II

May 29 2010

How often when we were caught in a rush-hour traffic, we noticed that we were SOV like others in a 5-passengers vehicles?  (SOV=single-occupant vehicle).  It would be really beautiful if every drivers uses this cute single-passenger-vehicles instead for ‘around the town’ trips. 

Lithium battery powered, no more heartache when the fuel price when up!  A cute toyz to have at Rs 1391700 INR each.

More info and photos of this Toyz

Letting go...

May 28 2010

The hardest thing in life, is choosing to let go of something beatiful, and dearly loved..

Lost

May 27 2010

Facebook, AIM, Photobucket, LinkedIn, Xing, NetLog, Twitter, FriendFeed, Rediff, Google, Hotmail, Podcast, flickr, Blog, WordPress, YouTube, RSS, Digg, Delicious… with hundreds of feeds, thousands of applications… new games, movies, music, messages and news streaming into our life by the second.  We are living in a very exciting age with so many choices and so much we can do vie the world of net…

… Sometimes we do not realized how lost we are.

I Miss You...

 May 26 2010

It was almost perfect in every little way…

The gentle touch, the quiet whisper and the assuring voice.

It brings cheer into my life, yet tears through many nights.

I knew it all along, it is not mine to own.

Thus this chapter is written… the final finale…

30 Major Barriers to Success

May 25 2010

1. Unfavorable Hereditary Background
2. Lack of Well-Defined Purpose in Life
3. Lack of Ambition to Aim Above Mediocrity
4. Insufficient Education (Education is defined as ability to learn to get whenever one want in life without violating the rights of others)
5. Lack of Self-Discipline
6. Ill Health
7. Unfavorable Environmental Influences during Childhood
8. Procrastination
9. Lack of Persistence
10. Negative Personality
11. Lack fo Controlled Sexual Urge
12. Uncontrolled Desire for ‘Something for Nothing’
13. Lack of a Well-Defined Power of Decision
14. One or More of the Six Basic Fears
15. Wrong Selection of a Mate in Marriage
16. Over Caution
17. Wrong Selection of Associated in Business
18. Superstition and Prejudice
19. Wrong Selection of a Vocation
20. Lack of Concentration of Effort
21. The Habit of Indiscriminate Spending
22. Lack of Enthusiasm
23. Intolerance
24. Intemperance
25. Inability to Corporate with Others
26. Procession of Power not acquired through Self-Effort
27. Intentional Dishonesty
28. Egotism and Vanity
29. Guessing Instead of Thinking
30. Lack of Capital

If you are reading this, take time to reflect where you are now in your life.  How happy are you now with what you have achieved so far from the scales of 1 – 5 in the are of your family life, social, health (physical, mental, emotional), financial, career, spiritual, compared to where you want to be.

What’s stoping you from achieving your desires.   Take time to go through the above list again and identify the top 5 reasons that stop you from achieving your goals.

Meanwhile, just as Success does not define who we are, our Failure does not define us too.

I don't feel like....

May 24 2010

I don’t feel like going out tonight.

I don’t feel like walking through the cold and mist in the dark.  

I don’t feel like having the wind hit me in the face making my eyes water.  

I don’t feel like being an acrobat placing my feet in just the right spots so I don’t fall.  

I don’t feel like being out twice as long because it takes that much longer to walk anywhere. 

I have to go to my work tonight; the one I signed up for just to socialize.  That’s it; my only motive.  I really get nothing out of it, well, other than meeting a few people.

How do these types of people get a free pass?

May 23 2010

I lay on the icy cold tiles in my room for 2 hours last night crying, just wanting to die. It’s all my broken links.  I’m made up of them.  No one listens to me and I feel like I have no sense of control in my life. What I asked for seemed so simple and I gave clear directions and yet they do what they want instead of what I asked.  I was given a lot of crap that I would have been humiliated to present to anyone.  I never get away with anything like that and it just makes me wonder why I’m held to a higher standard than the rest.  How do these types of people get a free pass?

While on the floor I decided I’m not going back to Pollachi.  It is really dragging me down and I don’t need any reminders of how weak some of my relationships are.  I would have thought twice about taking this steps again if I had known it was going to focus on my weakest skills and my weakest relationships I had.  This isn't the time.  I don’t need to focus on my weaknesses I need to focus on my strengths.  I need to protect myself.  I’m hanging on by a thread.

Casual

May 22 2010

Ignore problems until the very last minute, build up the pressure. I respect looking for something by expecting; simply staring. Heaven forbid I could put work before pleasure. And I do, take pleasure in working more than worrying – My destructive piece of mind struggles otherwise as my lazy side concedes – I believe, everything could be perfect in the end. And constant happiness is possible.

No-one Knows

May 21 2010

How can one describe a feeling so numb?
Of the highest highs and deepest disguise-
I was going to live my life, I swear…

And it won’t be the distance that does it
Nor the constant pushing away
Rather never knowing
Of leaving bed, moods and heads
To sway; to stay, today?

