Who I Am Makes A Difference

April 30 2010

I don’t mind telling you this one made me cry.

Not giving you a heads up. Just watch this video.

Meme Ei8ht

April 29 2010

It’s hard to nail down just 10 things that make me happy. I’ll try.

1. Making other people happy or smile. Makes me all gushy.

2. Reading a great book. Or learning something from it.

3. Eating good food. Even better when it’s from my mom's kitchen!

4. Being creative.

5. Listening to music.

6. Watching great television. Mostly found on Vijay Tv's Koffee wit Anu and The Hour with Gopinath's Neeya Nanna.

7. My family.

8. Good conversation.

9. Living life.

10. Cheese. I know I said food. Oh, how I love Gee roast and cheese!

Quotes...because i love them...

April 28 2010

♥We need more understanding of human nature, because the only real danger that exists is man himself. Carl Jung

♥Be equal to your talent, not your age. At times let the gap between them be embarrassing. Yevgeny Yevtushenko

♥A neurotic is the man who builds a castle in the air. A psychotic lives in it. A psychiatrist collects the rent. Anonymous

♥Freedom is what you do with what’s been done to you. Jean-Paul Satre

♥Any coward can fight a battle when he’s sure of winning, but give me the man who has pluck to fight when he’s sure of losing. George Eliot (Mary Ann Evans)

♥When in doubt, make a fool of yourself. There is a microscopically thin line between being brilliantly creative and acting like the most gigantic idiot on earth. So, what the hell, leap. Cynthia Heimel

♥All men dream, but not equally. Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their minds wake in the day to find that it was vanity: but the dreamers of the day are dangerous men, for they may act their dream with open eyes, to make it possible. T.E. Lawrence

♥You only have power over people so long as you don’t take everything away from them.  But when you’ve robbed a man of everything he’s no longer in your power – he’s free again. Alexander Solzhenitsyn

♥You can always tell a real friend: when you’ve made a fool of yourself and he doesn’t feel you’ve done a permanent job. Laurence J. Peter

♥Hatred rarely does harm to its object. It is the hater who suffers. Lord Beaverbrook

♥There is no problem you cannot ignore, confront, plot against, drown in chocolate sauce, or run over with the car. (I don’t know who wrote it. It is printed on a set of napkins I have)



April 27 2010

What if no one cares? WHAT THE F*** WILL THAT MEAN? What have I been living for? What is really keeping me alive? Is there someone in this world that I am living for? Must I always find out the hard way and suffer other people’s consequences? There is no relief. This world offers none. There is no meaning to the actions I do. My intent is unknown to myself. Everyone matters. I am not everyone. I am the imbalance of neglect. I am the F***ING IMBALANCE OF NEGLECT.

Why is it that when I am alone, I feel too lonely, and when I am with other people, I want to be alone? Why is there such an imbalance? Is it me? I bet it is. I am neglected, and I am the reason for it. I am the source of the lies that I live and that others believe. I am the imbalance of neglect.

Why am I alive?

When will it end? My heart hurts. My eyes thirst. My mind has lost motivation. When will it end? When can I finally just die?

Is my desire for death genuine? Can anyone give me an answer to that? I cannot imagine myself in the future anymore. I have stopped dreaming completely for what my future might hold. There is nothing to dream for, and there is nothing to live for. Why is everything so artificial?

No one

April 26 2010

No one will ever begin to understand me. No one. No one. No one. No one.

They all stare and pretend. I will never even understand myself because my damn personality and views keep changing. What did I do to deserve this?

This life sucks. There is no value in anything. Everything is meaningless. My mind is strained too much for me to enjoy living. Why must I choose to live? I hate everything.

There is no reason to live. Only excuses.

I was so blind!

April 25 2010

Finally! I know my purpose! I was so blind!

All I wanted was happiness. I now know that it is unrealistic. It’s too stupid. It’s like the lottery, but only more people win it. However, I am not meant to be happy. Happiness is not for me. I now know it. It’s not the way I’ll be. I was not that fortunate. Life is never what you make it to be. Life is only what you are given.

My purpose is to serve others, to love others. I can do that. I will not seek help from others, for I’m a man. I don’t need help. I need to help others. That’s what I’m here for. I’m not some ignorant brat who’s constantly happy and has a “life” and hangs out with others. I am meant for other works. Satisfaction is not to be felt, but rather to be known and understood.

