My Problems and Every One's Answer

January 31 2010

“how do you expect to get better if you dont even TRY?“ – “friend”
“I hate life too and I don’t wanna wake up in the morning” – mother
“It’s your fault” – father
“I don’t know what to say” – many people
“lazy!” – “friend”
“do you go to temple?” – physician psychotherapist
“stop complaining”
“you’re so negative”
“there’s nothing even going on in your life!!!”
“go home and think about what can make you happy and come back in 2 weeks and tell me” – psychotherapist again..
“you need to eat better and exercise and you won’t be so tired” -“friend”
“eww you sleep so much” -“friend”
“I know how you feel…explains ther problems to make me think their life is worse so I should be happy
“you dont even have it THAT bad I don’t see why you’re depressed”
“pray and things will get better!!”- “dad”


What City Should You Live In?

January 30 2010

You should live in Las Vegas. Why see the eiffel tower when you can see the fake eiffel tower? You have ethics, but you're not afraid to abandon them to have a good time. Gaudy Las Vegas may be just the city to satisfy your party itch.


January 30 2010

From my Mum who prefers everyone else on the planet to me…

• You should think of others first and do things for them, that way you’ll stop thinking about yourself

• There are many people out there less fortunate than you

• You’re far too sensitive

• You need to change your attitude & stop being so negative

• Stop taking those pills – they won’t solve anything

• You should get out more & get a job (I work from home & earn a good living!)

A blind date...

January 29 2010

Had reports about her from my Cousins.

Highly recommended… they said.

A date was set up.

A blind date.

She came, she saw, she conquered… ME.

One meeting…

What SHE said I don’t remember.

What I said I don’t remember.

I just remember how it felt.

Having her ring on my finger.

P.S. – This is called ‘Arranged Marriage’ in India.

The Secret to Life

January 29 2010

• You get to fill the blackboard of your life with whatever you want.

• The only thing you need to do is feel good now.

• The more you use the power within you, the more power you will draw through you.

• Do what you love. If you don’t know what brings you joy, ask, “What is my joy?” As you commit to your joy, you will attract an avalanche of joyful things because you are radiating joy.

• Now that you have learned the knowledge of The Secret, what you do with it is up to you. Whatever you choose is right. The power is all yours.

Who would you be if you knew you could be anyone..?

January 28 2010

I would like to be myself…. Not joking… Not the one who people of the world see. Who is all tied up with social & moral thoughts. But the real me….

One who wants to live….

I would wander through unknown cities…. Alone…. See what nature & man have created together…

I would let my mind to be free to think what come may….. & not worry what if anyone comes to know of it…

I would spend my days at a local garden with a nice book in hand..

I would roam all evenings at the beach…. Till the moon shines right on the top…..

I would spend long cozy mornings in my bed…..

I would have a walking friend right besides me when I go for a walk…

I would have dessert before the dinner….

I would scuba dive and snorkel …

I would climb a few small hills just for a hike…

I would have a tattoo or two…

I would help a small child with her life. Maybe adopt one so when I finish my life I have a sense of achieving something…..

I would fall in love with her again…

I would write for my satisfaction….

Yes, I surely would like to be myself……

Who would you like to be…?

Happy Birthday Brother...

January 28 2010

Ooh, hello psychology!

January 27 2010

I start psychology today.

It should be interesting, and hopefully helpful! I’ll see how it goes, but for now, I need to get ready!


January 27 2010

I must be becoming mature, it seems. I appear to be getting along with my family, and actually trying to do so. I want to do things with them. What is happening to me?!

I must be getting old…

What I Do Wrong?

January 26 2010

Why do i feel so empty and missing something,
When i’ve got so much, much to be grateful for?
Still it’s not enough.
Is it ever enough?
Is this it?
As good as it gets?
Is it worth the constant shuffle - in search of
Possession? Love? Belonging?

I look at other people and envy what they’ve got
Wonder why i haven’t
How i’m different, what i do wrong.
They've got a relationship i’ve never achieved.
Is it because i don’t want it,
Don’t  require it
Don’t need it
Have enough already?
But i want it.