Meme E11even

May 20 2010

1. Last movie you saw in a theater?
Rettai suzhi (Tamil movie)

2. What book are you reading?
I just finished reading ‘Life of Che’ and don't think i’ll have much time for another good one for a long time!

3. Favorite board game?
OK, I cant play chess. But earlier on I did Enjoy playing Business and Sherlock Holmes.

4. Favorite magazine?
I have been reading Anandha Vikatan for almost 15 years till now. And now they also have a whole lot of others like India today, simply chennai, aspire… so a good enough package.

5. Favorite smells?
Wet earth, Petrol, My pillow.

6. Favorite sounds?
A good laugh that comes from the heart. I also had this wind chimes made of mud in my previous home. It used to make the softest of sounds and i used to love it. But while shifting it broke.

7. Worst feeling in the world?
I dunno but a lot to say…. hmmm

8. What is the first thing you think of when you wake up?
Oh! I always wonder if I can sleep for some more time!

9. Favorite fast food place?
Not much of a fast food person. lol.

10. Future child’s name?
Boy will be named Aathi, and the girl will be named Anika. lol…. wt a question

11. Finish this statement. “If I had lot of money I’d….?
I dunno what I would do, but I would love to spend some of it and travel to Australia and Kashmir!!

12. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?
Oh, never!

13. Storms – cool or scary?
We don't really get to see a lot of storms in Pollachi. But a day ago or so, when it rained, there was hailstone, thunder, lightning, trees were uprooted and power was cut. it was not so cool after a point!

14. Favorite drink?
These days its more of coconut water n PEPSI too.

15. Finish this statement, “If I had the time I would….”?
Blog more often!! visit places, friends, reply to mails, shop, spend time at a resort…. oh the list!!

16. Do you eat the stems on broccoli?
Oh yes…

17. If you could dye your hair any color, what would be your choice?
I’v been coloring my hair ever since I was in Hsc. It’s mostly shades of black or brown for me.

18. Name all the different cities/towns you’ve lived in?
Pollachi, Chennai & Bangalore.

19. Favorite sports to watch?
Football  and Tennis. Depending on my mood I also enjoy Cricket n F1. Though cricket is my last choice.

20. One nice thing about the person who sent this to you?
A lot of nice things actually. He is good looking, smart, zany, funny, intelligent and cool! (I was made to write this, lol)

21. What’s under your bed?
Her photo. lol!!.

22. Would you like to be born as yourself again?
If you have made a secret wish to be born as me, then I ll b U.

23. Morning person, or night owl?
Morning person huh? What do you mean?... I have only Nights.

24. Over easy, or sunny side up?
I dont like omelets!! thank u

25. Favorite place to relax?
My room!

26. Favorite pie?
blueberry pie from Cake Walk. They make the best!!

27. Favorite ice cream flavor?
Venilla n Falooda!

28. Of all the people you tagged this to, who’s most likely to respond first?
I think most of them have done this already.

Sharmi's Photography

May 19 2010

Videos in GOOGLE WAVE

May 18 2010

Update:  Embedding video in a wave is easier than I thought. Just paste the video URL, and it will show a small icon at the end of the URL, asking if you want to embed the video. Click that, and you are done.

And check out the Google Wave Extension for Google Chrome too !!

Google wave is not just for communication and collaboration. It’s for fun and entertainment too. Can you imagine entertainment on the web without Youtube videos ? …  here is sweet plugin that lets you embed youtube videos in to a WAVE.

HTML Gadget, the Plugin

You Tube Video on Google Wave

This wave addon lets you add HTML, CSS and Javascript codes to your WAVE. To embed a Youtube video, you need enable this plugin, and then copy paste the youtube video’s embed code as you do on normal webpages and blog posts. Simple ? You will get more details about this plugin from this page.

I will be updating this post with more information and screenshots when Google Wave is experienced. Stay tuned....

Journey in silence

May 17 2010

This week I have been driving to and from work in silence. A bit of a struggle for me as my mind tends to wander in all sorts of directions if I’m not distracting myself with music or tv or any loud sound to quiet my mind. I’ve found that this mini mental break has actually been really good for me. Not only has it been a nice break for my normally out of control mind, it has given me an opportunity for insight.

This morning on my way into work I was thinking about how my mind works. It is a perfectionist’s mind. It expects daily miracles. There is nothing wrong with setting high goals but in recovery it is important to be realistic. My mind says “do something the correct way once and you will be healed”, the problem with thinking this way is that when I do something the correct way and I still have anxiety, my anxiety gets worse, I beat myself up for not being “better”.

Dreamz!

May 16 2010

I am a dreamer… at least in my sleep.  I dream very frequently as often as every night since very much younger.  Sometimes I love it, especially when I have sufficient sleep and woke up with a smile on my face.  Some times I hate it… especially when I was chasing something or be chased, teeth falling out, falling, fights between love ones, arriving late to some important functions.