Six secrets

April 24 2010

I found this tucked away somewhere while i was cleaning up.

1. Listen more than u talk.

2. Avoid the temptation to criticize

3. Make others feel important, show interest in what they do.

4. Keep smiling and be friendly.

5. Dont hesitate to ask for a reasonable favor, it helps the others prestige.

6. Use the pronoun ‘You’ rather than ‘I’.

Past Forward

April 23 2010

I look back at my life, and I realize I’ve always been running after something.. Money.. Safety.. Love.. Understanding.. Fun.. And here I am now, unsure if that’s what I really wanted all along?

The last 10 years have just whizzed by.. with me moving from one ‘logical’ step to another, and here I am now, unsure if I want that logic anymore?

I feel (at) peace and frustration..

I feel lost and caged..

I feel loved and misunderstood..

I feel hopeless, yet hopeful..

I feel empty, yet insightful..

I feel anger, yet calm..

I feel crushed, yet full of life..

I feel incomplete and yet so complete..

I feel it’s time to ask those tough questions.. and It’s time to answer them truthfully..

I feel it’s time to live without fear or anxiety.. and It’s time to just be..

I feel it’s time to fly away.. and fly as far away as I can..

I feel it’s time.. Yes! I feel it’s high time!

MBA Student vs Bsc Student

April 22 2010

A MBA and a BSc (cs) go on a camping trip, set up their tent,and fell asleep.
Some hours later, the BSc wakes his MBA friend. ” look up at the sky and tell me what you see.” The MBA replies, “I see millions of stars.”
“What does that tell you?”
The MBA ponders for a minute.
“Astronomically speaking, it tells me that there are millions of galaxies and potentially billions of planets.
Astrologically, it tells me that Saturn is in Leo.
Time wise, it appears to be approximately a quarter past three.
Theologically, it’s evident the Lord is all-powerful and we are small and insignificant. Meteorologic ally, it seems we will have a beautiful day tomorrow.
What does it tell you?”
The BSc is silent for a moment, then speaks.
“Practically…Someone has stolen our tent”.

Mysterious Words

April 21 2010

Todays Professional Management Fundas

1.”We will do it” means “You will do it”

2.”You have done a great job” means “More work to be given to you”

3.”We are working on it” means “We have not yet started working on the same”

4.”Tomorrow first thing in the morning” means “Its not getting done “At least not tomorrow!”

5.”After discussion we will decide-I am very open to views” means “I have already decided, I will tell you what to do”

6.”There was a slight miscommunication” means “We had actually lied”

7.”Lets call a meeting and discuss” means “I have no time now, will talk later”

8.”We can always do it” means “We actually cannot do the same on time”

9.”We are on the right track but there needs to be a slight extension of the deadline” means “The project is screwed up, we cannot deliver on time.”

10.”We had slight differences of opinion “means “We had actually fought”

11.”Make a list of the work that you do and let’s see how I can help you” means “Anyway you have to find a way out no help from me”

12.”You should have told me earlier” means “Well even if you told me earlier that would have made hardly any difference!”

13.”We need to find out the real reason” means “Well I will tell you where your fault is”

14.”Well Family is important; your leave is always granted. Just ensure that the work is not affected,” means, “Well you know…”

15.”We are a team,” means, “I am not the only one to be blamed”

16.”That’s actually a good question” means “I do not know anything about it”

17.”All the Best” means “You are in trouble”


April 20 2010

A husband wakes up at home with a huge hangover.
He forces himself to open his eyes, and the first thing he sees
is a couple of aspirins and a glass of water on the side table.
He sits down and sees his clothing in front of him, all clean and
pressed. He looks around the room and sees that
it is in perfect order, spotless, clean. So is the rest of the house.
He takes the aspirins and notices a note on the table.
Honey, breakfast is on the table, I left early to go grocery shopping.
Love You!

