June 25 2010
Dear Prabhu:
I would listen to the kindly, considerate part of yourself that does not want to commit suicide because it would upset the people around you. It has a life-giving message for you.
If you are here on this earth, it is likely that you are here to carry out some task or purpose. Consider giving yourself some time to discover what it is.
It is very natural for 30's something you people to feel unhappy because they feel that they are not going anywhere, have no “place” in the world and to start feeling like they “don’t belong here.”
They are (quite naturally) impatient to learn what it is that they are supposed to be doing, and sometimes feel blank or empty or sad or lonely because their life purpose has not become clear yet.
But one’s life purpose is not always revealed quickly to a person.
Only a few people recognize their life purpose in their 30s.
Since you are at the middle of your life, you still have a few years to discover why you are here. As you gradually discover what you are here to do, you will take classes, join groups, meet new friends, etc., who will share your interests and outlook.
Then you will feel less lonely.
With regard to the suicidal thoughts prabhu consider getting a counselor or therapist, and possibly getting some anti-depressant medication if they recommend it.
Your sadness is understandable, but it is getting too intense and disrupting your life. It is likely becoming a serious depression. A counselor or therapist can help you deal with the negative thoughts, and work with you to get on a more positive path, so your life will be less painful and have more joy.
Cordially,
Fighting to Survive (been there)
Idk
June 24 2010
Okay well I know I’m not too young but i constantly have this thought I shouldnt be here anymore. I try to be happy, I try to be myself but deep down I just feel like being alone and crying inside. I have no idea what I want anymore. I see myself going nowhere In life. Ive thought about killing myself and everytime I try to I cant bring myself to do it because I think of how other people would feel. I don't know I’m just ranting, I’m sorry.
Okay well I know I’m not too young but i constantly have this thought I shouldnt be here anymore. I try to be happy, I try to be myself but deep down I just feel like being alone and crying inside. I have no idea what I want anymore. I see myself going nowhere In life. Ive thought about killing myself and everytime I try to I cant bring myself to do it because I think of how other people would feel. I don't know I’m just ranting, I’m sorry.
Anitha got Married
June 23 2010
The pain is immense, I can’t go on I scream at GOD and ask why? But there is no answer. I can’t go on living, feeling what I feel. The torment is eating me alive, I am dying inside, just as I found hope, She was snatched away from me. At the same time writing this I can no longer envision a future, I no longer have hope, everything has been taken from me. From my fiancée, to my home and my life has reached an impasse. It’s a make or break time and I feel completely broken. I’m staring into an depth and this time there is no light at the end.
I am both physically and mentally traumatized. As a loved person I lost my Anitha…This day I am shut off from the world, I didn’t; no couldn’t speak with anyone because I didn’t understand why the accident happened, I tried to find some kind of justification but couldn't. I stopped interacting with people as it was the only way I could survive. I went into shock, I couldn’t communicate and the world had become a dark and lonely place. I wasn’t prepared for this farewell of a person I loved.
Goodbye Anitha & i miss you more than anything in the world...
The pain is immense, I can’t go on I scream at GOD and ask why? But there is no answer. I can’t go on living, feeling what I feel. The torment is eating me alive, I am dying inside, just as I found hope, She was snatched away from me. At the same time writing this I can no longer envision a future, I no longer have hope, everything has been taken from me. From my fiancée, to my home and my life has reached an impasse. It’s a make or break time and I feel completely broken. I’m staring into an depth and this time there is no light at the end.
I am both physically and mentally traumatized. As a loved person I lost my Anitha…This day I am shut off from the world, I didn’t; no couldn’t speak with anyone because I didn’t understand why the accident happened, I tried to find some kind of justification but couldn't. I stopped interacting with people as it was the only way I could survive. I went into shock, I couldn’t communicate and the world had become a dark and lonely place. I wasn’t prepared for this farewell of a person I loved.
Goodbye Anitha & i miss you more than anything in the world...
Darkness
June 22 2010
I have been struggling with my inner demons and haunted by the ghosts of my past for most of my life, and I simply don’t know how much more I can possibly take. I’m just not strong enough to keep fighting off the inner darkness that much longer, sometime sooner or later it’s going to engulf me… and I won’t survive.
I have been struggling with my inner demons and haunted by the ghosts of my past for most of my life, and I simply don’t know how much more I can possibly take. I’m just not strong enough to keep fighting off the inner darkness that much longer, sometime sooner or later it’s going to engulf me… and I won’t survive.
How bad I feel...
June 21 2010
It feels weird to be sitting here writing this on some random blog on the internet when I've never told a single person in my life how I really feel…guess that’s the thing about the internet you don’t really have to fear what you write…but anyway guess here it goes…
A couple of years ago my girlfriend broke up with me, yes I know your thinking this how all suicide stories start, but to be honest this started even before then…I just get no real pleasure out of my life.
So here I am again contemplating what has steadily become more and more of a real solution…the idea of not having to keep each day up honestly feeling so down and dragging myself through each hour until finally going back to bed and barely sleeping seems pretty great…
My family have been good to me…my dad and I have never been close and my mum is termagant( she never accept mistakes) but they’re good people…my friends have been there for me too I guess but I could never tell any of them just how bad I feel…
I guess that is about it really…I dunno where I am with suicide now but really the notion of living for another 20…maybe 30 years is an awful idea to me…maybe some people just aren’t meant for this life…it’s never felt right to me.
Kill me:(
June 20 2010
I had thought of many reasons of not living. Unfortunately, i forgot most of them. It seems i think of stuff, then i forget about them. I think suicide is a very reasonable course of action to take for people like me. I have no friends and I am not concerned with my well being family.
I am not someone who is looking for a cure for my loneliness. I am not looking for love or happiness. I just want to die. There is no one out there for me. Even if i met someone, I would destroy their lives. I am a disease on humanity. I deserve to be killed.
I used to think that i only needed 3 things in my life, a loving wife, a good job and I keep my parents,surroundings happy. Now i work 12 hours a day, come home sleep till morning, and do it all over again. When i sleep im not thinking, or a coma wouldnt be so bad either, i could use one of those, stop these horrible memories.
I had thought of many reasons of not living. Unfortunately, i forgot most of them. It seems i think of stuff, then i forget about them. I think suicide is a very reasonable course of action to take for people like me. I have no friends and I am not concerned with my well being family.
I am not someone who is looking for a cure for my loneliness. I am not looking for love or happiness. I just want to die. There is no one out there for me. Even if i met someone, I would destroy their lives. I am a disease on humanity. I deserve to be killed.
I used to think that i only needed 3 things in my life, a loving wife, a good job and I keep my parents,surroundings happy. Now i work 12 hours a day, come home sleep till morning, and do it all over again. When i sleep im not thinking, or a coma wouldnt be so bad either, i could use one of those, stop these horrible memories.
Its very disturbing to know, I wasnt born to live in this manner. Kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me.
Lazy days!
June 19 2010
Ever have one of those really really really lazy days? Where you just want to stay home and relax and lounge around? That's what I want to do today
Ever have one of those really really really lazy days? Where you just want to stay home and relax and lounge around? That's what I want to do today
Meme Ei8hteen
June 18 2010
The Oh My! Meme, Part One
1. The phone rings; who don't you want it to be?
Anybody from Pollachi
2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
Yes!
3. In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener?
2nd !!
4. What was the last compliment that someone gave you?
You are a f***ing crap!
5. Do you play the lottery?
Nope
6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness, who would you want with you?
Anipra
7. Do you like to ride horses?
Yes
8. Did you ever go to camp as a kid?
Nope
9. What is your favorite party game?
Nothing!. Get fully drunken and kinky...
10. If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was married, would you go for it?
Reject
11. When was the last time that you lied?
Oops!! an hour before...
12. Could you date someone with different religious beliefs than you?
Sure
13. If you have a S/O, who pursued who? If not, do you like to pursue or be pursued?
Pass
14. Use six words to describe yourself.
No more no less than you
15. Name a song that could make you cry?
Ore kana from guru
16. Are you pleased with your education?
Nope
17. How do you feel about gun control?
Good
18. If your house was on fire, what thing would be the first thing you grabbed?
My computer
19. How often do you have a romantic weekend?
Never after Anipra
20. Do you think more about the past, present or future?
Yes a lot
21. What was the last adult magazine that you have read?
Play boy
22. What are you told about your eyes?
Attractive
23. How tall is just right?
As I am
24. Where is your dream house located?
Pollachi
25. Do you have a secret fetish?
Many
26. Have you tried bourbon? If yes, what type?
No but I am mad of vodka
27. When was the last time you were at Marry brown?
Once in a month
28. When was the last time you were at Temple?
March 2
29. Where was the furthest place you traveled today?
To hall
30. What was your favorite job?
Hardware engineer
The Oh My! Meme, Part One
1. The phone rings; who don't you want it to be?
Anybody from Pollachi
2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
Yes!
3. In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener?
2nd !!
4. What was the last compliment that someone gave you?
You are a f***ing crap!
5. Do you play the lottery?
Nope
6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness, who would you want with you?
Anipra
7. Do you like to ride horses?
Yes
8. Did you ever go to camp as a kid?
Nope
9. What is your favorite party game?
Nothing!. Get fully drunken and kinky...
10. If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was married, would you go for it?
Reject
11. When was the last time that you lied?
Oops!! an hour before...
