I will not let them make me numb

July 30 2012

I'm now on 200mg of  failure. I can't wait until the poison is out of my body completely. I don't think I'm getting high. I am however agitated and angry. 
I keep having fantasies about being back in my business and FIGHTING.

I wish I'd fought harder to keep my self, to keep my soul to prove me.

I am angry with myself for willingly taking a procrastination that made me dull and flat, stupid and lazy.

I am angry with myself for being depressed and failure and not recognising that that was one of civilization's ways of trying to make me numb.


In the end it's all about meaning. You could say I was hallucinating or you could say I'm seeing a reality most people are blind to.

I'm only just realising how much power I have. The power to influence the universe. I *am* connected to the earth & you.....rite?!

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