I feel worthless compared to my friends who have it.
Direction less
And pointless.

In theory.
Not all the time. There are other things to measure worth.
I’m good, helpful, passionate, concerned, but that one special person doesn’t see it.
I don’t know who that person is,
Maybe they’re already here and i won’t notice
Until i see the grass isn't greener.
I wish i could be content with what i’ve got.
I’m happy but i’m always searching for more.
But that might be what keeps me alive.

It’s disheartening and makes me bitterer by the day.
It concerns me more at the beginning of a morning,
Probably because i have a chance to make a change.
Friends have advice, reasoning, explainations,
There isn’t one answer but many,
I don’t know what my answer is.
I take my decisions from the advice of others,
Too much perhaps.

I’m a sponge.
But not a weak push-over sponge.
By the end of the day i no longer care,
I relax, it’s been a write off day, but a good one,
I've had fun, i’ve grown tired and dreams welcome me back to bed.
Obligations here, jobs to do there, “drive me home please”,
All day all day every day,
i suppose that’s life
I’m needing something that’s mine though,
To bring pleasure and purpose.
A building, a person, a place,
I’m not sure.
A sign or a path to show me which way,
But no such luck.
So it seems it’s all down to me.


How come life appears to happen to others and i have to make life work for me?
People will tell me that’s not true.
But then that means i’m wrong, not right,


A bad egg,
An unattractive egg,
For pounding purposes only.
Don’t think i think little of myself.
I've been told that by older, wiser people all my life
And it makes it worse, perpetuates the feeling,
It’s bollocks.
I like me,
It’s other people that aren't that amazed.
It could be argued that i shouldn't need all this acceptance,
Desire from other people,
Blame my programming.

Happy Republic Day

January 26 2010

The Republic Day of India commemorates the date on which the Constitution of India came into force replacing the Government of India Act 1935 as the governing document of India on January 26, 1950.[1] The date 26 January was chosen to honour the memory of the declaration of independence of 1930. It is one of the three national holidays in India, and while the main parade, Republic Day Parade takes place at the Rajpath, in the national capital New Delhi, where the President views the parade, state capitals also have their state celebrations.

101 Amazing Earth Facts

January 25 2010

I often think of the universe in general as incredibly fascinating for what we still do not know of it more so than what we do.

Still, every once in a while I am reminded that for all the wonderful mysteries that exist in outer space, the revelations we have accumulated as a species about this portable habitat we call Earth can still be peculiar and amazing.

I stumbled upon a article titled 101 Amazing Earth Facts whilst investigating Fermi’s Paradox and decided to temporarily redirect my focus from the possibility of alien life to amazing discoveries of Earth.

Only some of the facts from the list appeal to me and so I have created a list below with facts from that article and here, in my own words, and with additional information where I see fit.

What is the age of planet Earth?
The Earth is over 4.5 billion years old, determined by a process called radiometric dating which measures the decay of long half-life isotopes. It formed just 10 million years after the birth of our sun.

Is Earth the largest rocky planet in the solar system?
Yes, with a diameter at the equator of 12,756 km (7,926 m) marginally beating Venus which is 12,104 km (7,521 m) wide.

How much surface area does Earth contain?
510,100,000 square kilometers (196,950,711 square miles).

Has the moon always been so close?
No. A billion years ago, it took the Moon 20 days (29.5 days at the moment) to orbit us making one lunar month. One day was 18 hours long. The moon continues to move farther into space at 4 centimeters (1.6 inches) a year. At the same time, the Earth’s rotation is slowing down and in the distant future, one day will be 960 hours long.

What is the hottest place on Earth?
El Azizia in Libya with the highest recorded temperature of 57.8 °C (136 °F) on September 13, 1922. Runner up is Death Valley in California (USA) with 56.6 °C (134 °F) on July 10th, 1913.

What is the coldest place on Earth?
Vostok, Antarctica with the lowest recorded temperature of -89C °C (-129 °F) on July 21st, 1983.

