E..'' C''''... H''''....ooooooo.....

June 30 2010

This isn’t my best but I just wrote it. Please tell me if you like it.

Hi!….​​​​​​​​​​​ Hi!
Hello?…​​​​​​​​​​​ Hello?
Is ANYONE here?… ​​​​​​​ * Is ANYONE here?
I’m here ​​​​​​​​​ .* * * * * I’m here
Why are you yelling me? ​​​​​ ….* *Why are you yelling me?
Stop it!…../ Stop it!
This hurts my head!……. This hurts my head!
Because……. ​​​​​​​​​ * *Because
You are not  me……. ​​​​​​​​​ * * *You are not  me
And I am not yo…….. ​​​​​​​​​ * And I am not you
In my mind​​​​​​​​​ * *….. * In my mind
An echo. …….. An echo

Its only ME,
In a mirrored room.
Alone,
Without a care.
Why all are prattle joyously,*I n f i n i t u m.
Smiling,
Laughing,
Pretending to be fine,
Alone,
With
My
Echoing mind
My
E..'' C''''... H''''....ooooooo.....

My last letter to Anitha...

June 29 2010

People like me can't express our emotions in words. But we can write them easily I can fill thousands of pages, millions of times with... I love you Anitha.' But now not once could I say it to you. Perhaps that's why you left me alone. Many things frighten me, Anitha. But nothing frightens me more than the thought of losing you. I was scared then... and I'm scared now..I missed you Anitha. I know I can't reach you or I can't get you in my whole life. My mom would say that there are two kinds of people in this world good people who do good deeds...bad people they do bad. that's the only difference in human beings and there's  no other difference.  But I thought one day I would achieve my love and humanity to all. But I failed. In chapter five, verse 36 of the Quran, Allah has decreed that... the wound of one innocent heart is equal to the death of humanity. How can I threw my anger and grief?. I knew you and your family hurt me and left me alone...you made me zero. Because of this I had to start my life from the beginning. But I did not know that I would have to pay the biggest price, Anitha. Why did this happen to me Anitha? why? Yup! what ever happens I ll keep this love with me... for me... for you... for ever! Anitha come back to me. come back to me, love. come back to me. Please come back. Don't leave me. Don't leave me, please. Come back to me please. Please come back, please....Anitha don't leave me......       

I've lived my life incorrectly

June 28 2010

After Anipra gone from my life addiction kicked in soon after. I was laid up at home by myself and I didn’t know what to do. I was so lost.. and I just wanted to visit her and I asked for an appointment. she refused me. I tried to tell her everything, but once I told her about my problems she told me to ask her father. Then I told her "I am dead and I'm no more in your life".  Till now I never met her.

“I don’t help criminals.”
"I didn't kill anyone."
"I didn't rob anyone."
"I didn't steal.."

It’s been five days. everyone I've asked for help has turned their backs on me. Humans are so selfish. Everything they do is for self-gain. They don’t help others because they just want to save time. Or they want to help others just because it makes them feel good about themselves.

That night, I finally realized what it was like to be pushed beyond the edge. the hopelessness, the loneliness, the disregard for health and life itself, the apathy for anything and everything.

I realized that I don’t need to cry for help anymore since no one is going to come. I've lived my life incorrectly, but I'm no longer going to sit around and cry about it. This life will not have been for naught.

Instead, I ll never be selfish, untrustworthy, and evil. I'm going to use what I've learned in my life.

If I am not reborn, it will be even better. I’ll never have to see anyone ever again.

goodbye.

I go where it takes me....