Sometimes dreams can be very helpful… a solutions to an issue which I have been working on.  Sometimes it is a warning… like ‘drive carefully!’.  Sometimes it’s a mystery… Sometimes it’s boringly black and white, and sometimes I can remember the colour, the touch, the smells, and the feelings… especially when it is a beautiful dream.

As I aged teen, I began to enjoy dreams more… especially dreams that repeats my Anipra and my daily errants in life.  Whenever I am stressed, my dreams evolve around the situations that I was stressed about…. to the point I have to ask myself , ‘…did I actually made that promise, call that decision, met the person or did that happened in my dream?’…  Whenever that happened, I woke up feeling like I have not slept!.

Tonight, I yearn for dreamless night to have a complete rest after few days of eventful dreams!

Meme Ten

May 15 2010

My Random Things

1. What was I doing 10 years ago?

A happy, fun loving, mischievous college student.

2. What are five things on my to-do list for today (not in any particular order).

Actually nothing is on my to-do list right now because it's 1:20am and I'm dead tired. I will post my to-do list for tomorrow:

Go to work.

Clean my room.

Want to download a software for my client.

Search a groom in Tamil matrimonial for sharmila.

Call my Mom to tell her the movie times. She wants us to watch a movie together Saturday afternoon.

3. Snacks I enjoy:

Plum Cake

Pineapple

Potato Chips

Corn

Cherries

4. Things I would do if I was a billionaire:

Adopt a child, if financially and emotionally capable.

Give money to all of my family members and friends so that they can pay off their bills and mortgages.

Take a trip around the world.

Build a house on the mountain's foot step in Aliyar.

Sit at the top of a London double-decker bus.

Attend a World Cup match.

Ride on a desert safari.

Live six months in Australia and two two months in other countries.

Take a trip on the Orient Express (I have wanted to do that since I was a child).

Visit Anipra in Pollachi and take her out for a coffee.

Get a trainer and work out. Also attend yoga classes.

Buy a boat and jet around the lake.

Pay off all of my bills and mortgage and get a financial investor to make a plan to invest/save the rest of the money.

Wow...that is a lot...but then again it is a billion dollars. There is so much more that I would do but don't have all night.

5. Three of my bad habits:

It used to be drinking, but I quit a year ago (I still crave them like mad, though!).

Not having enough discipline and getting to bed way too late.

Wanting everything to be in its place and clean where I live (I am fine if others aren't this way where they live and don't mind at all).

Driving too fast.

6. Four places I have lived:

Pollachi

Chennai

Bangalore

Tiruppur

7. Five jobs I have had:

Customer care Aircel.

Worked as computer science teacher in a School.

First job was at 21 in a computer showroom.

Technical support in sony play station.

Programmer in ABT Infosys.

Anyone wanting to do the same meme let me know that you did so that I can visit and learn more about you.

+2 Hsc result 2010

May 14 2010

Guru You Did It Da!

Another Feather On your Crown

Humor Of The Week

May 13 2010

Eternal Sunshine

May 12 2010

I continue to feel better mentally. It has to be attributed to the Oleanz that was newly prescribed. I have always had a low-level depression biting my head even on "good days", but I don't even have that now. Not only that, I am actually sleeping well with no assistance from Ativan. I am getting tired around 10:00pm, go to sleep, sleep through the night and wake up at a good time. It is amazing to me that this is occurring when remembering how not long ago I would go night after night with no sleep.

Could all of this be the Oleanz? Does it really give "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind"? (love that movie, by the way)

1/2 step forward out of 999 steps...

May 11 2010

Within the last 2 weeks:

1. I started my job.

2. Unemployment gone.

3. I have money coming in now.

4. I've visited about 5-9 companies per week and have gotten maybe 3 phone calls and

worked out for 2 and got succeed 1.

6. I'm almost 1 week advertisement payment behind.

7. Also 2 months on phone/internet.

8. I just spent the last of my money on dinner(last night), Cell Phone top up for 50rs.

9. Sruthi and I are now friends.

If anyone in the Coimbatore area needs a top notch Hardware and Networking Engineer Just call Google Valet-9788116669 that can rescue your computer, oh...yes, please let me know.

Actually, if anyone in the Coimbatore area needs anyone to do anything in computers, please let me know. Um, legally speaking.

Please please please send good thoughts this way ya'll - I don't know what I'm going to do. Just Help me....

Amazing Lady

May 10 2010

Krithi & Kavin Birthday Wishes

May 9 2010

Happy Birthday Da Krithi & Kavin

Again One Word !