12. Could you date someone with different religious beliefs than you?
Sure
13. If you have a S/O, who pursued who? If not, do you like to pursue or be pursued?
Pass
14. Use six words to describe yourself.
No more no less than you
15. Name a song that could make you cry?
Ore kana from guru
16. Are you pleased with your education?
Nope
17. How do you feel about gun control?
Good
18. If your house was on fire, what thing would be the first thing you grabbed?
My computer
19. How often do you have a romantic weekend?
Never after Anipra
20. Do you think more about the past, present or future?
Yes a lot
21. What was the last adult magazine that you have read?
Play boy
22. What are you told about your eyes?
Attractive
23. How tall is just right?
As I am
24. Where is your dream house located?
Pollachi
25. Do you have a secret fetish?
Many
26. Have you tried bourbon? If yes, what type?
No but I am mad of vodka
27. When was the last time you were at Marry brown?
Once in a month
28. When was the last time you were at Temple?
March 2
29. Where was the furthest place you traveled today?
To hall
30. What was your favorite job?
Hardware engineer
Proactive in my life
June 17 2010
I've decided to be proactive in my life from this birthday. To go out and do stuff and explore new ideas and places and muses. I need to get out and see the world, coffee shop, park, town, city, and state etc etc. I’ve spent so much of my life twiddling my thumbs and waiting on other people to get their shit together, that I've never gone ahead and lived my life.
- Start my business
- Start a fresh blog for Google Valet
- Enter into My Space Contest by July 25th
- Get published
- Find Clients for Google Valet
- Get married at least this year
- Drink and Party
- Buy a Piano
- Learn to play it
- Learn how to live on completely vegetarian diet
- Not hurt Dad, Mum and Any one
I've decided to be proactive in my life from this birthday. To go out and do stuff and explore new ideas and places and muses. I need to get out and see the world, coffee shop, park, town, city, and state etc etc. I’ve spent so much of my life twiddling my thumbs and waiting on other people to get their shit together, that I've never gone ahead and lived my life.
- Start my business
- Start a fresh blog for Google Valet
- Enter into My Space Contest by July 25th
- Get published
- Find Clients for Google Valet
- Work hard for it
- Have atleast 100 clients
- Road trip this summer
- Visit Samu perima in Chennai- Get married at least this year
- Drink and Party
- Buy a Piano
- Learn to play it
- Learn how to live on completely vegetarian diet
- Not hurt Dad, Mum and Any one
Keep going...
June 16 2010
Few months ago, someone told me that, before the morning breaks, there will be stormy nights.. before breakthrough, there will be breakdowns.. and that’s what I will be going through this year.
This week has been very mentally, emotionally trialing for me in one area of my life… there were many stormy and sleepless nights…
I guess that’s what I get for asking from the universe when I set one of my 2010 life goals on this particular area… this is my journey… my breakdowns… my breakthroughs… till the sun rises.
Its my birthday!
June 15 2010
Woo Hoo! It’s my birthday today and I am too tired to write any more…
Instead I am posting a clip created by my brother Guru...
This was annoying in my head.
June 13 2010
Do you ever have one of those days when things are just GOOD and RIGHT and you feel accomplished?
(No? Then you should probably stop reading because I'm about to get really f***ing annoying.)
I'm not usually that person, I'm definitely not that cheerful man who always looks on the bright side and never thinks inappropriately mean thoughts about people who annoy him and wakes up singing along with the goddamn birds and would rather die than swear.
And I never will be, in case you are holding your breath.
(None of you are, right? Please don't. I don't know CPR.)
(I could probably figure it out, though. I mean, it can't be THAT hard. And I'm smart.)
(Apparently, I AM the man who is flippantly casual about life saving techniques and their importance. But that's beside the point.)
But today, I set some goals for myself and I met them.
(WITHOUT CAFFEINE. I'd like to stress that.)
I don't think I lack confidence, or even follow-through, but sometimes I think I DO suffer from the raging narcissism that I am occasionally accused of, and so it's always a good feeling to actually accomplish something that you KNEW you could do but just hadn't tried.
There are things I know that I will never do; things that I cannot be. But there are LOADS of things that I probably could do that I've just never had the courage to try. But I'm up for the challenge. Life is short. And I have a lot to do.
I wish I could sum up this post on the same profound note that I ended my last one, but that would just be too many deep thoughts in a row for this man, so instead I'm going to have to keep it simple and go with a little Ice Cube:
Today was a good day.
Do you ever have one of those days when things are just GOOD and RIGHT and you feel accomplished?
(No? Then you should probably stop reading because I'm about to get really f***ing annoying.)
I'm not usually that person, I'm definitely not that cheerful man who always looks on the bright side and never thinks inappropriately mean thoughts about people who annoy him and wakes up singing along with the goddamn birds and would rather die than swear.
And I never will be, in case you are holding your breath.
(None of you are, right? Please don't. I don't know CPR.)
(I could probably figure it out, though. I mean, it can't be THAT hard. And I'm smart.)
(Apparently, I AM the man who is flippantly casual about life saving techniques and their importance. But that's beside the point.)
But today, I set some goals for myself and I met them.
(WITHOUT CAFFEINE. I'd like to stress that.)
I don't think I lack confidence, or even follow-through, but sometimes I think I DO suffer from the raging narcissism that I am occasionally accused of, and so it's always a good feeling to actually accomplish something that you KNEW you could do but just hadn't tried.
There are things I know that I will never do; things that I cannot be. But there are LOADS of things that I probably could do that I've just never had the courage to try. But I'm up for the challenge. Life is short. And I have a lot to do.
I wish I could sum up this post on the same profound note that I ended my last one, but that would just be too many deep thoughts in a row for this man, so instead I'm going to have to keep it simple and go with a little Ice Cube:
Today was a good day.
Meme Se7enteen
June 12 2010
First Job: Hardware engineer
First Real Job: Aircel
First Favorite Politician: P.Chidambaram
First Car: Fiat
First Record/CD: Alaipauthey
First Sport Played: Cricket
First Concert: AR Rahman's Vanakam Chennai
First Foreign Country Visited: Nope
First Favorite TV Show: Malkudi days
First Favorite Actor: Rajinikanth
First Favorite Actress: Amala
First Girlfriend/Boyfriend: Deepa / Gejo
First Encounter with a Famous Person: Rajinikanth
First Brush With Death: while riding my bike
First House/Condo Owned: 33 Marapattei St, Pollachi.
First Film Seen: Billa
First Favorite Recording Artist: AR.Rahman
First Favorite Radio Station: Radio Mirchi
First Job: Hardware engineer
First Real Job: Aircel
First Favorite Politician: P.Chidambaram
First Car: Fiat
First Record/CD: Alaipauthey
First Sport Played: Cricket
First Concert: AR Rahman's Vanakam Chennai
First Foreign Country Visited: Nope
First Favorite TV Show: Malkudi days
First Favorite Actor: Rajinikanth
First Favorite Actress: Amala
First Girlfriend/Boyfriend: Deepa / Gejo
First Encounter with a Famous Person: Rajinikanth
First Brush With Death: while riding my bike
First House/Condo Owned: 33 Marapattei St, Pollachi.
First Film Seen: Billa
First Favorite Recording Artist: AR.Rahman
First Favorite Radio Station: Radio Mirchi
Meme 6ixteen
Fill in your favorite for each of the following:
1. Political show: Politics Hour NDTV
2. Picnic food: Tomato rice with potato fry
3. Mixed drink: Vodka with lime
4. Indian President: Pratibha Patil
5. Kind of student to teach: Poor student
6. Hobby you do or wish you still did: Computers
7. Sports commentator: Ravi shasthri
8. Sport to watch on TV: Soccer
9. Animal to have as a pet: Birds
10. Halloween costume you have worn: Nope
11. Kind of dessert: Black forest
12. Comic strip: Spider man
13. Ice cream flavor: Vanilla
14. News source: Sun TV
15. Vacation spot: Basket ball
16. Wine: White wine
17. Way to waste time instead of working: Dreaming
18. Reality show: Coffee with Anu
19. Childrens movie: Pasanga
20. Celebrity you wish would retire: Chief Minister Kalingar Karunanidhi
1. Political show: Politics Hour NDTV
2. Picnic food: Tomato rice with potato fry
3. Mixed drink: Vodka with lime
4. Indian President: Pratibha Patil
5. Kind of student to teach: Poor student
6. Hobby you do or wish you still did: Computers
7. Sports commentator: Ravi shasthri
8. Sport to watch on TV: Soccer
9. Animal to have as a pet: Birds
10. Halloween costume you have worn: Nope
11. Kind of dessert: Black forest
12. Comic strip: Spider man
13. Ice cream flavor: Vanilla
14. News source: Sun TV
15. Vacation spot: Basket ball
16. Wine: White wine
17. Way to waste time instead of working: Dreaming
18. Reality show: Coffee with Anu
19. Childrens movie: Pasanga
20. Celebrity you wish would retire: Chief Minister Kalingar Karunanidhi
An emotional roller coaster
June 10 2010
It’s been the most overwhelming, emotional and brilliant rollercoaster few days, with family members turning up from ooty and my brother guru from chennai coming to stay. The natural high is so high and the low is inexplicable and surprising. I know it’s a lot to do with my mind, late nights and way too much booze but i’m so happy to be able to experience this. I think most people live their whole lives without having the good fortune or opportunity to feel what i’m feeling now.
Thank you, my friends
And without meaning to be mushy, I feel blessed to have you around…..