June 27 2010

A little street that don't walk the same
A coffee shop that used to call my name
A rusty old swing set
In the park where we first met

Seems everything is falling down
Don't look the same since she left town
I can't take seeing old mistakes
One more day

I'm packin' up
I'm pullin' out
I'm gonna grab what's left of my heart
Go where it takes me

I'm cuttin' loose
I gotta move
'Cause this ain't my town no more
Since Anitha got married

We planned a house up on that hill
I had a job waiting at the mill
Someday a yard full of children
That's all we talked about, but then


One day she just started to cry
Said she was sorry, then she said goodbye
I guess it's time I let go
What's already gone

Packin' up
I'm pullin' out
I'm gonna grab what's left of my heart
Go where it takes me

I'm cuttin' loose
I gotta move
'Cause this ain't my town no more
Since Anitha got married

Everywhere I look, I still see her
I can't take it no more

I'm packin' up
I'm pullin' out
I'm gonna grab what's left of my heart
Go where it takes me

I'm cuttin' loose
I've gotta move
'Cause this ain't my town no more
Since Anitha got married
Since Anitha got married


This song was composed by dunae steele in 1996. I think its really suits me. My friend sruthi send me this song.

Downhill

June 26 2010

I really don’t know what to do anymore. My life is going downhill. My beliefs are turning against me. It feels like nobody wants me here, so if I ended my life, everyone would be happier. I don't know what to write. I think I am ranting so I ll stop here.

Unknown letter

June 25 2010

Dear Prabhu:

I would listen to the kindly, considerate part of yourself that does not want to commit suicide because it would upset the people around you. It has a life-giving message for you.

If you are here on this earth, it is likely that you are here to carry out some task or purpose. Consider giving yourself some time to discover what it is.

It is very natural for 30's something you people to feel unhappy because they feel that they are not going anywhere, have no “place” in the world and to start feeling like they “don’t belong here.”

They are (quite naturally) impatient to learn what it is that they are supposed to be doing, and sometimes feel blank or empty or sad or lonely because their life purpose has not become clear yet.

But one’s life purpose is not always revealed quickly to a person.

Only a few people recognize their life purpose in their 30s.

Since you are at the middle of your life, you still have a few years to discover why you are here. As you gradually discover what you are here to do, you will take classes, join groups, meet new friends, etc., who will share your interests and outlook.

Then you will feel less lonely.

With regard to the suicidal thoughts prabhu consider getting a counselor or therapist, and possibly getting some anti-depressant medication if they recommend it.

Your sadness is understandable, but it is getting too intense and disrupting your life. It is likely becoming a serious depression. A counselor or therapist can help you deal with the negative thoughts, and work with you to get on a more positive path, so your life will be less painful and have more joy.

Cordially,
Fighting to Survive (been there)

Idk

June 24 2010

Okay well I know I’m not too young but i constantly have this thought I shouldnt be here anymore. I try to be happy, I try to be myself but deep down I just feel like being alone and crying inside. I have no idea what I want anymore. I see myself going nowhere In life. Ive thought about killing myself and everytime I try to I cant bring myself to do it because I think of how other people would feel. I don't know I’m just ranting, I’m sorry.

Anitha got Married

June 23 2010

The pain is immense, I can’t go on I scream at GOD and ask why? But there is no answer. I can’t go on living, feeling what I feel. The torment is eating me alive, I am dying inside, just as I found hope, She was snatched away from me. At the same time writing this I can no longer envision a future, I no longer have hope, everything has been taken from me. From my fiancée, to my home and my life has reached an impasse.  It’s a make or break time and I feel completely broken. I’m staring into an depth and this time there is no light at the end.


 I am both physically and mentally traumatized. As a loved person I lost my Anitha…This day I am shut off from the world, I didn’t; no couldn’t speak with anyone because I didn’t understand why the accident happened, I tried to find some kind of justification but couldn't. I stopped interacting with people as it was the only way I could survive. I went into shock, I couldn’t communicate and the world had become a dark and lonely place. I wasn’t prepared for this farewell of a person I loved.

Goodbye Anitha & i miss you more than anything in the world...   

Darkness

June 22 2010

I have been struggling with my inner demons and haunted by the ghosts of my past for most of my life, and I simply don’t know how much more I can possibly take. I’m just not strong enough to keep fighting off the inner darkness that much longer, sometime sooner or later it’s going to engulf me… and I won’t survive.