What is the driest place on Earth?
Africa, Chile with 0.76 millimeters (0.03 inches) of rain a year. It would take a century to fill a coffee cup.

What is the wettest place on Earth?
Lloro, Colombia averaging more than 13 meters (40 feet) of rainfall a year.

On average, how much water is used worldwide each day?
400 billion gallons.

How fast can mud flow?
At speeds in excess of 160 kph (100 mph).

What makes thunder?
Thunder is an acoustic shockwave produced when the air around a lightning bolt heats with an expansion rate exceeding the speed of sound and that results in a sonic boom (thunder). The air around that lightning bolt heats up to up to 30,000 °C (54,032 °F) which is relatively 5 times the temperature of the sun’s surface.

On average, how many lightning strikes occur worldwide every second?
100 that hit the ground. Most go from cloud to cloud. Of the latter, there are are than 1,000 thunderstorms a minute generating 6,000 flashes of lightning.

What is the highest, driest, and coldest continent on Earth?

What is the origin of the word Volcano?
From Vulcan, the Roman God of fire.

How many people worldwide are at risk of volcanoes?
500 million people as of the year 2000–the equivalent of the number of people inhabiting the Earth at the beginning of the 17th century.

What volcano killed the most people?
Tambora in Indonesia. Estimated to have killed 90,000 people in 1815, most of which did not perish from the actual eruption but from the starvation, water contamination and diseases that followed.

How many of Earth’s volcanoes are known to have erupted in historic times?
540 on land. The amount of eruptions of undersea volcanoes is unknown.

What three countries have the countries have the greatest number of historically active volcanoes?
In descending order of activity: Indonesia, Japan and the USA.

Where was the deadliest known Earthquake?
It occurred in central China in 1557 taking 830,000 lives. The number is so high because the affected area consisted of people living in soft rock caves.

Where do most earthquakes occur?
At depths less than 80 km (50 miles) below the Earth’s surface.

Where do some of the deepest earthquakes occur?
As deep as 644 km (400 miles) below the surface where two tectonic plates move toward one another and one slides (subducts) underneath and into the Earth’s mantle.

How many minerals are known to exist?
Minerals are crystalline inorganic compounds that form through geological processes. Although some have existed for billions of years, they do not last forever. They are created from bubbling lava, sediment-laden seawater, or chemical reactions deep in the Earth’s interior. There are about 4,000 known minerals with only 200 of major importance. Each year, 50-100 new minerals are discovered in different parts of the world.

Can rocks grow?
Types of rocks called iron-manganese crusts are essentially mineral deposits that occur over large areas of sea floor. The minerals crystallize out of ambient sea water and grow up to 10 millimeters per million years. (Note: The Article claims 1 millimeter).

Is ice a mineral?
Yes. In its frozen state, water has crystals and all the physical properties of a mineral.

What is the softest of all minerals?
Talc-commonly used for making talcum powder.

What is the hardest of all minerals?
A diamond.

How are colours produced in fireworks?
From different coloured minerals–strontium for deep red, copper for blue, sodium for yellow, and iron fillings and charcoal pieces for gold sparks. Aluminum powder produces the bright flashes and loud bangs.

How much gold has been discovered worldwide to date?
More than 425 million pounds (193,000 metric tons). Stacked together it would make a cube shaped seven story structure.

What are the two major gold-producing countries?
South Africa producing 5,300 metric tons a year and the USA with more than 3,200 metric tons.

Where are the oldest rocks on Earth found: on land or on the ocean floor?
On land – 4, 500 million years old. Rocks on the ocean floor are continually generated by the movement of the continental plates across the Earth’s surface making them at most less than 300 million years old.

Which of the Earth’s oceans is the largest?
The Pacific Ocean covering 165 million square kilometers (64 million square miles).

What is the deepest place in the ocean?
The Mariana Trench in the Pacific Ocean, South of Japan and near Mariana Islands at a known depth of 11 kilometers (6.9 miles).

What is the largest lake in the world?
The Caspian Sea–by size and volume located between southeast Europe and west Asia.