It’s been the most overwhelming, emotional and brilliant rollercoaster few days, with family members turning up from ooty and my brother guru from chennai coming to stay. The natural high is so high and the low is inexplicable and surprising. I know it’s a lot to do with my mind, late nights and way too much booze but i’m so happy to be able to experience this. I think most people live their whole lives without having the good fortune or opportunity to feel what i’m feeling now.
Thank you, my friends
And without meaning to be mushy, I feel blessed to have you around…..
Come, let us have a coffee!
June 9 2010
PS: I just drank some very strong coffee and appear to have lost the plot for the moment. normal blogging will return tomorrow.
Make a difference
June 8 2010
Teacher's who play an important role in our school life right from the day1 till the end. I really get sob by watching this video
Teacher's who play an important role in our school life right from the day1 till the end. I really get sob by watching this video
Meme Fi5teen
June 7 2010
The Se7en Layer
LAYER 1: Tell us your... * Name: Prabhu
* Birthday (month, day): June 15
* Birthplace: Tiruppur
* Current location: Chennai
* Eye color: Black
* Hair color: Black
* Height: 175 cms
* Righty or lefty: Righty
* Zodiac sign: Gemini
LAYER 2: What's...
* Your heritage: Love
* The shoes you wore today: Green
* Your weakness: Emotion
* Your fears: Alto phobia
* Your perfect pizza: Chicken cheese with chilly flakes
* Goals you’d like to achieve: Adopt a child
* Your first waking thoughts: How ll b today?
* Your best physical feature: Eyes & Nose
* Your most missed memory: Anipra
LAYER 3: Do you...
* Smoke: Nope
* Cuss: Sorry
* Sing: Yes
* Do you think you’ve been in love: Of course!
* Did you go to college: Yes
* Liked high school: Very much
* Want to get/stay married: Ya!
* Believe in yourself: Trying
* Think you’re attractive: Some what
* Think you’re a health freak: Yes
* Get along with your parent(s): Ya
* Like thunderstorms: Nope
* Play an instrument: Learning
LAYER 4: In the past month have you…
* Drank alcohol: Yes
* Smoked: Once upon a time
* Done a drug: Yes
* Made out: Yes
* Gone on a date: Yes
* Gone to the mall: Yes
* Eaten an entire box of Oreos:. A lot
* Eaten sushi: Yes
* Been on stage: Nope
* Been dumped: Yes
* Gone skating: No
* Gone skinny dipping: Yes
* Stolen Anything: Yes
LAYER 5: Have you ever…
* Played a game that required removal of clothing: In childhood
* Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: Nope
* Been caught “doing something”: Many times
* Been called a tease: During teenage
* Gotten beaten up: Yes
* Shoplifted: Nope
LAYER 6:
* Age you did get/hope to be married: Yes
* Numbers and names of children (either you have or want): 2, Auro and Aathiti
* Describe your dream mate: Anipra
* How do you want to die: Peacefully
* What did you want to be when you grow up: A good human
* What country would you most like to visit: Australia
LAYER 7: Now tell...
* Name a drug you’ve taken illegally: Pentazocine mixed with Promethazine
* Name a person you could trust with my life: Sharmila
* Name a favorite CD that you own: Yanni's Acropolis
* Number of piercings: 2
* Number of tattoos: Nope
* Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: Once
* Name a past experience that you regret: I was a drug addict
The Sunday Stupid Thirty-Three:: Meme 4 teen
June 6 2010
1. When was the last time you cried?
Yesterday :(
2. Were you named after anyone?
Nope!!
3. Why are you so fickle when it comes to women?
Duno!!
4. What is your favorite lunch?
Of course Chicken
5. Do you have kids?
Nope!!
6. If you were another person would you be friends with you?
Ya!
7. Do you use sarcasm a lot?
Nope!!
8. Do you still have your tonsils?
Yes :(
9. Would you bungee jump?
I love it!
10. What is your favorite cereal?
Corn flakes
11. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off
No
12. Do you think you are strong enough to be with me?
Yes
13. What is your favorite ice cream?
Black forest
14. What is the first thing you notice about people?
Eyes
15. Red or pink?
Pink (means Krithi)
16. What is your least favorite thing about yourself?
Nose
17. Who do you mess with the most?
My Dad
18. What was the last thing you ate?
Idly & dosa
19. What are you listening to right now?
AR Rahman's fusion
20. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Sharmila
21. Why aren't you married?
Arghhhhh....
22. Last movie you watched?
My name is Khan
23. What did you dream about last night?
Anipra, anipra, anipra
24. What book are you reading?
How to stop worrying and start living
25. Summer or winter?
Winter
26. Hugs or kisses?
Both
27. Do you have any special talents?
Lots to say
28. What are they?
Secret
29. What did you watch on TV last?
Songs
30. What is your favorite sound?
Piano
31. Rolling Stones or The Beatles?
Rolling stones
32. Most likely to respond to this meme?
Sruthi and Pooja
33. Least likely to respond?
Not sure...
1. When was the last time you cried?
Yesterday :(
2. Were you named after anyone?
Nope!!
3. Why are you so fickle when it comes to women?
Duno!!
4. What is your favorite lunch?
Of course Chicken
5. Do you have kids?
Nope!!
6. If you were another person would you be friends with you?
Ya!
7. Do you use sarcasm a lot?
Nope!!
8. Do you still have your tonsils?
Yes :(
9. Would you bungee jump?
I love it!
10. What is your favorite cereal?
Corn flakes
11. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off
No
12. Do you think you are strong enough to be with me?
Yes
13. What is your favorite ice cream?
Black forest
14. What is the first thing you notice about people?
Eyes
15. Red or pink?
Pink (means Krithi)
16. What is your least favorite thing about yourself?
Nose
17. Who do you mess with the most?
My Dad
18. What was the last thing you ate?
Idly & dosa
19. What are you listening to right now?
AR Rahman's fusion
20. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Sharmila
21. Why aren't you married?
Arghhhhh....
22. Last movie you watched?
My name is Khan
23. What did you dream about last night?
Anipra, anipra, anipra
24. What book are you reading?
How to stop worrying and start living
25. Summer or winter?
Winter
26. Hugs or kisses?
Both
27. Do you have any special talents?
Lots to say
28. What are they?
Secret
29. What did you watch on TV last?
Songs
30. What is your favorite sound?
Piano
31. Rolling Stones or The Beatles?
Rolling stones
32. Most likely to respond to this meme?
Sruthi and Pooja
33. Least likely to respond?
Not sure...
Tamil Anthem by AR Rahman
June 5 2010
Semmozhiyaana Tamizh Mozhiyaam is a Tamil anthem composed by A. R. Rahman, penned by Tamil Nadu Chief Minister Kalaignar M. Karunanidhi and performed by several leading Tamil artistes of over three generations
A major highlight of the anthem is that it features singers who have distinguished themselves in other genres of music such as Carnatic (Aruna Sayeeram, Bombay Jaishree, Nithyashree and Sowmya), folk, Sufi (M.Y. Abdul Ghani, Khajamoideen, Naresh Iyer) and rap (Blaaze).
Semmozhiyaana Tamizh Mozhiyaam is a Tamil anthem composed by A. R. Rahman, penned by Tamil Nadu Chief Minister Kalaignar M. Karunanidhi and performed by several leading Tamil artistes of over three generations
A major highlight of the anthem is that it features singers who have distinguished themselves in other genres of music such as Carnatic (Aruna Sayeeram, Bombay Jaishree, Nithyashree and Sowmya), folk, Sufi (M.Y. Abdul Ghani, Khajamoideen, Naresh Iyer) and rap (Blaaze).
"The Finish This Sentence" Meme 13een
June 4 2010
1. My uncle once Caught me while drunk
2. Never in my life have I been as embarrassed, angry and ashamed when I was in jail
3. When I was three my parents send me to school
4. High school was a place I learned a lot
5. I will never forget to cut my nails
6. Once I met Rajini kanth in his home
7. There’s this girl I know who makes my life sober
8. Once, at a bar, I am lost
9. By noon, I’m definitely nap
10. Last night I had a terrible dream
11. If only I had a good idea for a business… Then I'd be rich!
12. Last time I go to temple with Anipra
13. What worries me most is that my Parents! yep
14. When I turn my head left I see the sky
15. When I turn my head right I see my bro guru standing and watching me
16. You know I’m lying when I deserve it
17. What I miss most about the Eighties is my Parents
18. If I were a character in Shakespeare I’d be Romeo
19. By this time next year I will start my computer showroom
20. A better name for me would be PEPSI
21. I have a hard time understanding feeling my way through it ...
22. If I ever go back to school, I’ll have good everlasting friendship
23. You know I like you if I love you
24. If I ever won an award, the first person I would thank would be my Saravanan Anna
25. Take my advice, never GIVE UP!
1. My uncle once Caught me while drunk
2. Never in my life have I been as embarrassed, angry and ashamed when I was in jail
3. When I was three my parents send me to school
4. High school was a place I learned a lot
5. I will never forget to cut my nails
6. Once I met Rajini kanth in his home
7. There’s this girl I know who makes my life sober
8. Once, at a bar, I am lost
9. By noon, I’m definitely nap
10. Last night I had a terrible dream
11. If only I had a good idea for a business… Then I'd be rich!
12. Last time I go to temple with Anipra
13. What worries me most is that my Parents! yep
14. When I turn my head left I see the sky
15. When I turn my head right I see my bro guru standing and watching me
16. You know I’m lying when I deserve it
17. What I miss most about the Eighties is my Parents
18. If I were a character in Shakespeare I’d be Romeo
19. By this time next year I will start my computer showroom
20. A better name for me would be PEPSI
21. I have a hard time understanding feeling my way through it ...
22. If I ever go back to school, I’ll have good everlasting friendship
23. You know I like you if I love you
24. If I ever won an award, the first person I would thank would be my Saravanan Anna
25. Take my advice, never GIVE UP!
Meme Twe1v2
June 3 2010
1. If you suddenly became single or are single, do you think you could last in a relationship for 12 months or more?
Sure (as I am now).