How bad I feel...

June 21 2010

It feels weird to be sitting here writing this on some random blog on the internet when I've never told a single person in my life how I really feel…guess that’s the thing about the internet you don’t really have to fear what you write…but anyway guess here it goes…

A couple of years ago my girlfriend broke up with me, yes I know your thinking this how all suicide stories start, but to be honest this started even before then…I just get no real pleasure out of my life.

So here I am again contemplating what has steadily become more and more of a real solution…the idea of not having to keep each day up honestly feeling so down and dragging myself through each hour until finally going back to bed and barely sleeping seems pretty great…

My family have been good to me…my dad and I have never been close and my mum is termagant( she never accept mistakes)  but they’re good people…my friends have been there for me too I guess but I could never tell any of them just how bad I feel…

I guess that is about it really…I dunno where I am with suicide now but really the notion of living for another 20…maybe 30 years is an awful idea to me…maybe some people just aren’t meant for this life…it’s never felt right to me.

Kill me:(

June 20 2010

I had thought of many reasons of not living. Unfortunately, i forgot most of them.  It seems i think of stuff, then i forget about them.  I think suicide is a very reasonable course of action to take for people like me.  I have no friends and I am not concerned with my well being family.

 I am not someone who is looking for a cure for my loneliness.  I am not looking for love or happiness.  I just want to die.  There is no one out there for me.  Even if i met someone, I would destroy their lives.  I am a disease on humanity.  I deserve to be killed.

I used to think that i only needed 3 things in my life, a loving wife, a good job and I keep my parents,surroundings happy. Now i work 12 hours a day, come home sleep till morning, and do it all over again.  When i sleep im not thinking, or a coma wouldnt be so bad either, i could use one of those, stop these horrible memories.

Its very disturbing to know, I wasnt born to live in this manner.  Kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me. 

Lazy days!

June 19 2010

Ever have one of those really really really lazy days? Where you just want to stay home and relax and lounge around? That's what I want to do today

Meme Ei8hteen

June 18 2010

The Oh My! Meme, Part One

1. The phone rings; who don't you want it to be?
Anybody from Pollachi

2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
Yes!

3. In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener?
2nd !!

4. What was the last compliment that someone gave you?
You are a f***ing crap!

5. Do you play the lottery?
Nope

6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness, who would you want with you?
Anipra

7. Do you like to ride horses?
Yes

8. Did you ever go to camp as a kid?
Nope

9. What is your favorite party game?
Nothing!. Get fully drunken and kinky...

10. If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was married, would you go for it?
Reject

11. When was the last time that you lied?
Oops!! an hour before...

12. Could you date someone with different religious beliefs than you?
Sure

13. If you have a S/O, who pursued who? If not, do you like to pursue or be pursued?
Pass

14. Use six words to describe yourself.
No more no less than you 

15. Name a song that could make you cry?
Ore kana from guru

16. Are you pleased with your education?
Nope

17. How do you feel about gun control?
Good

18. If your house was on fire, what thing would be the first thing you grabbed?
My computer

19. How often do you have a romantic weekend?
Never after Anipra

20. Do you think more about the past, present or future?
Yes a lot

21. What was the last adult magazine that you have read?
Play boy

22. What are you told about your eyes?
Attractive

23. How tall is just right?
As I am

24. Where is your dream house located?
Pollachi

25. Do you have a secret fetish?
Many

26. Have you tried bourbon? If yes, what type?
No but I am mad of vodka

27. When was the last time you were at Marry brown?
Once in a month

28. When was the last time you were at Temple?
March 2

29. Where was the furthest place you traveled today?
To hall

30. What was your favorite job?
Hardware engineer

Proactive in my life

June 17 2010

I've decided to be proactive in my life from this birthday. To go out and do stuff and explore new ideas and places and muses. I need to get out and see the world, coffee shop, park, town, city, and state etc etc. I’ve spent so much of my life twiddling my thumbs and waiting on other people to get their shit together, that I've never gone ahead and lived my life.