May 8 2010

1. Where is your cell phone? Hand
2. Your boyfriend/girlfriend? Who?
3. Your hair? thin
4. Work? tiring
5. Your father? cool
6. Your favorite thing? sleeping
7. Your dream last night? awesome
8. Your favorite drink? PEPSI
9. Your dream car? Ambassador (truly Indian)
10. The room you’re in? Silence
11. Your pet? None
12. Your fears? growing
13. What do you want to be in 10 years? Alive
14. Where did you hang out yesterday? Coonoor 
15. What you’re not good at? relations
16. Eyebrow rings? Nope
17. One of your wish list items? love
18. Where you grew up? Pollachi
19. The last thing you did? work
20. What are you wearing? clothes
21. What aren’t you wearing? vest
22. Do you currently like someone? no
23. Your computer? world
24. Your life? messy
25. Hungover? nope
26. Missing? sanity
27. Thinking about? life
28. Eating? ugh
29. The weather? nice
30. Your summer? gone
31. Your relationship status? Nonexistent 
32. Your favorite color? pink
33. When is the last time you laughed? hour
34. Last time you cried? daily
35. School? VVV

100 Tamil Flowers On Your B'day Anna...

May 7 2010

Anna I learned 100 tamil flower names. 

I like to greet you with this flowers 

On your Birthday anna... 

Kantal, Ambal, Aniccham, Kuvalai, Kurinchi, Vetchi, Sen -kodu-veri, Thema, Mani-cci-kai, Untul, Kuvilam,

Erul, Sulli, Kuviram, Vada-vanam, Vakai, Kudacham, Eruvai, Ceruvilai, Karuvilam, Payini, Vani, Kuruvam,

Pasum-piti, Vakulam, Kaya, Avirai, Veral, Sural, Ciru-pulai, Kuru-naru-n-kanni, Kurukilai, Marutham,

Kongkam, Pongkam, Tilakam, Pathiri, Cerunthi, Atiral, Senbagam, Karanthai, Kulavi, Maa-maram, Tillai,

Palai, Mullai, Mull-makil, Kanchang-kullai, Pitavam, Cen-karungkali, Vaalai, Valli, Neytal, Talai, Talavam, 

Tamarai,Nalal, Mauval, Kokudi, Setal, Cemmal, Ciru-seng-kurali, Kodal, Kaitai, valai, Kanchi, Manik-kulai,

Pangkar, Maravam, Tanakkam, Ingkai, Ilavam, Kondrai, Atumpu, Atti, Avarai, Pakandrai, Palasam, Pinti,

Vanchi, Pittikam, Sindu-varam, Tumpai, Tulaiy, Thondri, Nanthi, Naravam, Pun-naakam, Param, Piiram, 

Kurukatti, Aram, Kalvai, Punnai, Narantham, Naga-p-poo, Nallirunari, Kuruntam, Venkai, Pulaku.....

I think...

May 6 2010

I think that sometimes, people don't die from suicide or from accidents or illnesses.

I think that sometimes, people die because they simply lose their will to continue with life.

Once the will to keep fighting is gone, something changes in their hearts.

With no will to keep going, you simply don't.

Meme Nine

May 5 2010

1) Wheres the person you like right now?
She's in her bed sleeping.

2) Last time you consumed alcohol?
February 27 night. On her B'day.

3) What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
Not sleeping, probably looking at the clock cursing in my head about how I'm NOT SLEEPING.

4) What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Stupid work.

5) How do you feel about the person who texted you last?
Lots & lots of affection.

6) Have you ever been around someone who was high?
...this is hilarious.  A better question was have I ever been around someone that is NOT high.

7) Do you like your life as of now?
Nope, I love my amazing parents.

8 ) Last thing you purchased?
Stupid Processor fan at RS 375.

9) Have you ever drank with your number one?
Not sure what this means exactly... my number one what... friend?  Lovah?  Number one friend?  Actually - if it is any of those - yes.

10) Where are you right now, and how do you feel about where you are?
I'm at blog and I love it.  It's 4:36am and I should be IN BED.

11) What are you excited for?
The possibilities with Ani, how well my Krithi's doing in school - especially with her writing and art.

12) Hows your heart lately?
Hopeful for the first time in a LONG time.

13) Who was the last person you hugged?
Vicky.

14) Who was the last person to hold your hand?
Samu perima.

15) Are you a jealous person?
Nope.

16) Did you have a good birthday this year?
Waiting for it. Next month.

17) Are you tired right now?
Wow..... HORRIFICALLY.

18 ) What are your outlooks on gay/bisexual relationships?
As long as people are happy, I couldn't care less what sex they are.

19) Do you chew on your straws?
No.

20) Have you ever been called a tease?
Yes.

21) Last Message on orkut from?
Pooja.

22) Three days from now will you be in a relationship?
More than likely no, since we both apparently separated 2 years back.

23) Do you have curly hair?
No

24) Who was at your house last?
Samu perima & peripa

25) Do you smoke cigarettes?
No

26) Do you lead people on?
Nah

27) Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
There was lots of kissing the last person I kissed.

28 ) Have you ever told someone of the opposite sex you loved them and meant it?
Yes, I said to only one thats Ani and I mean it.

29) Is there something you wanna do?
OH GOD, could some of these questions be more random?

30) As of today, do you like anyone?
Nope

31) Have you kissed anyone on the lips today?
No, waaaah.

32) Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?
Heehee...ho....ha......  YES.

33) Do you like to cuddle?
Nope.

34) Last song you heard?
Veera veera from Ravana.

35) Last person you cried over?
My grandma a few months ago who died.

36) Do you cry easily?
Tough question, sometimes yes - sometimes now.

37) Do you have any siblings?
None.

38 ) Where did you go today ?
Computer Embassy and Annapoorna in Coimbatore.

39) What should you be doing right now?
Sleeping.

40) Are you a heavy sleeper?
Ok, now it's just being rubbed in my face.  NO.

41) When was the last time you did the dishes?
Yesterday

42) Name every one that made you smile today:
In this order: Mom, Juju, Samu Perima.

Ineffective Daily Affirmations

May 4 2010

Feeling blue or insecure? Losing sight of what’s important? Still searching for the real “you”? In this self-help age of soul-searching, daily affirmations have been known to do the trick.
But you probably shouldn’t try these …
I have the power to channel my imagination into ever-soaring levels of suspicion and paranoia.
I assume full responsibility for my actions, except the ones that are someone else’s fault.
I no longer need to punish, deceive or compromise myself. Unless, of course, I want to be employed.
In some cultures what I do would be considered normal.
Having control over myself is nearly as good as having control over others.
My intuition nearly makes up for my lack of good judgment.
I can change any thought that hurts into a reality that hurts even more.
I honor my personality flaws, for without them I would have no personality at all.
I am grateful that I am not as judgmental as all those censorious, self- righteous people around me.
I need not suffer in silence while I can still moan, whimper and complain.
When someone hurts me, forgiveness is cheaper than a lawsuit. But not nearly as gratifying.
All of me is beautiful and valuable, even the ugly, stupid and disgusting parts.
I am at one with my duality.
Only a lack of imagination saves me from immobilizing myself with imaginary fears.
I honor and express all facets of my being, regardless of state and local laws.
Today I will gladly share my experience and advice, for there are no sweeter words than “I told you so.”
I am learning that criticism is not nearly as effective as sabotage.
Becoming aware of my character defects leads me to the next step — blaming my parents.
I will find humor in my everyday life by looking for people I can laugh at.

Wanna ride huh?

May 3 2010

I can see me on this! The Amazing Sidecar: “Snaefell” by François Knorreck.

Check out the side views here.

Found Note...

May 2 2010

I have been so busy lately. I know I have a lot to catch up on, reading and writing, but will be busy the next few days. Sorry. I owe Pooja a reply on her disclosure post and I read a very interesting post by Sruthi  that I want to comment on. But I was going through some things in my storage area and came across this note … I wanted to share it:

On This Day:

Mend a quarrel

Search for a forgotten friend

Dismiss a suspicion, replace it with trust.

Write a letter to someone who misses you

Encourage a youth who has lost faith

Keep a promise

Forget an old grudge

Examine your demands on others and vow to reduce them.

Fight for a principle

Express your gratitude

Overcome an old fear

Take two minutes to appreciate the beauty of nature

Downloaded krithi & kavin Photos

Tell someone you love him/her

Tell them again

and again

and again.

99% vs. 100% honesty

May 1 2010

Two days ago, I stopped telling little stupid lies. Since then, my life has improved by a ridiculous amount.

There is a big difference between 99% and 100%. 100% committed is far more powerful than 99% committed. 100% confident is far more useful than 99% confident. And 100% honest is far more empowering than 99% honest.

99% honest is pretty good, it’s true. The 1% of my dishonesty was mostly either “fudging by rounding” or “little white lies”.  Here are some examples.

Mom: “Did you see that actor sivakumar's speech in vijay tv ?”

Me: “Yeah, it was really nice!”

My thoughts: “Huh, why did I say that? I didn’t see it at all.”

Dad: “Are you okay with this plan?”

Me: “Yeah.”

My thoughts: “I’m mostly okay with this plan, and that’s close enough that I don’t feel like making a big deal out of it.”

Who I Am Makes A Difference

April 30 2010


I don’t mind telling you this one made me cry.

Not giving you a heads up. Just watch this video.

Meme Ei8ht

April 29 2010


It’s hard to nail down just 10 things that make me happy. I’ll try.

1. Making other people happy or smile. Makes me all gushy.

2. Reading a great book. Or learning something from it.

3. Eating good food. Even better when it’s from my mom's kitchen!

4. Being creative.

5. Listening to music.

6. Watching great television. Mostly found on Vijay Tv's Koffee wit Anu and The Hour with Gopinath's Neeya Nanna.

7. My family.

8. Good conversation.

9. Living life.

10. Cheese. I know I said food. Oh, how I love Gee roast and cheese!

Quotes...because i love them...