2. Do you forgive or forget?
I can usually forgive...it's the forgetting part that's very hard.
3. Do you trust people?
I try.....
4. What are you not looking forward to?
It getting really hot & humid again this summer-ugh!
5. Do you get mad easily?
Uhhh....yeahh....
6. Tell us about the last time you were told you that you have pretty eyes.
Hm....I don't remember...my eyes are teeny tiny so it would be a weird compliment.
7. Do you have strange dreams?
Almost always.
8. Tell us about the last time you fell asleep in someones arms.
I don't know if I've ever done that.
9. When did you last play a game?
I played GTA IV with my bro a few days back. He lost...but of course I did!
10. What do you have on you at all times?
Cellphone!
11. Do you go out in public without getting well dressed up?
Sometimes....I usually feel really gross so I don't do it often.
12. Do you like fruity or minty gum?
Depends.
13. Favourite musician or concert?
A.R Rahman is my all-time favorite musician. Favorite concert could possibly be Bombay Dreams.
14. Do you like anyone?
I love 'em!!!
15. Favourite computer game?
Um.....GTA always.
16. First album you ever went and bought with your own money?
Hmm.....INDIAN by AR.Rahman. I think probably march 1996.
17. Think back five months ago, were you single?
It's hard to say.
18. Do you believe in celebrating birthdays?
I will acknowledge 'em but usually don't do much celebrating.
19. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
I hope so...that would be nice!
20. Last thing you bought?
A gift for Sharmila.
21. Are you a jealous person?
Nope, and I hate those who are!
22. Does it take a lot to make you cry?
Not really.
23. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
Yes, and she's a really awesome friend.
24. Have you ever had your heart-broken?
Yes...smashed, broken, and bruised....:(
25. Have you ever done something while drunk that you still cannot believe you did?
Yes.
26. Is there anyone you secretly wish you could be spending your time with right now?
Yes.
27. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
No cuz I'm doing this and I probably wouldn't want to grab it (Lazy Prabhu).
28. Is your life anything like it was a year ago?
Yes...and no. Wasn't in the way I am now. So that's a good thing.
29. Go back one year on your blog. Leave us a link to your favorite post.
I know AWARDS don't mean EVERYTHING but this award was a nice one to get from a former friend/Blogger. The post is HERE.
30. You can only drink ONE hot drink for the rest of your life, what is it?
Oooooooo....of course it'd have to be an Iced vodka. YUM!
31. Tell us about someone that you have lost contact with someone you wish you didn't.
My ever loving Anipra. I believe she's in Pollachi but honestly I couldn't be for sure. Was one of the hardest "breakups" in my life. I think I have ever experienced. I still think of her...and wonder how she's doing.
32. What is the last thing you said out loud?
"Guru don't do that and you should start getting ready." (We are going to our uncle's home)
33. Will this year be better than last?
Hope so...guess we shall see. :)
1. If you suddenly became single or are single, do you think you could last in a relationship for 12 months or more?
Sure (as I am now).
2. Do you forgive or forget?
I can usually forgive...it's the forgetting part that's very hard.
3. Do you trust people?
I try.....
4. What are you not looking forward to?
It getting really hot & humid again this summer-ugh!
5. Do you get mad easily?
Uhhh....yeahh....
6. Tell us about the last time you were told you that you have pretty eyes.
Hm....I don't remember...my eyes are teeny tiny so it would be a weird compliment.
7. Do you have strange dreams?
Almost always.
8. Tell us about the last time you fell asleep in someones arms.
I don't know if I've ever done that.
9. When did you last play a game?
I played GTA IV with my bro a few days back. He lost...but of course I did!
10. What do you have on you at all times?
Cellphone!
11. Do you go out in public without getting well dressed up?
Sometimes....I usually feel really gross so I don't do it often.
12. Do you like fruity or minty gum?
Depends.
13. Favourite musician or concert?
A.R Rahman is my all-time favorite musician. Favorite concert could possibly be Bombay Dreams.
14. Do you like anyone?
I love 'em!!!
15. Favourite computer game?
Um.....GTA always.
16. First album you ever went and bought with your own money?
Hmm.....INDIAN by AR.Rahman. I think probably march 1996.
17. Think back five months ago, were you single?
It's hard to say.
18. Do you believe in celebrating birthdays?
I will acknowledge 'em but usually don't do much celebrating.
19. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
I hope so...that would be nice!
20. Last thing you bought?
A gift for Sharmila.
21. Are you a jealous person?
Nope, and I hate those who are!
22. Does it take a lot to make you cry?
Not really.
23. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
Yes, and she's a really awesome friend.
24. Have you ever had your heart-broken?
Yes...smashed, broken, and bruised....:(
25. Have you ever done something while drunk that you still cannot believe you did?
Yes.
26. Is there anyone you secretly wish you could be spending your time with right now?
Yes.
27. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
No cuz I'm doing this and I probably wouldn't want to grab it (Lazy Prabhu).
28. Is your life anything like it was a year ago?
Yes...and no. Wasn't in the way I am now. So that's a good thing.
29. Go back one year on your blog. Leave us a link to your favorite post.
I know AWARDS don't mean EVERYTHING but this award was a nice one to get from a former friend/Blogger. The post is HERE.
30. You can only drink ONE hot drink for the rest of your life, what is it?
Oooooooo....of course it'd have to be an Iced vodka. YUM!
31. Tell us about someone that you have lost contact with someone you wish you didn't.
My ever loving Anipra. I believe she's in Pollachi but honestly I couldn't be for sure. Was one of the hardest "breakups" in my life. I think I have ever experienced. I still think of her...and wonder how she's doing.
32. What is the last thing you said out loud?
"Guru don't do that and you should start getting ready." (We are going to our uncle's home)
33. Will this year be better than last?
Hope so...guess we shall see. :)
Unconditional love
June 2 2010
and sometime means… holding them as they walk through those tough time…
My 600th Post
June 1 2010
Hello there! It's my 600th post & it's time to celebrate it with a GIVEAWAY. So here's how it's gonna go: please answer the following questions that I will list below, then e-mail your answers to me (I don't want people to see 'em here). And in one month (or maybe less) I will announce the lucky person. To participate in this giveaway, all I ask is that you either
2 You become a follower of my Blog.
The prize is......well, it's a surprise. But there will be plenty of nice goodies and a small piece of my Gesture as well. That's the only hints you're gonna get right now. ;)
Also, Please Leave A Comment on THIS post if you choose to do the giveaway. I guess that's the other thing I would like to ask you for. That way you all will know how many people are participating. OK, sound good? If you have any questions, either let me know HERE or e-mail me to
So the questions. And they are....
1) Name TWO of my favorite persons
2) If you could describe MY BLOG in 3 words, what would those words be?
3) If I were stuck on a desert island, name 3 things you think I would bring.
So this giveaway is a little bit YOU and a little bit ME. I hope you like answering these questions and please e-mail them to me by JUNE 15th(on my birthday). My e-mail address is: prabhupepsi@gmail.com
I look forward to seeing your answers!
Enjoy your JUNE~
Hello there! It's my 600th post & it's time to celebrate it with a GIVEAWAY. So here's how it's gonna go: please answer the following questions that I will list below, then e-mail your answers to me (I don't want people to see 'em here). And in one month (or maybe less) I will announce the lucky person. To participate in this giveaway, all I ask is that you either
1 Are a follower of my Blog
2 You become a follower of my Blog.
The prize is......well, it's a surprise. But there will be plenty of nice goodies and a small piece of my Gesture as well. That's the only hints you're gonna get right now. ;)
Also, Please Leave A Comment on THIS post if you choose to do the giveaway. I guess that's the other thing I would like to ask you for. That way you all will know how many people are participating. OK, sound good? If you have any questions, either let me know HERE or e-mail me to
1) Name TWO of my favorite persons
2) If you could describe MY BLOG in 3 words, what would those words be?
3) If I were stuck on a desert island, name 3 things you think I would bring.
So this giveaway is a little bit YOU and a little bit ME. I hope you like answering these questions and please e-mail them to me by JUNE 15th(on my birthday). My e-mail address is: prabhupepsi@gmail.com
I look forward to seeing your answers!
Enjoy your JUNE~
PS: Photography by Guru.
Towards 30
May 31 2010
I noticed that a few close friends that I have at this point of my life now will be entering 30s this year. For the past 4 weeks, my conversations with them have evolved around life after 30s. Now that they have a steady career, steady streams of in-come, some are deciding on their next dream family, some brand new car, few thinking of investing into businesses.
I will be turning 30 in a few weeks and have another 10 years before the big 40. I have been asking myself what do I want to have achieved by 40. What do I want to have accumulated to prepare for my life journey into years of 40s. The list is getting longer. Here’s few that I want so far..
Driving my dream car(Ambassador)…
Be d’ Man of Business (only few will know what is this)
Have my own Digital Condo set up by 33 with the latest wireless and home IP gadgets.
Sufficient cash to start up a new business in Pollachi or my google valet franchise (by than it might be something else).