- Start my business
- Start a fresh blog for Google Valet
- Enter into My Space Contest by July 25th
- Get published
- Find Clients for Google Valet
- Work hard for it
- Have atleast 100 clients 
- Road trip this summer
- Visit Samu perima in Chennai
- Get married at least this year
- Drink and Party
- Buy a Piano
- Learn to play it
- Learn how to live on completely vegetarian diet
- Not hurt Dad, Mum and Any one

Keep going...

June 16 2010


Few months ago, someone told me that, before the morning breaks, there will be stormy nights.. before breakthrough, there will be breakdowns.. and that’s what I will be going through this year.

This week has been very mentally, emotionally trialing for me in one area of my life… there were many stormy and sleepless nights…

I  guess that’s what I get for asking from the universe when I set one of my 2010 life goals on this particular area… this is my journey… my breakdowns… my breakthroughs… till the sun rises.

Its my birthday!

June 15 2010

Woo Hoo! It’s my birthday today and I am too tired to write any more…
Instead I am posting a clip created by my brother Guru...
video

This was annoying in my head.

June 13 2010

Do you ever have one of those days when things are just GOOD and RIGHT and you feel accomplished?

(No? Then you should probably stop reading because I'm about to get really f***ing annoying.)

I'm not usually that person, I'm definitely not that cheerful man who always looks on the bright side and never thinks inappropriately mean thoughts about people who annoy him and wakes up singing along with the goddamn birds and would rather die than swear.

And I never will be, in case you are holding your breath.

(None of you are, right? Please don't. I don't know CPR.)

(I could probably figure it out, though. I mean, it can't be THAT hard. And I'm smart.)

(Apparently, I AM the man who is flippantly casual about life saving techniques and their importance. But that's beside the point.)

But today, I set some goals for myself and I met them.

(WITHOUT CAFFEINE. I'd like to stress that.)

I don't think I lack confidence, or even follow-through, but sometimes I think I DO suffer from the raging narcissism that I am occasionally accused of, and so it's always a good feeling to actually accomplish something that you KNEW you could do but just hadn't tried.

There are things I know that I will never do; things that I cannot be. But there are LOADS of things that I probably could do that I've just never had the courage to try. But I'm up for the challenge. Life is short. And I have a lot to do.

I wish I could sum up this post on the same profound note that I ended my last one, but that would just be too many deep thoughts in a row for this man, so instead I'm going to have to keep it simple and go with a little Ice Cube:

Today was a good day.

Meme Se7enteen

June 12 2010

First Job: Hardware engineer

First Real Job: Aircel

First Favorite Politician: P.Chidambaram

First Car: Fiat

First Record/CD: Alaipauthey

First Sport Played: Cricket

First Concert: AR Rahman's Vanakam Chennai

First Foreign Country Visited: Nope

First Favorite TV Show: Malkudi days

First Favorite Actor: Rajinikanth

First Favorite Actress: Amala

First Girlfriend/Boyfriend: Deepa / Gejo

First Encounter with a Famous Person: Rajinikanth

First Brush With Death: while riding my bike

First House/Condo Owned: 33 Marapattei St, Pollachi.

First Film Seen: Billa

First Favorite Recording Artist: AR.Rahman

First Favorite Radio Station: Radio Mirchi

Meme 6ixteen

Fill in your favorite for each of the following:

1. Political show: Politics Hour NDTV

2. Picnic food: Tomato rice with potato fry

3. Mixed drink: Vodka with lime

4. Indian President: Pratibha Patil

5. Kind of student to teach: Poor student

6. Hobby you do or wish you still did: Computers

7. Sports commentator: Ravi shasthri

8. Sport to watch on TV: Soccer

9. Animal to have as a pet: Birds

10. Halloween costume you have worn: Nope

11. Kind of dessert: Black forest

12. Comic strip: Spider man

13. Ice cream flavor: Vanilla

14. News source: Sun TV

15. Vacation spot: Basket ball

16. Wine: White wine

17. Way to waste time instead of working: Dreaming

18. Reality show: Coffee with Anu

19. Childrens movie: Pasanga

20. Celebrity you wish would retire: Chief Minister Kalingar Karunanidhi

An emotional roller coaster

June 10 2010

It’s been the most overwhelming, emotional and brilliant rollercoaster few days, with family members turning up from ooty and my brother guru from chennai coming to stay. The natural high is so high and the low is inexplicable and surprising. I know it’s a lot to do with my mind, late nights and way too much booze but i’m so happy to be able to experience this. I think most people live their whole lives without having the good fortune or opportunity to feel what i’m feeling now.

Thank you, my friends

And without meaning to be mushy, I feel blessed to have you around…..

Come, let us have a coffee!

June 9 2010

PS: I just drank some very strong coffee and appear to have lost the plot for the moment. normal blogging will return tomorrow.

Make a difference

June 8 2010

Teacher's who play an important role in our school life right from the day1 till the end. I really get sob by watching  this video 

Meme Fi5teen

June 7 2010
The Se7en Layer
LAYER 1: Tell us your... 
* Name: Prabhu
* Birthday (month, day): June 15 
* Birthplace: Tiruppur
* Current location: Chennai
* Eye color: Black
* Hair color: Black
* Height: 175 cms
* Righty or lefty: Righty
* Zodiac sign: Gemini


LAYER 2: What's...
* Your heritage: Love
* The shoes you wore today: Green
* Your weakness: Emotion
* Your fears: Alto phobia
* Your perfect pizza: Chicken cheese with chilly flakes
* Goals you’d like to achieve: Adopt a child
* Your first waking thoughts: How ll b today?
* Your best physical feature: Eyes & Nose
* Your most missed memory: Anipra


LAYER 3: Do you...
* Smoke: Nope
* Cuss: Sorry
* Sing: Yes
* Do you think you’ve been in love: Of course!
* Did you go to college: Yes
* Liked high school: Very much
* Want to get/stay married: Ya!
* Believe in yourself: Trying
* Think you’re attractive: Some what
* Think you’re a health freak: Yes
* Get along with your parent(s): Ya
* Like thunderstorms: Nope
* Play an instrument: Learning


LAYER 4: In the past month have you… 
* Drank alcohol: Yes
* Smoked: Once upon a time
* Done a drug: Yes
* Made out: Yes
* Gone on a date: Yes
* Gone to the mall: Yes
* Eaten an entire box of Oreos:. A lot
* Eaten sushi: Yes
* Been on stage: Nope
* Been dumped: Yes
* Gone skating: No
* Gone skinny dipping: Yes
* Stolen Anything: Yes


LAYER 5: Have you ever…
* Played a game that required removal of clothing: In childhood
* Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: Nope
* Been caught “doing something”: Many times
* Been called a tease: During teenage
* Gotten beaten up: Yes
* Shoplifted: Nope


LAYER 6:
* Age you did get/hope to be married: Yes
* Numbers and names of children (either you have or want): 2, Auro and Aathiti
* Describe your dream mate: Anipra
* How do you want to die: Peacefully
* What did you want to be when you grow up: A good human
* What country would you most like to visit: Australia


LAYER 7: Now tell...
* Name a drug you’ve taken illegally: Pentazocine mixed with  Promethazine
* Name a person you could trust with my life: Sharmila
* Name a favorite CD that you own: Yanni's Acropolis
* Number of piercings: 2
* Number of tattoos: Nope
* Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: Once
* Name a past experience that you regret: I was a drug addict 