April 28 2010

♥We need more understanding of human nature, because the only real danger that exists is man himself. Carl Jung

♥Be equal to your talent, not your age. At times let the gap between them be embarrassing. Yevgeny Yevtushenko

♥A neurotic is the man who builds a castle in the air. A psychotic lives in it. A psychiatrist collects the rent. Anonymous

♥Freedom is what you do with what’s been done to you. Jean-Paul Satre

♥Any coward can fight a battle when he’s sure of winning, but give me the man who has pluck to fight when he’s sure of losing. George Eliot (Mary Ann Evans)

♥When in doubt, make a fool of yourself. There is a microscopically thin line between being brilliantly creative and acting like the most gigantic idiot on earth. So, what the hell, leap. Cynthia Heimel

♥All men dream, but not equally. Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their minds wake in the day to find that it was vanity: but the dreamers of the day are dangerous men, for they may act their dream with open eyes, to make it possible. T.E. Lawrence

♥You only have power over people so long as you don’t take everything away from them.  But when you’ve robbed a man of everything he’s no longer in your power – he’s free again. Alexander Solzhenitsyn

♥You can always tell a real friend: when you’ve made a fool of yourself and he doesn’t feel you’ve done a permanent job. Laurence J. Peter

♥Hatred rarely does harm to its object. It is the hater who suffers. Lord Beaverbrook

♥There is no problem you cannot ignore, confront, plot against, drown in chocolate sauce, or run over with the car. (I don’t know who wrote it. It is printed on a set of napkins I have)

♥Enjoy!

I AM THE IMBALANCE OF NEGLECT

April 27 2010

What if no one cares? WHAT THE F*** WILL THAT MEAN? What have I been living for? What is really keeping me alive? Is there someone in this world that I am living for? Must I always find out the hard way and suffer other people’s consequences? There is no relief. This world offers none. There is no meaning to the actions I do. My intent is unknown to myself. Everyone matters. I am not everyone. I am the imbalance of neglect. I am the F***ING IMBALANCE OF NEGLECT.

Why is it that when I am alone, I feel too lonely, and when I am with other people, I want to be alone? Why is there such an imbalance? Is it me? I bet it is. I am neglected, and I am the reason for it. I am the source of the lies that I live and that others believe. I am the imbalance of neglect.

Why am I alive?

When will it end? My heart hurts. My eyes thirst. My mind has lost motivation. When will it end? When can I finally just die?

Is my desire for death genuine? Can anyone give me an answer to that? I cannot imagine myself in the future anymore. I have stopped dreaming completely for what my future might hold. There is nothing to dream for, and there is nothing to live for. Why is everything so artificial?

No one

April 26 2010

No one will ever begin to understand me. No one. No one. No one. No one.

They all stare and pretend. I will never even understand myself because my damn personality and views keep changing. What did I do to deserve this?

This life sucks. There is no value in anything. Everything is meaningless. My mind is strained too much for me to enjoy living. Why must I choose to live? I hate everything.

There is no reason to live. Only excuses.

I was so blind!

April 25 2010

Finally! I know my purpose! I was so blind!

All I wanted was happiness. I now know that it is unrealistic. It’s too stupid. It’s like the lottery, but only more people win it. However, I am not meant to be happy. Happiness is not for me. I now know it. It’s not the way I’ll be. I was not that fortunate. Life is never what you make it to be. Life is only what you are given.

My purpose is to serve others, to love others. I can do that. I will not seek help from others, for I’m a man. I don’t need help. I need to help others. That’s what I’m here for. I’m not some ignorant brat who’s constantly happy and has a “life” and hangs out with others. I am meant for other works. Satisfaction is not to be felt, but rather to be known and understood.

Six secrets

April 24 2010

I found this tucked away somewhere while i was cleaning up.

1. Listen more than u talk.

2. Avoid the temptation to criticize

3. Make others feel important, show interest in what they do.

4. Keep smiling and be friendly.

5. Dont hesitate to ask for a reasonable favor, it helps the others prestige.

6. Use the pronoun ‘You’ rather than ‘I’.

Past Forward

April 23 2010

I look back at my life, and I realize I’ve always been running after something.. Money.. Safety.. Love.. Understanding.. Fun.. And here I am now, unsure if that’s what I really wanted all along?

The last 10 years have just whizzed by.. with me moving from one ‘logical’ step to another, and here I am now, unsure if I want that logic anymore?

I feel (at) peace and frustration..

I feel lost and caged..

I feel loved and misunderstood..

I feel hopeless, yet hopeful..

I feel empty, yet insightful..

I feel anger, yet calm..

I feel crushed, yet full of life..

I feel incomplete and yet so complete..

I feel it’s time to ask those tough questions.. and It’s time to answer them truthfully..

I feel it’s time to live without fear or anxiety.. and It’s time to just be..

I feel it’s time to fly away.. and fly as far away as I can..

I feel it’s time.. Yes! I feel it’s high time!

MBA Student vs Bsc Student

April 22 2010

A MBA and a BSc (cs) go on a camping trip, set up their tent,and fell asleep.

Some hours later, the BSc wakes his MBA friend. ” look up at the sky and tell me what you see.” The MBA replies, “I see millions of stars.”