Totally shocked with the note , he goes to the kitchen and
sure enough there is a hot breakfast and the morning newspaper.
His son is also at the table, eating. He asks, “Son, what happened last night?”
His son says, “Well, you came home around 3 AM, drunk and delirious.
Broke some crockery, puked in the hall, and gave yourself a black eye
when you stumbled into the door”. Confused, the man asks,
“So, why is everything in order and so clean, and
breakfast is on the table waiting for me?
I should expect a big quarrel with her!”
His son replies, “Oh, that! Mom dragged you to the bedroom,
and when she tried to take your clothes n shoes off,
you said,


Self-induced hangover –Rs 400.00
Broken crockery – Rs 800.00
Breakfast – Rs 10.00
Saying the Right Thing While Drunk – “PRICELESS “

There are truly some things that both money and Mastercard can’t buy

Note: I am not writer of this, this is from a forward mail that I liked.

Its 100% True

April 18 2010

1. There are at least two people in this world that you would die for.
2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don’t like you.
5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6. You mean the world to someone.
7. You are special and unique.
8. Someone that you don’t even know exists loves you.
9. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
10. When you think the world has turned its back on you take another look.
11. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks. And always remember….

Good friends are like stars……..
You don’t always see them,
But you know they are always there.
I would rather have one rose and a kind word
from a friend while I’m here
than a whole truck load when I’m gone.
Forward to all your friends.
And don’t tell me you’re too busy for this..
Don’t you know the phrase
“stop and smell the flowers”?
See how many “bouquets” you end up with!

Idiotic Madness

April 17 2010

A word that describes what one feels.
I was being crushed under some feelings for last many days (and its not over yet).
here are those feelings (please forgive me for not elaborating the real life circumstances):

You know something is going to happen (sooner or later), something that is clearly going to change your life (at least to some extent). And all you can do is wait and wait and wait and…..

Now you know how helplessness is going around you, hopelessness is the one who takes things to next level. You stop seeing/finding any way out from the situation. you start feeling hopelessly helpless.

When you are hopelessly helpless, you can’t help but feel everything a bit more lifeless. Nothing makes you happy, nothing makes you smile, nothing makes you feel envy anymore.

Pessimistically Optimistic
Until now, you are helpless, and you are hopelessly trying to do all lifeless routines, and then you reach a pessimistically optimistic feeling (something like,” It will be better to face it sooner than later”).
Leave me alone type of loneliness
Now you are optimistically expecting pessimistic things to happen, you want to be left alone. You need privacy, you need time for yourself……. in which you keep feeling lonely. You don’t want to be disturbed but it doesn’t mean you don’t want anyone around. Weird thing is, you want to be alone at the same time loneliness is killing you.

Idiotic Madness
At last you reach the supremacy. Now you are nearly mad or you think so. You behave like an idiot and ask stupid questions. You try keeping your loved ones at a distance (not that you don’t need them) because you fear their caring. You think you don’t deserve it. Life sucks. It screws you for things you ought to have done in past but you didn’t. You can’t understand Life fully, ever, no one can!! But this does not mean you shouldn't try to understand, actually, you should!!

Then one day, your dear friend tells you to vent everything out, write it, tell others about it, and you think “yeah…”.
Next day, Life reminds you of everything written above by playing with you, playing!!
And after staring blankly at “Create New Post” box for half an hour, you start writing something at 3.15AM, and now you check the calendar and with a jolt of heart you notice that its the same day you were planning of returning to blogging.
Yes, I am back.
with new hopes (because, after Idiotic Madness, a news comes which tells you that Life haven’t given you up yet!!!)

Its damn addictive!!

April 16 2010

Have you ever tried using StumbleUpon ?

Its damn addictive!!

Addiction is a strong word. Its the word which changed lifes of two people. Well, not exactly…. but this is what they said to each other….”.. its becoming an addiction….” and then it really became an addiction for lifetime.

Am I making sense? No? Oops!! Someday, I will elaborate about it. Till then your guess is as perfect as anybody else’s.

Just try that stumbleupon once, I doubt there will be very few people in the world who won’t like it.


Missing You...

April 15 2010

Last week, I dined at People's Park (annapoorna) in Coimbatore. After dinner, I went for ice cream or something like that. Pushing the glass door open (which has a big wheel for handle), I glanced a little left. And my (already pounding) heart gave a jolt and resumed with more speed. That table behind the glass, that’s the girl I celebrated my first *true* love. The day, the date and the occasion will never leave my memory lane ever.