Cover AUSTRALIA or US or CUBA or SINGAPORE (all countries) by 40s.
I have no idea how I am going to achieve all these including my dream car… . As for now, I think I need more money. The question is how do I make more risk-free money other than my business & investment now? I have no idea..
I will just continue to persue my number 1 dream for now and start working on the rest once it is stabalized. Pray fully too it will fullfill all the rest of my dreams in my life.
I noticed that a few close friends that I have at this point of my life now will be entering 30s this year. For the past 4 weeks, my conversations with them have evolved around life after 30s. Now that they have a steady career, steady streams of in-come, some are deciding on their next dream family, some brand new car, few thinking of investing into businesses.
I will be turning 30 in a few weeks and have another 10 years before the big 40. I have been asking myself what do I want to have achieved by 40. What do I want to have accumulated to prepare for my life journey into years of 40s. The list is getting longer. Here’s few that I want so far..
Driving my dream car(Ambassador)…
Be d’ Man of Business (only few will know what is this)
Have my own Digital Condo set up by 33 with the latest wireless and home IP gadgets.
Sufficient cash to start up a new business in Pollachi or my google valet franchise (by than it might be something else).
Cover AUSTRALIA or US or CUBA or SINGAPORE (all countries) by 40s.
I have no idea how I am going to achieve all these including my dream car… . As for now, I think I need more money. The question is how do I make more risk-free money other than my business & investment now? I have no idea..
I will just continue to persue my number 1 dream for now and start working on the rest once it is stabalized. Pray fully too it will fullfill all the rest of my dreams in my life.
Life
May 31 2010
Life often evolves in a very mysterious way, bringing along unanticipated experiences and therefore lessons. The outcome of our life is resulted from how we respond to these experiences. If we received it with open arms, learn to adapt and evolve with it… we progress, we grow. On the other hand, one who resent it, rejects it… regress into anger, bitterness & and eventually… depression.
The fundamental difference is ’CHOICE’… how we choose to respond when life experiences come knocking on our door.
The second fundamental is… to love, respect and be patient with one another despite the choices they made. We can still do that though we might disagree with his/her choice.
Life often evolves in a very mysterious way, bringing along unanticipated experiences and therefore lessons. The outcome of our life is resulted from how we respond to these experiences. If we received it with open arms, learn to adapt and evolve with it… we progress, we grow. On the other hand, one who resent it, rejects it… regress into anger, bitterness & and eventually… depression.
The fundamental difference is ’CHOICE’… how we choose to respond when life experiences come knocking on our door.
The second fundamental is… to love, respect and be patient with one another despite the choices they made. We can still do that though we might disagree with his/her choice.
What’s freedom… actually?
May 30 2010
When we were kids…Being waken from our sleep, Dragged to school through the years. Life seems like a bottomless peak…We can’t wait for freedom after graduations. When we started work, As bills and debts mountains. We can’t wait to get married… with someone to share our burdens yet after D’day… we lost ourselves trying to be good spouse, in-laws, and parents..
Life is trapped once again and we lost completely, our freedom.When they are all gone… the young and old
The mountains of debts and bills and parenting guilt.Life finally found its freedom…Only to face with our body saying… it’s about time to draw down the curtains…
So… what’s freedom… actually?.
When we were kids…Being waken from our sleep, Dragged to school through the years. Life seems like a bottomless peak…We can’t wait for freedom after graduations. When we started work, As bills and debts mountains. We can’t wait to get married… with someone to share our burdens yet after D’day… we lost ourselves trying to be good spouse, in-laws, and parents..
Life is trapped once again and we lost completely, our freedom.When they are all gone… the young and old
The mountains of debts and bills and parenting guilt.Life finally found its freedom…Only to face with our body saying… it’s about time to draw down the curtains…
So… what’s freedom… actually?.
Toyz II
May 29 2010
How often when we were caught in a rush-hour traffic, we noticed that we were SOV like others in a 5-passengers vehicles? (SOV=single-occupant vehicle). It would be really beautiful if every drivers uses this cute single-passenger-vehicles instead for ‘around the town’ trips.
Lithium battery powered, no more heartache when the fuel price when up! A cute toyz to have at Rs 1391700 INR each.
Letting go...
May 28 2010
Lost
May 27 2010
Facebook, AIM, Photobucket, LinkedIn, Xing, NetLog, Twitter, FriendFeed, Rediff, Google, Hotmail, Podcast, flickr, Blog, WordPress, YouTube, RSS, Digg, Delicious… with hundreds of feeds, thousands of applications… new games, movies, music, messages and news streaming into our life by the second. We are living in a very exciting age with so many choices and so much we can do vie the world of net…
Facebook, AIM, Photobucket, LinkedIn, Xing, NetLog, Twitter, FriendFeed, Rediff, Google, Hotmail, Podcast, flickr, Blog, WordPress, YouTube, RSS, Digg, Delicious… with hundreds of feeds, thousands of applications… new games, movies, music, messages and news streaming into our life by the second. We are living in a very exciting age with so many choices and so much we can do vie the world of net…
… Sometimes we do not realized how lost we are.
I Miss You...
May 26 2010
It was almost perfect in every little way…
The gentle touch, the quiet whisper and the assuring voice.
It brings cheer into my life, yet tears through many nights.
I knew it all along, it is not mine to own.
Thus this chapter is written… the final finale…
30 Major Barriers to Success
May 25 2010
If you are reading this, take time to reflect where you are now in your life. How happy are you now with what you have achieved so far from the scales of 1 – 5 in the are of your family life, social, health (physical, mental, emotional), financial, career, spiritual, compared to where you want to be.
What’s stoping you from achieving your desires. Take time to go through the above list again and identify the top 5 reasons that stop you from achieving your goals.
- Unfavorable Hereditary Background
- Lack of Well-Defined Purpose in Life
- Lack of Ambition to Aim Above Mediocrity
- Insufficient Education (Education is defined as ability to learn to get whenever one want in life without violating the rights of others)
- Lack of Self-Discipline
- Ill Health
- Unfavorable Environmental Influences during Childhood
- Procrastination
- Lack of Persistence
- Negative Personality
- Lack fo Controlled Sexual Urge
- Uncontrolled Desire for ‘Something for Nothing’
- Lack of a Well-Defined Power of Decision
- One or More of the Six Basic Fears
- Wrong Selection of a Mate in Marriage
- Over Caution
- Wrong Selection of Associated in Business
- Superstition and Prejudice
- Wrong Selection of a Vocation
- Lack of Concentration of Effort
- The Habit of Indiscriminate Spending
- Lack of Enthusiasm
- Intolerance
- Intemperance
- Inability to Corporate with Others
- Procession of Power not acquired through Self-Effort
- Intentional Dishonesty
- Egotism and Vanity
- Guessing Instead of Thinking
- Lack of Capital
If you are reading this, take time to reflect where you are now in your life. How happy are you now with what you have achieved so far from the scales of 1 – 5 in the are of your family life, social, health (physical, mental, emotional), financial, career, spiritual, compared to where you want to be.
What’s stoping you from achieving your desires. Take time to go through the above list again and identify the top 5 reasons that stop you from achieving your goals.
Meanwhile, just as Success does not define who we are, our Failure does not define us too.
I don't feel like....
May 24 2010
I don’t feel like going out tonight.
I don’t feel like walking through the cold and mist in the dark.
I don’t feel like having the wind hit me in the face making my eyes water.
I don’t feel like being an acrobat placing my feet in just the right spots so I don’t fall.
I don’t feel like being out twice as long because it takes that much longer to walk anywhere.
I have to go to my work tonight; the one I signed up for just to socialize. That’s it; my only motive. I really get nothing out of it, well, other than meeting a few people.
How do these types of people get a free pass?
May 23 2010
I lay on the icy cold tiles in my room for 2 hours last night crying, just wanting to die. It’s all my broken links. I’m made up of them. No one listens to me and I feel like I have no sense of control in my life. What I asked for seemed so simple and I gave clear directions and yet they do what they want instead of what I asked. I was given a lot of crap that I would have been humiliated to present to anyone. I never get away with anything like that and it just makes me wonder why I’m held to a higher standard than the rest. How do these types of people get a free pass?
While on the floor I decided I’m not going back to Pollachi. It is really dragging me down and I don’t need any reminders of how weak some of my relationships are. I would have thought twice about taking this steps again if I had known it was going to focus on my weakest skills and my weakest relationships I had. This isn't the time. I don’t need to focus on my weaknesses I need to focus on my strengths. I need to protect myself. I’m hanging on by a thread.
I lay on the icy cold tiles in my room for 2 hours last night crying, just wanting to die. It’s all my broken links. I’m made up of them. No one listens to me and I feel like I have no sense of control in my life. What I asked for seemed so simple and I gave clear directions and yet they do what they want instead of what I asked. I was given a lot of crap that I would have been humiliated to present to anyone. I never get away with anything like that and it just makes me wonder why I’m held to a higher standard than the rest. How do these types of people get a free pass?
While on the floor I decided I’m not going back to Pollachi. It is really dragging me down and I don’t need any reminders of how weak some of my relationships are. I would have thought twice about taking this steps again if I had known it was going to focus on my weakest skills and my weakest relationships I had. This isn't the time. I don’t need to focus on my weaknesses I need to focus on my strengths. I need to protect myself. I’m hanging on by a thread.