What is the world’s deepest lake?
Lake Baikal in the south central part of Siberia at 1.7 kilometers (5,712 feet) in depth. It is nearly 20 million years old and contains 20% of the Earth’s fresh liquid water supply.

Are all tsunamis high waves when they strike the coastline?
No. Most tsunamis reach the shore like very strong and fast tides.

Is California, USA sinking?
Yes. Up to 11 centimeters (4 inches a year) in places. At some point, water and sewage systems may be at risk.

How much of the Earth’s land surface is desert?
About one third.

What is the world’s largest desert?
The Sahara Desert in Northern Africa–more than 23 times the size of California’s Mojave Desert.

What is the fastest surface wind ever recorded?
372 kilometers per hour (231 miles per hour) at Mount Washington New Hampshire on April 12th, 1934. A tornado in Oklahoma in May of 1999 measured at 513 kilometers per hour (318 miles per hour). Neptune’s winds on the other hand can reach 1,448 kph (900 mph).

What is the world’s largest Island?
Greenland at 2,176,000 square kilometers (840,000 square miles). It is one third the size of Australia. Why Greenland an island and Australia a continent? The four characteristics of a continent are: tectonic independence from other continents, unique flora and fauna, unique cultures and local opinion about the subject. Greenland has neither of the first three and on the last issue, local opinion is that it is an island.

Are rivers alive?
Not exactly. They have lifespans and like most living creatures, are born, grow, age and even die in the span of geological time.

About how much would the seas rise if the Atlantic Ice Sheet melted?
The Atlantic Sheet holds nearly 90% of the Earth’s ice and 70% of its fresh water. If it all melted, sea levels would rise nearly the height of a 20 story building. The United Nations estimates that in the worst case scenario, global warming can cause the seas to rise 1 meter (3 feet) by 2100.

What is the Earth’s only equatorial glacier?
Mt. Cotopaxi in Ecuador.

What North American plant can live for thousands of years?
The creosote bush which grows in the Mojave, Sonoran, Chihuahuan deserts. Some of them may endure 10,000 years.

Have there always been continents?
No. About 1.2 billion years ago, fragments of continental crust pushed together by tectonic motion, began to create a supercontinent called Rodinia. Rodinia existed for 350 million years until the Earth’s internal heat began to increase beneath it causing the crust to dome, stretch, weaken and rupture along a line now running north to south. Water began to fill the rift causing an explosion of life. Then came Gondwana and later Pangaea–which began to break up around 250 million years ago and eventually fragmenting into the continents of today.

Will Earth always be here?
No. In a few billion years the sun will swell enough to absorb the Earth. However, one mathetical calculation shows that it may be theoretically possible to move the Earth to a more distant orbit–approximately by 50%.

Lost in English…

January 25 2010

I have seen an episode of Lost the famous tv series, in English. I have seen already all the first series in English as a language exercise. I thought I was able to understand almost all the dialog this time, but I wasn’t. Sometime I can forget that that sound is a meaningfull word. It sound to me just a sound, not a unknown word. I have got the story obviously … ( also because I can find a transcription on the internet  ) but I get frustrated. Do I never understand English ? I have to confess that I have stopped my english study. I have to do something else and it’s not easy. I feel a bit useless… what can I do ? a lots… and nothing. I can’t speak English

No, I don’t give up.
I will find a new way.
I will understand Lost in English.


January 24 2010

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The Obama Quiz

January 24 2010

 I scored an ‘orrible 4/10!

Dear Sleep,

January 24 2010

I miss you. I miss the way I fell instantly and deeply under your reality losing charm into refreshing, reality-losing slumber. Your beauty is something I miss.

Please, please come back to me, my love.

With all my love, Prabhu.
So, I’m having sleeping problems. Can’t sleep, will sleep. Whatever it is, something is denying me of my slumber. I would try and find out what, but ironically, I’m too tired. What shall I do now, I wonder?

10 Yay! Things During Work In My Office

January 24 2010

10. Reaching work 10 minutes early with a sweet parking spot. Enough time to pick up my laundry if I need to do that… Yay!