It happens a lot now a days. Everywhere I go, the place has a memory, of her, of being there with her, of having spent most happiest moments of life (so far) with her.

Few years ago, we used to spend long nice evenings and weekends together and suddenly I found myself alone and her far far away than she had ever gone. Not that she left me forever, not that we severed ties, but still, the circumstances forced me for moving to another city. Things just didn't settle after her going away, as I (am sure) was marked for experience of being God’s Yo-Yo.

Missing You
She moved in with her family and bad days returned spreading sadness everywhere. For obvious reasons, we now talk in our dreams. Some days even pass without listening the voices of each other (which is the root of all this story).

Flexibility being my most adored quality, I adjusted my lifestyle to fill the blank space created by her absence. But I never saw this coming. I knew I would miss her but…. Now, I can’t bear to go any place I have visited with her. I just can’t concentrate on anything. I keep missing her smile, missing her glances while talking, missing her eyes for locking, missing her hands while walking and much more things…. I just miss everything. Everything seems like missing from my life. Every Happy feeling, every enjoying moments, everything. Its just like I have lost myself again.

For a month or so I didn't realize her absence as I was busy. Now empty head leads to weird thoughts. And my mind feels her absense instead. May be this will last only few days and then I will get used to it. But still I don’t know how long. I haven’t even dared to visit Pollachi or any Temples, Malls, Roads, Lanes where we spent most of our time yet. I just lose my vigilance and everything and become a person whose head is empty and eyes vacant.

My family must have noticed this as I can see them trying to change subjects and stop me from entering this vacant feel when someone mentions her. This won’t feel like being God’s Yo Yo though. Things would have been much worse if it was the case.

Feeling much better now. Speaking out always helps (even if its not making any sense for others)

My brain surely needs some tweaking.

Life is not as simple as it seems…… or may be it is.

Say Something about Sharmila!!

April 14 2010

Fat? Huh,Yes....
Small?? Noo,
Shy? WHAT?,
Sweet? errr!,
Sporting? Yeah(Monkey Cycling),
Cool? Do you mean Cold(blooded)?   ,
Tall? oi, don’t you get bored?,
Slim? Idiot!!!
Intelligent? Who is not? But this girl have too much brainpower!! I wish I can steal some from her!!
Her Smile? I just know how much she laughs! Can’t control once it starts. Unbelievable? Yeah I know what you mean 
Her hair? you want me to get killed? (PS: Kadalora Kavithaigal Teacher)
Her dairy? Best thing happened to her in life. Well may be second best thing, But I red it only once
Her Friendship? I wish I had her as friend, cousin and my first w....  oi oi  stop! stop! stop! well wisher from childhood and I wish I will have her as friend till eternity) (Are you feeling okay, I wrote as you said Sharmi?).
What will you gift her? Questioner, you are so boring that I am quiting now. The End.

My New Girlfriend!!!

April 14 2010

Oh Yes !!  I have a new girl friend …………………………
surprise …. 
surprise …..

Here she is …..
Samsung Corby 3G.

she comes to any where with me … sleeps with me ( sssh !! ) but the sweetest of all  that she does… she can sing, talk, and internet for hours !!!


April 13 2010


Case # 1 : When NASA began the launch of astronauts into space, they found out that the pens would not work at zero gravity (ink will not flow down to the writing surface).

Solution # 1 : To solve this problem, it took them one decade and $12 million. They developed a pen that worked at zero gravity, upside down, underwater, in practically any surface including crystal and in a temperature range from below freezing to over 300 degrees

Solution # 2 : And what did the Russians do…?? They used a pencil.

Case # 2 : One of the most memorable case studies on Japanese management was the case of the empty soapbox, which happened in one of Japan ’s biggest cosmetics companies. The company received a complaint that a consumer had bought a soapbox that was empty.

Immediately the authorities isolated the problem to the assembly Line, which transported all the packaged boxes of soap to the delivery department. For some reason, one soapbox went through the assembly line empty.

Management asked its engineers to solve the problem.

Solution # 1 : Post-haste, the engineers worked hard to devise an X-ray machine with high-resolution monitors manned by two people to watch all the soapboxes that passed through the line to make sure they were not empty. No doubt, they worked hard and they worked fast but they spent a whoopee amount to do so.