Casual
May 22 2010
Ignore problems until the very last minute, build up the pressure. I respect looking for something by expecting; simply staring. Heaven forbid I could put work before pleasure. And I do, take pleasure in working more than worrying – My destructive piece of mind struggles otherwise as my lazy side concedes – I believe, everything could be perfect in the end. And constant happiness is possible.
Ignore problems until the very last minute, build up the pressure. I respect looking for something by expecting; simply staring. Heaven forbid I could put work before pleasure. And I do, take pleasure in working more than worrying – My destructive piece of mind struggles otherwise as my lazy side concedes – I believe, everything could be perfect in the end. And constant happiness is possible.
No-one Knows
May 21 2010
How can one describe a feeling so numb?
Of the highest highs and deepest disguise-
I was going to live my life, I swear…
And it won’t be the distance that does it
Nor the constant pushing away
Rather never knowing
Of leaving bed, moods and heads
To sway; to stay, today?
How can one describe a feeling so numb?
Of the highest highs and deepest disguise-
I was going to live my life, I swear…
And it won’t be the distance that does it
Nor the constant pushing away
Rather never knowing
Of leaving bed, moods and heads
To sway; to stay, today?
Meme E11even
May 20 2010
Rettai suzhi (Tamil movie)
2. What book are you reading?
I just finished reading ‘Life of Che’ and don't think i’ll have much time for another good one for a long time!
3. Favorite board game?
OK, I cant play chess. But earlier on I did Enjoy playing Business and Sherlock Holmes.
4. Favorite magazine?
I have been reading Anandha Vikatan for almost 15 years till now. And now they also have a whole lot of others like India today, simply chennai, aspire… so a good enough package.
5. Favorite smells?
Wet earth, Petrol, My pillow.
6. Favorite sounds?
A good laugh that comes from the heart. I also had this wind chimes made of mud in my previous home. It used to make the softest of sounds and i used to love it. But while shifting it broke.
7. Worst feeling in the world?
I dunno but a lot to say…. hmmm
8. What is the first thing you think of when you wake up?
Oh! I always wonder if I can sleep for some more time!
9. Favorite fast food place?
Not much of a fast food person. lol.
10. Future child’s name?
Boy will be named Aathi, and the girl will be named Anika. lol…. wt a question
11. Finish this statement. “If I had lot of money I’d….?
I dunno what I would do, but I would love to spend some of it and travel to Australia and Kashmir!!
12. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?
Oh, never!
13. Storms – cool or scary?
We don't really get to see a lot of storms in Pollachi. But a day ago or so, when it rained, there was hailstone, thunder, lightning, trees were uprooted and power was cut. it was not so cool after a point!
14. Favorite drink?
These days its more of coconut water n PEPSI too.
15. Finish this statement, “If I had the time I would….”?
Blog more often!! visit places, friends, reply to mails, shop, spend time at a resort…. oh the list!!
16. Do you eat the stems on broccoli?
Oh yes…
17. If you could dye your hair any color, what would be your choice?
I’v been coloring my hair ever since I was in Hsc. It’s mostly shades of black or brown for me.
18. Name all the different cities/towns you’ve lived in?
Pollachi, Chennai & Bangalore.
19. Favorite sports to watch?
Football and Tennis. Depending on my mood I also enjoy Cricket n F1. Though cricket is my last choice.
20. One nice thing about the person who sent this to you?
A lot of nice things actually. He is good looking, smart, zany, funny, intelligent and cool! (I was made to write this, lol)
21. What’s under your bed?
Her photo. lol!!.
22. Would you like to be born as yourself again?
If you have made a secret wish to be born as me, then I ll b U.
23. Morning person, or night owl?
Morning person huh? What do you mean?... I have only Nights.
24. Over easy, or sunny side up?
I dont like omelets!! thank u
25. Favorite place to relax?
My room!
26. Favorite pie?
blueberry pie from Cake Walk. They make the best!!
27. Favorite ice cream flavor?
Venilla n Falooda!
28. Of all the people you tagged this to, who’s most likely to respond first?
I think most of them have done this already.
Videos in GOOGLE WAVE
May 18 2010
Update: Embedding video in a wave is easier than I thought. Just paste the video URL, and it will show a small icon at the end of the URL, asking if you want to embed the video. Click that, and you are done.
And check out the Google Wave Extension for Google Chrome too !!
Google wave is not just for communication and collaboration. It’s for fun and entertainment too. Can you imagine entertainment on the web without Youtube videos ? … here is sweet plugin that lets you embed youtube videos in to a WAVE.
HTML Gadget, the Plugin
Update: Embedding video in a wave is easier than I thought. Just paste the video URL, and it will show a small icon at the end of the URL, asking if you want to embed the video. Click that, and you are done.
And check out the Google Wave Extension for Google Chrome too !!
Google wave is not just for communication and collaboration. It’s for fun and entertainment too. Can you imagine entertainment on the web without Youtube videos ? … here is sweet plugin that lets you embed youtube videos in to a WAVE.
HTML Gadget, the Plugin
You Tube Video on Google Wave
This wave addon lets you add HTML, CSS and Javascript codes to your WAVE. To embed a Youtube video, you need enable this plugin, and then copy paste the youtube video’s embed code as you do on normal webpages and blog posts. Simple ? You will get more details about this plugin from this page.
I will be updating this post with more information and screenshots when Google Wave is experienced. Stay tuned....
Journey in silence
May 17 2010
This week I have been driving to and from work in silence. A bit of a struggle for me as my mind tends to wander in all sorts of directions if I’m not distracting myself with music or tv or any loud sound to quiet my mind. I’ve found that this mini mental break has actually been really good for me. Not only has it been a nice break for my normally out of control mind, it has given me an opportunity for insight.
This morning on my way into work I was thinking about how my mind works. It is a perfectionist’s mind. It expects daily miracles. There is nothing wrong with setting high goals but in recovery it is important to be realistic. My mind says “do something the correct way once and you will be healed”, the problem with thinking this way is that when I do something the correct way and I still have anxiety, my anxiety gets worse, I beat myself up for not being “better”.
This week I have been driving to and from work in silence. A bit of a struggle for me as my mind tends to wander in all sorts of directions if I’m not distracting myself with music or tv or any loud sound to quiet my mind. I’ve found that this mini mental break has actually been really good for me. Not only has it been a nice break for my normally out of control mind, it has given me an opportunity for insight.
This morning on my way into work I was thinking about how my mind works. It is a perfectionist’s mind. It expects daily miracles. There is nothing wrong with setting high goals but in recovery it is important to be realistic. My mind says “do something the correct way once and you will be healed”, the problem with thinking this way is that when I do something the correct way and I still have anxiety, my anxiety gets worse, I beat myself up for not being “better”.
Dreamz!
May 16 2010
I am a dreamer… at least in my sleep. I dream very frequently as often as every night since very much younger. Sometimes I love it, especially when I have sufficient sleep and woke up with a smile on my face. Some times I hate it… especially when I was chasing something or be chased, teeth falling out, falling, fights between love ones, arriving late to some important functions.
Sometimes dreams can be very helpful… a solutions to an issue which I have been working on. Sometimes it is a warning… like ‘drive carefully!’. Sometimes it’s a mystery… Sometimes it’s boringly black and white, and sometimes I can remember the colour, the touch, the smells, and the feelings… especially when it is a beautiful dream.
As I aged teen, I began to enjoy dreams more… especially dreams that repeats my Anipra and my daily errants in life. Whenever I am stressed, my dreams evolve around the situations that I was stressed about…. to the point I have to ask myself , ‘…did I actually made that promise, call that decision, met the person or did that happened in my dream?’… Whenever that happened, I woke up feeling like I have not slept!.
Tonight, I yearn for dreamless night to have a complete rest after few days of eventful dreams!
I am a dreamer… at least in my sleep. I dream very frequently as often as every night since very much younger. Sometimes I love it, especially when I have sufficient sleep and woke up with a smile on my face. Some times I hate it… especially when I was chasing something or be chased, teeth falling out, falling, fights between love ones, arriving late to some important functions.
Sometimes dreams can be very helpful… a solutions to an issue which I have been working on. Sometimes it is a warning… like ‘drive carefully!’. Sometimes it’s a mystery… Sometimes it’s boringly black and white, and sometimes I can remember the colour, the touch, the smells, and the feelings… especially when it is a beautiful dream.
As I aged teen, I began to enjoy dreams more… especially dreams that repeats my Anipra and my daily errants in life. Whenever I am stressed, my dreams evolve around the situations that I was stressed about…. to the point I have to ask myself , ‘…did I actually made that promise, call that decision, met the person or did that happened in my dream?’… Whenever that happened, I woke up feeling like I have not slept!.
Tonight, I yearn for dreamless night to have a complete rest after few days of eventful dreams!
Meme Ten
May 15 2010
My Random Things
1. What was I doing 10 years ago?
A happy, fun loving, mischievous college student.
2. What are five things on my to-do list for today (not in any particular order).
Actually nothing is on my to-do list right now because it's 1:20am and I'm dead tired. I will post my to-do list for tomorrow:
Go to work.
Clean my room.
Want to download a software for my client.
Search a groom in Tamil matrimonial for sharmila.
Call my Mom to tell her the movie times. She wants us to watch a movie together Saturday afternoon.
3. Snacks I enjoy:
Plum Cake
Pineapple
Potato Chips
Corn
Cherries
4. Things I would do if I was a billionaire:
Adopt a child, if financially and emotionally capable.
Give money to all of my family members and friends so that they can pay off their bills and mortgages.
Take a trip around the world.