9. Dad has not arrived at work because he’s meeting a person and is only due back at the office after lunch… Yay!

8. Surly competitor who is next to my showroom is on leave and I get the whole business to myself… Yay!

7. Reading all the sections of the magazines in a leisurely manner because dad is not in… Yay!

6. Going on Facebook the whole morning without feeling guilty… Yay!

5. Have a small task to do and have completed it before dad returns so I get to pretend I actually worked while he was away… Yay!

4. Lunchtime comes early because dad left for lunch early so I get the whole office to myself while I eat my lunch packed from non vegetarian hotel… Yay!

3. Taking a power nap after lunch because it’s very nice to rest a bit in a dark, quiet office… Yay!

2. Dad hasn’t reached office yet after lunch and power nap gets extended… Yay!

1. I wake up and realise it’s a dream… it’s Sunday morning and I don’t have to work for the rest of the afternoon of that dream. YAY!

Bagging This Tag

January 24 2010

(Actually, I have nothing to blog about at the moment. Feeling blue.)

1. What have you realised recently?
You don’t just stop liking a person just because you decide to.

2. Have you given your first kiss away?
Yes, to this girl called… I was 18, and I didn’t regret it. Seeing as I have not kissed another girl after
her. I’m past my expiry date I think.

3. If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 11 blog buddies you would take?
Why 11?? Whoever volunteers can come.

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
I don’t really have a specific dream to fulfill. At this point, though, I am strangely pseudo-obsessed with getting my anipra.

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
I don’t believe it, I’ve seen one after one.

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
I've lost a friend I was afraid to lose, so there’s nothing left to be afraid anymore.

8. If you win 1 million, what would you do?
Invest it so it can grow and I don’t have to work and do as I please.

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
I already did.

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
Crazy, err… crazy.

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
No secrets. (So if she really does have one, she simply has to pretend she doesn’t have one. But if I find out… *cracks knuckles* )

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
Hypocrites and people who always think they’re right, refusing to see the other side.

13. What is the one thing you cannot live without?

14. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
A bit of both. If they tell me, I rather they do it in a constructive, polite manner.

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?

16. Are you a shopaholic or not?
Yes. Unfortunately, do not have the money to match my appetite.

17. Find a word to describe the person who tagged you.

18. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?
Laziness. I could have accomplished more if I weren’t so lazy.

19. Whats the last shocking thing you’ve seen or heard?
My september 15 incident. It shocked me because i was charged for crime which i didn't.

20. Would you rather have love but no money or money but no love?
At this point, the former. But I also believe if you don’t have money, it’s hard to sustain love.

Fix it

January 23 2010

I decided early in my new home that I needed to do something about my moods. It quickly came down to a choice between seeing again a psychiatrist or buying a iPod. Since almost everyone I knew was seeing a psychiatrist, and since I had an absolute belief that I should handle my own problems, I naturally bought a iPod and also because I really don't have a drug problem - I think I have a life problem . . . But I'm on strike from life . . . Fix it. That's what I wish someone would do. Fix life and I will live again


January 23 2010

Never intelligent enough.
Never strong enough.
Never helpful enough.
Never industrious enough.
Never obedient enough.
Never thoughtful enough.

It is all never good enough.

Meme Two

January 23 2010

Do you like the look and content of your blog?
Silly question. If don’t like it, would be changing it to one that like. So of course like the look!
But content-wise, do wish could write better and on more thoughtful topics.

Does your family know about your blog?
A big fat NO. The whole point of this blog is to rant or rave (in a good sense) about them in private, with no repercussions (that is, should the blog remain unknown to them).

Can you tell your friends about your blog?
YES. The whole other point of this blog is not to rant or rave about them in private with no repercussions whatsoever. So far, so good.

Do you just read the blogs of those who comment on your blog?
Make it a point to read blogs by self’s commenters, though sometimes am not intrinsically interested in the content. Do try to reciprocate comments-wise too. But also read other blogs, like blogs whose bloggers do not reply to my comments, but only if they’re really entertaining.