The Sunday Stupid Thirty-Three:: Meme 4 teen

June 6 2010

1. When was the last time you cried?
Yesterday :(

2. Were you named after anyone?
Nope!!

3. Why are you so fickle when it comes to women?
Duno!!

4. What is your favorite lunch?
Of course Chicken

5. Do you have kids?
Nope!!

6. If you were another person would you be friends with you?
Ya!

7. Do you use sarcasm a lot?
Nope!!

8. Do you still have your tonsils?
Yes :(

9. Would you bungee jump?
I love it!

10. What is your favorite cereal?
Corn flakes

11. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off
No

12. Do you think you are strong enough to be with me?
Yes

13. What is your favorite ice cream?
Black forest

14. What is the first thing you notice about people?
Eyes

15. Red or pink?
Pink (means Krithi)

16. What is your least favorite thing about yourself?
Nose

17. Who do you mess with the most?
My Dad

18. What was the last thing you ate?
Idly & dosa

19. What are you listening to right now?
AR Rahman's fusion

20. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Sharmila

21. Why aren't you married?
Arghhhhh....

22. Last movie you watched?
My name is Khan

23. What did you dream about last night?
Anipra, anipra, anipra

24. What book are you reading?
How to stop worrying and start living

25. Summer or winter?
Winter

26. Hugs or kisses?
Both

27. Do you have any special talents?
Lots to say

28. What are they?
Secret

29. What did you watch on TV last?
Songs

30. What is your favorite sound?
Piano

31. Rolling Stones or The Beatles?
Rolling stones

32. Most likely to respond to this meme?
Sruthi and Pooja

33. Least likely to respond?
Not sure...

Tamil Anthem by AR Rahman

June 5 2010


Semmozhiyaana Tamizh Mozhiyaam is a Tamil anthem composed by A. R. Rahman, penned by Tamil Nadu Chief Minister Kalaignar M. Karunanidhi and performed by several leading Tamil artistes of over three generations

A major highlight of the anthem is that it features singers who have distinguished themselves in other genres of music such as Carnatic (Aruna Sayeeram, Bombay Jaishree, Nithyashree and Sowmya), folk, Sufi (M.Y. Abdul Ghani, Khajamoideen, Naresh Iyer) and rap (Blaaze).

"The Finish This Sentence" Meme 13een

June 4 2010

1. My uncle once Caught me while drunk

2. Never in my life have I been as embarrassed, angry and ashamed when I was in jail

3. When I was three my parents send me to school

4. High school was a place I learned a lot

5. I will never forget to cut my nails

6. Once I met  Rajini kanth in his home

7. There’s this girl I know who makes my life sober

8. Once, at a bar, I am lost

9. By noon, I’m definitely nap

10. Last night I had a terrible dream

11. If only I had a good idea for a business… Then I'd be rich!

12. Last time I go to temple  with Anipra

13. What worries me most is that my Parents! yep

14. When I turn my head left I see the sky

15. When I turn my head right I see my bro guru standing and watching me

16. You know I’m lying when I deserve it

17. What I miss most about the Eighties is my Parents

18. If I were a character in Shakespeare I’d be Romeo

19. By this time next year I will start my computer showroom

20. A better name for me would be PEPSI

21. I have a hard time understanding  feeling my way through it ...

22. If I ever go back to school, I’ll have good everlasting friendship

23. You know I like you if I love you

24. If I ever won an award, the first person I would thank would be my Saravanan Anna

25. Take my advice, never GIVE UP!

Meme Twe1v2

June 3 2010

1. If you suddenly became single or are single, do you think you could last in a relationship for 12 months or more?
Sure (as I am now).

2. Do you forgive or forget?
I can usually forgive...it's the forgetting part that's very hard.

3. Do you trust people?
I try.....

4. What are you not looking forward to?
It getting really hot & humid again this summer-ugh!

5. Do you get mad easily?
Uhhh....yeahh....

6. Tell us about the last time you were told you that you have pretty eyes.
Hm....I don't remember...my eyes are teeny tiny so it would be a weird compliment.