Solution # 2 : But when a rank-and-file employee in a small company was posed with the same problem, he did not get into complications of X-rays, etc., but instead came out with another solution.

He bought a strong industrial electric fan and pointed it at the assembly line. He switched the fan on, and as each soapbox passed the fan, it simply blew the empty boxes out of the line.

* Always look for simple solutions.
* Devise the simplest possible solution that solves the problems.
* Always focus on solutions & not on problems

Alone and Lonely

April 12 2010

Alone and Lonely
Sometimes asking stupid questions can introduce you to stupid answers.

I miss you...

April 10 2010

I can’t sleep. I just can’t breathe
When your shadow is all over me, baby
Don’t wanna be a fool in your eyes
Cause what we had was built on lies
And when our love seems to fade away
Listen to me hear what I say……

I don’t wanna feel
The way that I do
I just wanna be
Right here with you
I don’t wanna see
See us apart
I just wanna say it straight from my heart
I miss you

What would it take for you to see
To make you understand that I’ll
Always believe
You and I, can make it through
And I still know I can’t get over you
Cause when our love seems to fade away
Listen to me hear what I say

I don’t wanna feel
The way that I do
I just wanna be
Right here with you
I don’t wanna see
See us apart
I just wanna say it straight from my heart
Oh baby, I miss you, I do

Cause when our love always fades away
Listen to me hear what I say
I don’t wanna feel
The way that I do
I just wanna be
Right here with you
I don’t wanna see
See us apart
I just wanna say it straight from my heart
I miss you, I miss you, I do…….
                                               - westlife

Forget “Street View”, Here is “Google Store View”

April 9 2010

Yes, forget Google Street View for now.   Rumor has it, that they are working on “Google Store View”.  Google, Are you planning for “Google Home View” as well ?

News goes like this. Search Engine Land was told by NYC store Oh Nuts that it was visited by a Google rep who took picture inside every six feet in all directions. Products also were snapped.

Sounds interesting  .. isn’t it ? Soon we will be able to browse the grocery store in the next corner, sitting at home !  ( lol .. really ? ). Jokes apart, there will be many stores who would love to have their products featured in Google Store View project, thus adding another level of attracting customers …. we should wait and see if Google is planning to integrate any of their other services, like Google Checkout.

Google, Are you planning “Google Home View” ?

Well, if google answers positive .. would you let them take picture of your house … and put it on the internet ? Come on, tell me !

Get Email Update When a Wave is Updated

April 8 2010

Google Wave has a new feature called “Email Notification”. It’s pretty simple. When enabled, Google wave will send you an email whenever a wave is updated.

How to Enable

To enable, click on the the dropdown button on your inbox, select notifications. You will get options to set up notifications. You can select to receive updates “Immediately” “Hourly” or  ”Daily”.

I do not see an option to enter a different email address than my gmail ID. May be this feature is yet to be implemented. Let me know if anyone else here that option !

Instead of adding email notification, you can add Wave Notifier extension if you are using Google Chrome. Here is How to.

Enjoy !

The Word of 2010 – Unfriend

April 7 2010

Here is facebook  or of  social networking sites’ in general,  contribution to English language. “Unfriend“.   “Unfriend” has been named the word of the year by the New Oxford American Dictionary

Unfriend was defined as a verb that means to remove someone as a “friend” on a social networking site such as Facebook.

Some more interesting words

Here is a few more !

Hashtag = I bet you know this !

Intexticated = when people are distracted by texting while driving

Sexting = Sending of sexually explicit SMSes and pictures by cellphone.

and here is my favorite

Funemployed = People taking advantage of newly unemployed status to have fun or pursue other interests.

Topslip Trecking

April 6 2010

The above photos are taken from an area of where the forest is thick and dark. We can find small holes in the rocks along the path which was used to grind herbs. The area also has peculiar stones which looks like remains of some ancient life forms.
Once we were out of thick forest the steep climbs started and mist started arriving from nowhere. Four of us had visited the peak earlier and they started explaining about their earlier journey and how they crossed a dangerous stream which is just ahead of us.