Does your blog positively affect your mind?
DUH. Nobody blogs if it affects them negatively. That’s why we have all these poor blorphans (blog orphans).

What does the number of visitors to your blog mean?
That have a regular set of readers who are actually interested in what have to say, amazingly!

Do you imagine what other bloggers look like?
Of course. Those who do not slap their pictures or are not natural camwhores really fire (my)  imagination. Mostly imagine them to be really good-looking because their blogging’s good.

Do you think blogging has any real benefits?
LIKE DUH!!! Release stress, provide friends, keeps company… it can save the most suicidal of people if they release themselves to the power of blogging.

Do you think that the blogosphere is a stand alone community separated from the real world?
To an extent, yes. It is where a lot of real things are being written, told and shown but yet it is unreal because we’re so far away and disconnected to such things.

Do some political blogs scare you? Do you avoid them?
Yes, yes.

Do you think criticizing your blog is useful?
In a constructive manner, yes. May not take to it immediately, but might improve myself as go on blogging through time.

Have you ever thought what would happen to your blog if you died?
Oh God, there really is no one in life who has the capacity and discipline to update blog. Oh well, if don’t update it for more than a month, you’ll know am dead. For real.

Which blogger has had the greatest impression on you?
None. Do not have a particularly blogger that look up to as a role model.

Which blogger do you think is the most similar to you?
No brainer, it’s Pooja. She’s the same age, she’s studying English, she likes reading, she takes pride in ranting, she writes about good things. 

Name a song you want to listen to.
So irrelevant! Umm, AR Rahman’s Hosanna from Vinnai thandi varuvayaa. Hehe, perfect opportunity to plug one of India’s best musician.

Please link back if you do this, thanks!

What Famous Leader Are You?

January 23 2010


January 22 2010

How can a computer-generated quiz read you like a book?

January 22 2010

You're The Mists of Avalon!
You're obsessed with Camelot in all its forms, from Arthurian legend to the Kennedy administration. Your favorite movie from childhood was "The Sword in the Stone". But more than tales of wizardry and Cuban missiles, you've focused on women. You know that they truly hold all the power. You always wished you could meet Jackie Kennedy.
Take the Book Quiz at the Blue Pyramid.

A - Z Questions

January 21 2010

26 questions; answer them on your blog.

1. A- Age: 29.
2. B – Butter or Jam on your bread? butter.
3. C – Career in future: Some dreary business job.
4. D – Drink or smoke: Neither.
5. E – Easiest person/s to talk to: Vicky.
6. F – Favorite song/s at the moment: Mannipaya & Hosanna from Vinnai Thandi Varuvayaa.
7. G – Gummy Bears or Gummy Worms: Both.
8. H – Have you ever had a girlfriend/boyfriend? Once upon a time.
9. I – Instruments: Like the veenai, play the piano (horribly).
10. J – Jogging daily? No.
11. K – Kids: Love ‘em, but won’t have ‘em (probably).
12. L – Longest ride ever: Can’t remember.
13. M -Favorite Sport: Football.
14. N – Number of siblings: No.
15. O – Oreos, Chipsmore or Dairy milk: Dairy milk hands down. Oreos next, but just the biscuits; cream is awful stuff.
16. P – Phobias: Alto phobia.
17. Q – Favourite Quote: What doesn’t kill you only makes you stronger.
18. R – Reason to smile: When someone cracks a joke.
19. S – Song you last sang: Who bloody remembers this kinds of things?
20. T – The person you respect the most? Mr Seetha Ram, my tuition teacher in secondary school.
21. U – Unknown fact about you: Daydream. A lot. Of fantastical things. If told you. You’d just laugh. So am not going to tell.
22. V – Vegetable/fruit you hate: PAPAYA! With a vengeance.
23. W – Worst habit: Procrastination.
24. X – X-factor, do you have it? Nope
25. Y – Yummy food/s: Chicken & pongal.
26. Z – Zodiac sign: Gemini.