Sunshine

September 19 2010

Just recently, I have felt the darkness lift. Fade away.
I have emerged from the black cloud of rain and haze that has overshadowed this past year.
Until then, I hadn't been living but merely surviving.
Just putting one foot in front of the other.
Each day the same - Monotonous and tired.
A dull, lifeless dance of dressing, eating, thinking and crying.
I can not pin point exactly when the clouds lifted.
Things had progressively been becoming rosier for weeks and I had been oblivious, just going with the flow.
Then it hit me.
I lifted my head up toward the sunshine and took in a huge breath - This is living, I thought to myself.
I pondered that thought for a moment.
I really am starting to live again, enjoying love and life.
There is a bounce in my step and I am moving to my own happy little beat.
I feel warm.
I feel energised.
I feel something that I haven't felt in a while - Hope.
A bright future.
I am not entirely out of the woods yet, some days are still bad but I am a world away from that sense of complete sense of despair and destitute that was once 'normal' to me.
The light at the end of the tunnel is so close, and I can not wait.

Out of the rain and back under the sun, where I belong!