“What does that tell you?”

The MBA ponders for a minute.

“Astronomically speaking, it tells me that there are millions of galaxies and potentially billions of planets.

Astrologically, it tells me that Saturn is in Leo.

Time wise, it appears to be approximately a quarter past three.

Theologically, it’s evident the Lord is all-powerful and we are small and insignificant. Meteorologic ally, it seems we will have a beautiful day tomorrow.

What does it tell you?”

The BSc is silent for a moment, then speaks.

“Practically…Someone has stolen our tent”.

Mysterious Words

April 21 2010

Todays Professional Management Fundas

1.”We will do it” means “You will do it”

2.”You have done a great job” means “More work to be given to you”

3.”We are working on it” means “We have not yet started working on the same”

4.”Tomorrow first thing in the morning” means “Its not getting done “At least not tomorrow!”

5.”After discussion we will decide-I am very open to views” means “I have already decided, I will tell you what to do”

6.”There was a slight miscommunication” means “We had actually lied”

7.”Lets call a meeting and discuss” means “I have no time now, will talk later”

8.”We can always do it” means “We actually cannot do the same on time”

9.”We are on the right track but there needs to be a slight extension of the deadline” means “The project is screwed up, we cannot deliver on time.”

10.”We had slight differences of opinion “means “We had actually fought”

11.”Make a list of the work that you do and let’s see how I can help you” means “Anyway you have to find a way out no help from me”

12.”You should have told me earlier” means “Well even if you told me earlier that would have made hardly any difference!”

13.”We need to find out the real reason” means “Well I will tell you where your fault is”

14.”Well Family is important; your leave is always granted. Just ensure that the work is not affected,” means, “Well you know…”

15.”We are a team,” means, “I am not the only one to be blamed”

16.”That’s actually a good question” means “I do not know anything about it”

17.”All the Best” means “You are in trouble”

PRICELESS WORDS

April 20 2010

A husband wakes up at home with a huge hangover.

He forces himself to open his eyes, and the first thing he sees

is a couple of aspirins and a glass of water on the side table.

He sits down and sees his clothing in front of him, all clean and

pressed. He looks around the room and sees that

it is in perfect order, spotless, clean. So is the rest of the house.

He takes the aspirins and notices a note on the table.

“Honey, breakfast is on the table, I left early to go grocery shopping.

Love You!”

Totally shocked with the note , he goes to the kitchen and

sure enough there is a hot breakfast and the morning newspaper.

His son is also at the table, eating. He asks, “Son, what happened last night?”

His son says, “Well, you came home around 3 AM, drunk and delirious.

Broke some crockery, puked in the hall, and gave yourself a black eye

when you stumbled into the door”. Confused, the man asks,

“So, why is everything in order and so clean, and

breakfast is on the table waiting for me?

I should expect a big quarrel with her!”

His son replies, “Oh, that! Mom dragged you to the bedroom,

and when she tried to take your clothes n shoes off,

you said,

“LADY LEAVE ME ALONE! I’M MARRIED!”

Moral

Self-induced hangover –Rs 400.00

Broken crockery – Rs 800.00

Breakfast – Rs 10.00

Saying the Right Thing While Drunk – “PRICELESS “

There are truly some things that both money and Mastercard can’t buy

Note: I am not writer of this, this is from a forward mail that I liked.

You Can Die Only Once

April 19 2010

Its 100% True

April 18 2010

1. There are at least two people in this world that you would die for.
2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don’t like you.
5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6. You mean the world to someone.
7. You are special and unique.
8. Someone that you don’t even know exists loves you.
9. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
10. When you think the world has turned its back on you take another look.
11. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks. And always remember….

Good friends are like stars……..
You don’t always see them,
But you know they are always there.
I would rather have one rose and a kind word
from a friend while I’m here
than a whole truck load when I’m gone.
Forward to all your friends.
And don’t tell me you’re too busy for this..
Don’t you know the phrase
“stop and smell the flowers”?
See how many “bouquets” you end up with!

Idiotic Madness

April 17 2010

Feeling
A word that describes what one feels.
I was being crushed under some feelings for last many days (and its not over yet).
here are those feelings (please forgive me for not elaborating the real life circumstances):

Helplessness
You know something is going to happen (sooner or later), something that is clearly going to change your life (at least to some extent). And all you can do is wait and wait and wait and…..

Hopelessness
Now you know how helplessness is going around you, hopelessness is the one who takes things to next level. You stop seeing/finding any way out from the situation. you start feeling hopelessly helpless.

Lifelessness
When you are hopelessly helpless, you can’t help but feel everything a bit more lifeless. Nothing makes you happy, nothing makes you smile, nothing makes you feel envy anymore.