Build a house on the mountain's foot step in Aliyar.
Sit at the top of a London double-decker bus.
Attend a World Cup match.
Ride on a desert safari.
Live six months in Australia and two two months in other countries.
Take a trip on the Orient Express (I have wanted to do that since I was a child).
Visit Anipra in Pollachi and take her out for a coffee.
Get a trainer and work out. Also attend yoga classes.
Buy a boat and jet around the lake.
Pay off all of my bills and mortgage and get a financial investor to make a plan to invest/save the rest of the money.
Wow...that is a lot...but then again it is a billion dollars. There is so much more that I would do but don't have all night.
5. Three of my bad habits:
It used to be drinking, but I quit a year ago (I still crave them like mad, though!).
Not having enough discipline and getting to bed way too late.
Wanting everything to be in its place and clean where I live (I am fine if others aren't this way where they live and don't mind at all).
Driving too fast.
6. Four places I have lived:
Pollachi
Chennai
Bangalore
Tiruppur
7. Five jobs I have had:
Customer care Aircel.
Worked as computer science teacher in a School.
First job was at 21 in a computer showroom.
Technical support in sony play station.
Programmer in ABT Infosys.
Anyone wanting to do the same meme let me know that you did so that I can visit and learn more about you.
Eternal Sunshine
May 12 2010
I continue to feel better mentally. It has to be attributed to the Oleanz that was newly prescribed. I have always had a low-level depression biting my head even on "good days", but I don't even have that now. Not only that, I am actually sleeping well with no assistance from Ativan. I am getting tired around 10:00pm, go to sleep, sleep through the night and wake up at a good time. It is amazing to me that this is occurring when remembering how not long ago I would go night after night with no sleep.
Could all of this be the Oleanz? Does it really give "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind"? (love that movie, by the way)
1/2 step forward out of 999 steps...
May 11 2010
Within the last 2 weeks:
1. I started my job.
2. Unemployment gone.
3. I have money coming in now.
4. I've visited about 5-9 companies per week and have gotten maybe 3 phone calls and
worked out for 2 and got succeed 1.
6. I'm almost 1 week advertisement payment behind.
7. Also 2 months on phone/internet.
8. I just spent the last of my money on dinner(last night), Cell Phone top up for 50rs.
9. Sruthi and I are now friends.
If anyone in the Coimbatore area needs a top notch Hardware and Networking Engineer Just call Google Valet-9788116669 that can rescue your computer, oh...yes, please let me know.
Actually, if anyone in the Coimbatore area needs anyone to do anything in computers, please let me know. Um, legally speaking.
Please please please send good thoughts this way ya'll - I don't know what I'm going to do. Just Help me....
Again One Word !
May 8 2010
1. Where is your cell phone? Hand
2. Your boyfriend/girlfriend? Who?
3. Your hair? thin
4. Work? tiring
5. Your father? cool
6. Your favorite thing? sleeping
7. Your dream last night? awesome
8. Your favorite drink? PEPSI
9. Your dream car? Ambassador (truly Indian)
10. The room you’re in? Silence
11. Your pet? None
12. Your fears? growing
13. What do you want to be in 10 years? Alive
14. Where did you hang out yesterday? Coonoor
15. What you’re not good at? relations
16. Eyebrow rings? Nope
17. One of your wish list items? love
18. Where you grew up? Pollachi
19. The last thing you did? work
20. What are you wearing? clothes
21. What aren’t you wearing? vest
22. Do you currently like someone? no
23. Your computer? world
24. Your life? messy
25. Hungover? nope
26. Missing? sanity
27. Thinking about? life
28. Eating? ugh
29. The weather? nice
30. Your summer? gone
31. Your relationship status? Nonexistent
32. Your favorite color? pink
33. When is the last time you laughed? hour
34. Last time you cried? daily
35. School? VVV
1. Where is your cell phone? Hand
2. Your boyfriend/girlfriend? Who?
3. Your hair? thin
4. Work? tiring
5. Your father? cool
6. Your favorite thing? sleeping
7. Your dream last night? awesome
8. Your favorite drink? PEPSI
9. Your dream car? Ambassador (truly Indian)
10. The room you’re in? Silence
11. Your pet? None
12. Your fears? growing
13. What do you want to be in 10 years? Alive
14. Where did you hang out yesterday? Coonoor
15. What you’re not good at? relations
16. Eyebrow rings? Nope
17. One of your wish list items? love
18. Where you grew up? Pollachi
19. The last thing you did? work
20. What are you wearing? clothes
21. What aren’t you wearing? vest
22. Do you currently like someone? no
23. Your computer? world
24. Your life? messy
25. Hungover? nope
26. Missing? sanity
27. Thinking about? life
28. Eating? ugh
29. The weather? nice
30. Your summer? gone
31. Your relationship status? Nonexistent
32. Your favorite color? pink
33. When is the last time you laughed? hour
34. Last time you cried? daily
35. School? VVV
100 Tamil Flowers On Your B'day Anna...
May 7 2010
Anna I learned 100 tamil flower names.
I like to greet you with this flowers
On your Birthday anna...
Kantal, Ambal, Aniccham, Kuvalai, Kurinchi, Vetchi, Sen -kodu-veri, Thema, Mani-cci-kai, Untul, Kuvilam,
Erul, Sulli, Kuviram, Vada-vanam, Vakai, Kudacham, Eruvai, Ceruvilai, Karuvilam, Payini, Vani, Kuruvam,
Pasum-piti, Vakulam, Kaya, Avirai, Veral, Sural, Ciru-pulai, Kuru-naru-n-kanni, Kurukilai, Marutham,
Kongkam, Pongkam, Tilakam, Pathiri, Cerunthi, Atiral, Senbagam, Karanthai, Kulavi, Maa-maram, Tillai,
Palai, Mullai, Mull-makil, Kanchang-kullai, Pitavam, Cen-karungkali, Vaalai, Valli, Neytal, Talai, Talavam,
Tamarai,Nalal, Mauval, Kokudi, Setal, Cemmal, Ciru-seng-kurali, Kodal, Kaitai, valai, Kanchi, Manik-kulai,
Pangkar, Maravam, Tanakkam, Ingkai, Ilavam, Kondrai, Atumpu, Atti, Avarai, Pakandrai, Palasam, Pinti,
Vanchi, Pittikam, Sindu-varam, Tumpai, Tulaiy, Thondri, Nanthi, Naravam, Pun-naakam, Param, Piiram,
Kurukatti, Aram, Kalvai, Punnai, Narantham, Naga-p-poo, Nallirunari, Kuruntam, Venkai, Pulaku.....
I think...
May 6 2010
I think that sometimes, people don't die from suicide or from accidents or illnesses.
I think that sometimes, people die because they simply lose their will to continue with life.
Once the will to keep fighting is gone, something changes in their hearts.
With no will to keep going, you simply don't.
I think that sometimes, people don't die from suicide or from accidents or illnesses.
I think that sometimes, people die because they simply lose their will to continue with life.
Once the will to keep fighting is gone, something changes in their hearts.
With no will to keep going, you simply don't.
Meme Nine
May 5 2010
1) Wheres the person you like right now?
She's in her bed sleeping.
2) Last time you consumed alcohol?
February 27 night. On her B'day.
3) What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
Not sleeping, probably looking at the clock cursing in my head about how I'm NOT SLEEPING.
4) What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Stupid work.
5) How do you feel about the person who texted you last?
Lots & lots of affection.
6) Have you ever been around someone who was high?
...this is hilarious. A better question was have I ever been around someone that is NOT high.
7) Do you like your life as of now?
Nope, I love my amazing parents.
8 ) Last thing you purchased?
Stupid Processor fan at RS 375.
9) Have you ever drank with your number one?
Not sure what this means exactly... my number one what... friend? Lovah? Number one friend? Actually - if it is any of those - yes.
10) Where are you right now, and how do you feel about where you are?
I'm at blog and I love it. It's 4:36am and I should be IN BED.
11) What are you excited for?
The possibilities with Ani, how well my Krithi's doing in school - especially with her writing and art.
12) Hows your heart lately?
Hopeful for the first time in a LONG time.
13) Who was the last person you hugged?
Vicky.
14) Who was the last person to hold your hand?
Samu perima.
15) Are you a jealous person?
Nope.
16) Did you have a good birthday this year?
Waiting for it. Next month.
17) Are you tired right now?
Wow..... HORRIFICALLY.
18 ) What are your outlooks on gay/bisexual relationships?
As long as people are happy, I couldn't care less what sex they are.
19) Do you chew on your straws?
No.
20) Have you ever been called a tease?
Yes.
21) Last Message on orkut from?
Pooja.
22) Three days from now will you be in a relationship?
More than likely no, since we both apparently separated 2 years back.
23) Do you have curly hair?
No
24) Who was at your house last?
Samu perima & peripa
25) Do you smoke cigarettes?
No
26) Do you lead people on?
Nah
27) Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
There was lots of kissing the last person I kissed.
28 ) Have you ever told someone of the opposite sex you loved them and meant it?
Yes, I said to only one thats Ani and I mean it.
29) Is there something you wanna do?
OH GOD, could some of these questions be more random?
30) As of today, do you like anyone?
Nope
31) Have you kissed anyone on the lips today?
No, waaaah.
32) Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?
Heehee...ho....ha...... YES.
33) Do you like to cuddle?
Nope.
34) Last song you heard?
Veera veera from Ravana.
35) Last person you cried over?
My grandma a few months ago who died.