Meme Se7en

April 5 2010

1. Now a days I hate to write “about me” type of descriptions.
2. White and Pink are my type of colours.
3. I don’t believe in idol worship.
4. I can have coffee, fries or ice water any time of the day.
5. I dislike strawberry ice cream, pastries, cream based cakes, etc.
6. I love Chettinad and European food.
7. I do not get angry easily.
8. I like to do things at my own pace and with  positive attitude.
9. I don’t believe in ghosts.
10. I hate thrillers and action movies.
11. Learning foreign languages is my hobby.
12. I enjoy observing people and their gestures.
13. I don’t make opinions on people and situations easily.
14. I enjoy multitasking.
15. I enjoy solitude, a book, piano, and a glass of vodka.
16. I love mountains more than sea.
17. I live two parallel lives simultaneously.( I am Gemini too)
18. I think I would make a good driving skills!
19. I find internet as a blessing.
20. I hate to get hot in sun.
21. When I come to nastiness, which is very occasional…, I can be very mean and hard hitting.
22. I would love to experiment with my hair color and wear colored glasses! Though I haven’t tried any of the two things. I am too scared to get my hair treated chemically.
23. I adore jeans trousers.
24. I have never been to a discotheque. Shame on me!
25. I like listening to Rahman songs.

As I said I believe in doing things at my own pace as long as it does not trouble anyone. I took my own sweet time to do this tag. Hope it didn’t trouble anyone.

A Keyboard Only for Gmail; No, this is not a joke !

April 4 2010

Seriously guys, this is not a joke. There is a new keyboard in the market, with 19 keys, only for gmail ! and it looks beautiful too !

Gmail Keyboard

This keyboard makes use of gmail keyboard shortcuts, and gives you dedicated keys for each functions that you do inside your gmail inbox.  Now it works like this, see the video.

Liked it ? buy it from gboard.com for $19.99

She said "It symbolize Love"

April 3 2010

One day Anipra and me (you know well a girl who grew to be very close to me.) were sitting at the edge of a river, she filled the palm of her hand with some water and held it before me, and said this: “You see this water carefully contained on my hand? It symbolizes Love.”

This was how I saw it: As long as you keep your hand caringly open and allow it to remain there, it will always be there. However, if you attempt to close your fingers round it and try to posses it, it will spill through the first cracks it finds.

This is the greatest mistake that people do when they meet love…they try to posses it, they demand, they expect… and just like the water spilling out of your hand, love will retrieve from you .

For love is meant to be free, you cannot change its nature. If there are people you love, allow them to be free beings.

Give and don’t expect.
Advise, but don’t order.
Ask, but never demand.

It might sound simple, but it is a lesson that may
take a lifetime to truly practice. (As I missed it)
It is the secret to true love. To truly practice it, you must

How Poor We Are...

April 2 2010

One day a father and his rich family took his son to a trip to the country
with the firm purpose to show him how poor people can be.
They spent a day and a night in the farm of a very poor family.
“Son, How was the trip?”, father asked after the trip.
“Very good Dad!”
“Did you see how poor people can be?” the father asked.
“Yeah!”, the son smiled.
“And what did you learn?”

The son answered,
“I saw that we have a dog at home,
and they have four……
We have a pool that reaches to the middle of the garden,
they have a creek that has no end…..
We have imported lamps in the garden,
they have the stars….
Our patio reaches to the front yard, they have a whole horizon.”
When the little boy was finishing, his father was speechless.
His son added, “Thanks Dad for showing me how poor we are!”

I need a new vision to see the world as he saw. Redefining the way I look around. The way I think. Is it about looking deep inside, wide around ? is it about looking in a different way.. I am not yet sure.. still, this is something to think about. When there was a sea near you, when you had all the sky and stars, you tried to build a small space of your own, yes you tried to take something, rather as much as you can from it but never tried to make yourself a part of it. When you are, you will feel so rich because now you are the sea, the sky and the stars. We look around for friends, think how can you become a good friend rather than thinking how to make a good friend

Still a lot of questions, answers thoughts pictures…….let me think, think and think

April Funs

April 1 2010

Today is fools day. So we should make people laugh without hurting them. To make you laugh some pictures here...

Its the toilet sign in china

Are You Free?....

April 1 2010

This monkey, is monkey, a monkey, good monkey, way monkey, to monkey, keep monkey, an monkey, idiot monkey, busy monkey, for monkey,20 monkey, seconds monkey !... Now read it without the word monkey.