Pessimistically Optimistic
Until now, you are helpless, and you are hopelessly trying to do all lifeless routines, and then you reach a pessimistically optimistic feeling (something like,” It will be better to face it sooner than later”).
Leave me alone type of loneliness
Now you are optimistically expecting pessimistic things to happen, you want to be left alone. You need privacy, you need time for yourself……. in which you keep feeling lonely. You don’t want to be disturbed but it doesn’t mean you don’t want anyone around. Weird thing is, you want to be alone at the same time loneliness is killing you.

Idiotic Madness
At last you reach the supremacy. Now you are nearly mad or you think so. You behave like an idiot and ask stupid questions. You try keeping your loved ones at a distance (not that you don’t need them) because you fear their caring. You think you don’t deserve it. Life sucks. It screws you for things you ought to have done in past but you didn’t. You can’t understand Life fully, ever, no one can!! But this does not mean you shouldn't try to understand, actually, you should!!

Then one day, your dear friend tells you to vent everything out, write it, tell others about it, and you think “yeah…”.
Next day, Life reminds you of everything written above by playing with you, playing!!
And after staring blankly at “Create New Post” box for half an hour, you start writing something at 3.15AM, and now you check the calendar and with a jolt of heart you notice that its the same day you were planning of returning to blogging.
Yes, I am back.
with new hopes (because, after Idiotic Madness, a news comes which tells you that Life haven’t given you up yet!!!)

Its damn addictive!!

April 16 2010


Have you ever tried using StumbleUpon ?

Its damn addictive!!

Addiction is a strong word. Its the word which changed lifes of two people. Well, not exactly…. but this is what they said to each other….”.. its becoming an addiction….” and then it really became an addiction for lifetime.

Am I making sense? No? Oops!! Someday, I will elaborate about it. Till then your guess is as perfect as anybody else’s.

Just try that stumbleupon once, I doubt there will be very few people in the world who won’t like it.

Cheers

Missing You...

April 15 2010

Last week, I dined at People's Park (annapoorna) in Coimbatore. After dinner, I went for ice cream or something like that. Pushing the glass door open (which has a big wheel for handle), I glanced a little left. And my (already pounding) heart gave a jolt and resumed with more speed. That table behind the glass, that’s the girl I celebrated my first *true* love. The day, the date and the occasion will never leave my memory lane ever.

It happens a lot now a days. Everywhere I go, the place has a memory, of her, of being there with her, of having spent most happiest moments of life (so far) with her.

Few years ago, we used to spend long nice evenings and weekends together and suddenly I found myself alone and her far far away than she had ever gone. Not that she left me forever, not that we severed ties, but still, the circumstances forced me for moving to another city. Things just didn't settle after her going away, as I (am sure) was marked for experience of being God’s Yo-Yo.


Missing You
She moved in with her family and bad days returned spreading sadness everywhere. For obvious reasons, we now talk in our dreams. Some days even pass without listening the voices of each other (which is the root of all this story).

Flexibility being my most adored quality, I adjusted my lifestyle to fill the blank space created by her absence. But I never saw this coming. I knew I would miss her but…. Now, I can’t bear to go any place I have visited with her. I just can’t concentrate on anything. I keep missing her smile, missing her glances while talking, missing her eyes for locking, missing her hands while walking and much more things…. I just miss everything. Everything seems like missing from my life. Every Happy feeling, every enjoying moments, everything. Its just like I have lost myself again.

For a month or so I didn't realize her absence as I was busy. Now empty head leads to weird thoughts. And my mind feels her absense instead. May be this will last only few days and then I will get used to it. But still I don’t know how long. I haven’t even dared to visit Pollachi or any Temples, Malls, Roads, Lanes where we spent most of our time yet. I just lose my vigilance and everything and become a person whose head is empty and eyes vacant.

My family must have noticed this as I can see them trying to change subjects and stop me from entering this vacant feel when someone mentions her. This won’t feel like being God’s Yo Yo though. Things would have been much worse if it was the case.

Feeling much better now. Speaking out always helps (even if its not making any sense for others)

My brain surely needs some tweaking.

Life is not as simple as it seems…… or may be it is.

Say Something about Sharmila!!

April 14 2010

Fat? Huh,Yes....
Small?? Noo,
Shy? WHAT?,
Sweet? errr!,
Sporting? Yeah(Monkey Cycling),
Cool? Do you mean Cold(blooded)?   ,
Tall? oi, don’t you get bored?,
Slim? Idiot!!!
Intelligent? Who is not? But this girl have too much brainpower!! I wish I can steal some from her!!
Her Smile? I just know how much she laughs! Can’t control once it starts. Unbelievable? Yeah I know what you mean 
Her hair? you want me to get killed? (PS: Kadalora Kavithaigal Teacher)
Her dairy? Best thing happened to her in life. Well may be second best thing, But I red it only once
Her Friendship? I wish I had her as friend, cousin and my first w....  oi oi  stop! stop! stop! well wisher from childhood and I wish I will have her as friend till eternity) (Are you feeling okay, I wrote as you said Sharmi?).
What will you gift her? Questioner, you are so boring that I am quiting now. The End.