36) Do you cry easily?
Tough question, sometimes yes - sometimes now.
37) Do you have any siblings?
None.
38 ) Where did you go today ?
Computer Embassy and Annapoorna in Coimbatore.
39) What should you be doing right now?
Sleeping.
40) Are you a heavy sleeper?
Ok, now it's just being rubbed in my face. NO.
41) When was the last time you did the dishes?
Yesterday
42) Name every one that made you smile today:
In this order: Mom, Juju, Samu Perima.
1) Wheres the person you like right now?
She's in her bed sleeping.
2) Last time you consumed alcohol?
February 27 night. On her B'day.
3) What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
Not sleeping, probably looking at the clock cursing in my head about how I'm NOT SLEEPING.
4) What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Stupid work.
5) How do you feel about the person who texted you last?
Lots & lots of affection.
6) Have you ever been around someone who was high?
...this is hilarious. A better question was have I ever been around someone that is NOT high.
7) Do you like your life as of now?
Nope, I love my amazing parents.
8 ) Last thing you purchased?
Stupid Processor fan at RS 375.
9) Have you ever drank with your number one?
Not sure what this means exactly... my number one what... friend? Lovah? Number one friend? Actually - if it is any of those - yes.
10) Where are you right now, and how do you feel about where you are?
I'm at blog and I love it. It's 4:36am and I should be IN BED.
11) What are you excited for?
The possibilities with Ani, how well my Krithi's doing in school - especially with her writing and art.
12) Hows your heart lately?
Hopeful for the first time in a LONG time.
13) Who was the last person you hugged?
Vicky.
14) Who was the last person to hold your hand?
Samu perima.
15) Are you a jealous person?
Nope.
16) Did you have a good birthday this year?
Waiting for it. Next month.
17) Are you tired right now?
Wow..... HORRIFICALLY.
18 ) What are your outlooks on gay/bisexual relationships?
As long as people are happy, I couldn't care less what sex they are.
19) Do you chew on your straws?
No.
20) Have you ever been called a tease?
Yes.
21) Last Message on orkut from?
Pooja.
22) Three days from now will you be in a relationship?
More than likely no, since we both apparently separated 2 years back.
23) Do you have curly hair?
No
24) Who was at your house last?
Samu perima & peripa
25) Do you smoke cigarettes?
No
26) Do you lead people on?
Nah
27) Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
There was lots of kissing the last person I kissed.
28 ) Have you ever told someone of the opposite sex you loved them and meant it?
Yes, I said to only one thats Ani and I mean it.
29) Is there something you wanna do?
OH GOD, could some of these questions be more random?
30) As of today, do you like anyone?
Nope
31) Have you kissed anyone on the lips today?
No, waaaah.
32) Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?
Heehee...ho....ha...... YES.
33) Do you like to cuddle?
Nope.
34) Last song you heard?
Veera veera from Ravana.
35) Last person you cried over?
My grandma a few months ago who died.
36) Do you cry easily?
Tough question, sometimes yes - sometimes now.
37) Do you have any siblings?
None.
38 ) Where did you go today ?
Computer Embassy and Annapoorna in Coimbatore.
39) What should you be doing right now?
Sleeping.
40) Are you a heavy sleeper?
Ok, now it's just being rubbed in my face. NO.
41) When was the last time you did the dishes?
Yesterday
42) Name every one that made you smile today:
In this order: Mom, Juju, Samu Perima.
Ineffective Daily Affirmations
May 4 2010
Feeling blue or insecure? Losing sight of what’s important? Still searching for the real “you”? In this self-help age of soul-searching, daily affirmations have been known to do the trick.
But you probably shouldn’t try these …
I have the power to channel my imagination into ever-soaring levels of suspicion and paranoia.
I assume full responsibility for my actions, except the ones that are someone else’s fault.
I no longer need to punish, deceive or compromise myself. Unless, of course, I want to be employed.
In some cultures what I do would be considered normal.
Having control over myself is nearly as good as having control over others.
My intuition nearly makes up for my lack of good judgment.
I can change any thought that hurts into a reality that hurts even more.
I honor my personality flaws, for without them I would have no personality at all.
I am grateful that I am not as judgmental as all those censorious, self- righteous people around me.
I need not suffer in silence while I can still moan, whimper and complain.
When someone hurts me, forgiveness is cheaper than a lawsuit. But not nearly as gratifying.
All of me is beautiful and valuable, even the ugly, stupid and disgusting parts.
I am at one with my duality.
Only a lack of imagination saves me from immobilizing myself with imaginary fears.
I honor and express all facets of my being, regardless of state and local laws.
Today I will gladly share my experience and advice, for there are no sweeter words than “I told you so.”
I am learning that criticism is not nearly as effective as sabotage.
Becoming aware of my character defects leads me to the next step — blaming my parents.
I will find humor in my everyday life by looking for people I can laugh at.
Feeling blue or insecure? Losing sight of what’s important? Still searching for the real “you”? In this self-help age of soul-searching, daily affirmations have been known to do the trick.
But you probably shouldn’t try these …
I have the power to channel my imagination into ever-soaring levels of suspicion and paranoia.
I assume full responsibility for my actions, except the ones that are someone else’s fault.
I no longer need to punish, deceive or compromise myself. Unless, of course, I want to be employed.
In some cultures what I do would be considered normal.
Having control over myself is nearly as good as having control over others.
My intuition nearly makes up for my lack of good judgment.
I can change any thought that hurts into a reality that hurts even more.
I honor my personality flaws, for without them I would have no personality at all.
I am grateful that I am not as judgmental as all those censorious, self- righteous people around me.
I need not suffer in silence while I can still moan, whimper and complain.
When someone hurts me, forgiveness is cheaper than a lawsuit. But not nearly as gratifying.
All of me is beautiful and valuable, even the ugly, stupid and disgusting parts.
I am at one with my duality.
Only a lack of imagination saves me from immobilizing myself with imaginary fears.
I honor and express all facets of my being, regardless of state and local laws.
Today I will gladly share my experience and advice, for there are no sweeter words than “I told you so.”
I am learning that criticism is not nearly as effective as sabotage.
Becoming aware of my character defects leads me to the next step — blaming my parents.
I will find humor in my everyday life by looking for people I can laugh at.
Wanna ride huh?
May 3 2010
I can see me on this! The Amazing Sidecar: “Snaefell” by François Knorreck.
Check out the side views here.
Found Note...
May 2 2010
I have been so busy lately. I know I have a lot to catch up on, reading and writing, but will be busy the next few days. Sorry. I owe Pooja a reply on her disclosure post and I read a very interesting post by Sruthi that I want to comment on. But I was going through some things in my storage area and came across this note … I wanted to share it:
On This Day:
Mend a quarrel
Search for a forgotten friend
Dismiss a suspicion, replace it with trust.
Write a letter to someone who misses you
Encourage a youth who has lost faith
Keep a promise
Forget an old grudge
Examine your demands on others and vow to reduce them.
Fight for a principle
Express your gratitude
Overcome an old fear
Take two minutes to appreciate the beauty of nature
Downloaded krithi & kavin Photos
Tell someone you love him/her
Tell them again
and again
and again.
I have been so busy lately. I know I have a lot to catch up on, reading and writing, but will be busy the next few days. Sorry. I owe Pooja a reply on her disclosure post and I read a very interesting post by Sruthi that I want to comment on. But I was going through some things in my storage area and came across this note … I wanted to share it:
On This Day:
Mend a quarrel
Search for a forgotten friend
Dismiss a suspicion, replace it with trust.
Write a letter to someone who misses you
Encourage a youth who has lost faith
Keep a promise
Forget an old grudge
Examine your demands on others and vow to reduce them.
Fight for a principle
Express your gratitude
Overcome an old fear
Take two minutes to appreciate the beauty of nature
Downloaded krithi & kavin Photos
Tell someone you love him/her
Tell them again
and again
and again.
99% vs. 100% honesty
May 1 2010
Two days ago, I stopped telling little stupid lies. Since then, my life has improved by a ridiculous amount.
There is a big difference between 99% and 100%. 100% committed is far more powerful than 99% committed. 100% confident is far more useful than 99% confident. And 100% honest is far more empowering than 99% honest.
99% honest is pretty good, it’s true. The 1% of my dishonesty was mostly either “fudging by rounding” or “little white lies”. Here are some examples.
Mom: “Did you see that actor sivakumar's speech in vijay tv ?”
Me: “Yeah, it was really nice!”
My thoughts: “Huh, why did I say that? I didn’t see it at all.”
Dad: “Are you okay with this plan?”
Me: “Yeah.”
My thoughts: “I’m mostly okay with this plan, and that’s close enough that I don’t feel like making a big deal out of it.”
Two days ago, I stopped telling little stupid lies. Since then, my life has improved by a ridiculous amount.
There is a big difference between 99% and 100%. 100% committed is far more powerful than 99% committed. 100% confident is far more useful than 99% confident. And 100% honest is far more empowering than 99% honest.
99% honest is pretty good, it’s true. The 1% of my dishonesty was mostly either “fudging by rounding” or “little white lies”. Here are some examples.
Mom: “Did you see that actor sivakumar's speech in vijay tv ?”
Me: “Yeah, it was really nice!”
My thoughts: “Huh, why did I say that? I didn’t see it at all.”
Dad: “Are you okay with this plan?”
Me: “Yeah.”
My thoughts: “I’m mostly okay with this plan, and that’s close enough that I don’t feel like making a big deal out of it.”
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