7. Do you have strange dreams?
Almost always.

8. Tell us about the last time you fell asleep in someones arms.
I don't know if I've ever done that.

9. When did you last play a game?
I played GTA IV with my bro a few days back. He lost...but of course I did!

10. What do you have on you at all times?
Cellphone!

11. Do you go out in public without getting well dressed up?
Sometimes....I usually feel really gross so I don't do it often.

12. Do you like fruity or minty gum?
Depends.

13. Favourite musician or concert?
A.R Rahman is my all-time favorite musician. Favorite concert could possibly be Bombay Dreams.

14. Do you like anyone?
I love 'em!!!

15. Favourite computer game?
Um.....GTA always.

16. First album you ever went and bought with your own money?
Hmm.....INDIAN by AR.Rahman. I think probably march 1996.

17. Think back five months ago, were you single?
 It's hard to say.

18. Do you believe in celebrating birthdays?
I will acknowledge 'em but usually don't do much celebrating.

19. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
I hope so...that would be nice!

20. Last thing you bought?
A gift for Sharmila.

21. Are you a jealous person?
Nope, and I hate those who are!

22. Does it take a lot to make you cry?
Not really.

23. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
Yes, and she's a really awesome friend.

24. Have you ever had your heart-broken?
Yes...smashed, broken, and bruised....:(

25. Have you ever done something while drunk that you still cannot believe you did?
Yes.

26. Is there anyone you secretly wish you could be spending your time with right now?
Yes.

27. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
No cuz I'm doing this and I probably wouldn't want to grab it (Lazy Prabhu).

28. Is your life anything like it was a year ago?
Yes...and no. Wasn't in the way I am now. So that's a good thing.

29. Go back one year on your blog. Leave us a link to your favorite post.
I know AWARDS don't mean EVERYTHING but this award was a nice one to get from a former friend/Blogger. The post is HERE.

30. You can only drink ONE hot drink for the rest of your life, what is it?
Oooooooo....of course it'd have to be an Iced vodka. YUM!

31. Tell us about someone that you have lost contact with someone you wish you didn't.
My ever loving Anipra. I believe she's in Pollachi but honestly I couldn't be for sure. Was one of the hardest "breakups" in my life. I think I have ever experienced. I still think of her...and wonder how she's doing.

32. What is the last thing you said out loud?
"Guru don't do that and you should start getting ready." (We are going to our uncle's home)

33. Will this year be better than last?
Hope so...guess we shall see. :)

Unconditional love

June 2 2010

Unconditional love sometime means.. just let someone hold us a little while when he/she’s going tough times… without excting returns…
and sometime means… holding them as they walk through those tough time…

My 600th Post

June 1 2010

Hello there! It's my 600th post & it's time to celebrate it with a GIVEAWAY. So here's how it's gonna go: please answer the following questions that I will list below, then e-mail your answers to me (I don't want people to see 'em here). And in one month (or maybe less) I will announce the lucky person. To participate in this giveaway, all I ask is that you either

1 Are a follower of my Blog


2 You become a follower of my Blog.

The prize is......well, it's a surprise. But there will be plenty of nice goodies and a small piece of my Gesture as well. That's the only hints you're gonna get right now. ;)

Also, Please Leave A Comment on THIS post if you choose to do the giveaway. I guess that's the other thing I would like to ask you for. That way you all will know how many people are participating. OK, sound good? If you have any questions, either let me know HERE or e-mail me to

So the questions. And they are....

1) Name TWO of my favorite persons 
2) If you could describe MY BLOG in 3 words, what would those words be?
3) If I were stuck on a desert island, name 3 things you think I would bring.

So this giveaway is a little bit YOU and a little bit ME. I hope you like answering these questions and please e-mail them to me by JUNE 15th(on my birthday). My e-mail address is: prabhupepsi@gmail.com

I look forward to seeing your answers!
Enjoy your JUNE~
PS: Photography by Guru.