June 30 2010
This isn’t my best but I just wrote it. Please tell me if you like it.
Hi!…. Hi!
Hello?… Hello?
Is ANYONE here?… * Is ANYONE here?
I’m here .* * * * * I’m here
Why are you yelling me? ….* *Why are you yelling me?
Stop it!…../ Stop it!
This hurts my head!……. This hurts my head!
Because……. * *Because
You are not me……. * * *You are not me
And I am not yo…….. * And I am not you
In my mind * *….. * In my mind
An echo. …….. An echo
Its only ME,
In a mirrored room.
Alone,
Without a care.
Why all are prattle joyously,*I n f i n i t u m.
Smiling,
Laughing,
Pretending to be fine,
Alone,
With
My
Echoing mind
My
E..'' C''''... H''''....ooooooo.....
My last letter to Anitha...
June 29 2010
People like me can't express our emotions in words. But we can write them easily I can fill thousands of pages, millions of times with... I love you Anitha.' But now not once could I say it to you. Perhaps that's why you left me alone. Many things frighten me, Anitha. But nothing frightens me more than the thought of losing you. I was scared then... and I'm scared now..I missed you Anitha. I know I can't reach you or I can't get you in my whole life. My mom would say that there are two kinds of people in this world good people who do good deeds...bad people they do bad. that's the only difference in human beings and there's no other difference. But I thought one day I would achieve my love and humanity to all. But I failed. In chapter five, verse 36 of the Quran, Allah has decreed that... the wound of one innocent heart is equal to the death of humanity. How can I threw my anger and grief?. I knew you and your family hurt me and left me alone...you made me zero. Because of this I had to start my life from the beginning. But I did not know that I would have to pay the biggest price, Anitha. Why did this happen to me Anitha? why? Yup! what ever happens I ll keep this love with me... for me... for you... for ever! Anitha come back to me. come back to me, love. come back to me. Please come back. Don't leave me. Don't leave me, please. Come back to me please. Please come back, please....Anitha don't leave me......
I've lived my life incorrectly
June 28 2010
After Anipra gone from my life addiction kicked in soon after. I was laid up at home by myself and I didn’t know what to do. I was so lost.. and I just wanted to visit her and I asked for an appointment. she refused me. I tried to tell her everything, but once I told her about my problems she told me to ask her father. Then I told her "I am dead and I'm no more in your life". Till now I never met her.
“I don’t help criminals.”
"I didn't kill anyone."
"I didn't rob anyone."
"I didn't steal.."
It’s been five days. everyone I've asked for help has turned their backs on me. Humans are so selfish. Everything they do is for self-gain. They don’t help others because they just want to save time. Or they want to help others just because it makes them feel good about themselves.
That night, I finally realized what it was like to be pushed beyond the edge. the hopelessness, the loneliness, the disregard for health and life itself, the apathy for anything and everything.
I realized that I don’t need to cry for help anymore since no one is going to come. I've lived my life incorrectly, but I'm no longer going to sit around and cry about it. This life will not have been for naught.
Instead, I ll never be selfish, untrustworthy, and evil. I'm going to use what I've learned in my life.
If I am not reborn, it will be even better. I’ll never have to see anyone ever again.
goodbye.
After Anipra gone from my life addiction kicked in soon after. I was laid up at home by myself and I didn’t know what to do. I was so lost.. and I just wanted to visit her and I asked for an appointment. she refused me. I tried to tell her everything, but once I told her about my problems she told me to ask her father. Then I told her "I am dead and I'm no more in your life". Till now I never met her.
“I don’t help criminals.”
"I didn't kill anyone."
"I didn't rob anyone."
"I didn't steal.."
It’s been five days. everyone I've asked for help has turned their backs on me. Humans are so selfish. Everything they do is for self-gain. They don’t help others because they just want to save time. Or they want to help others just because it makes them feel good about themselves.
That night, I finally realized what it was like to be pushed beyond the edge. the hopelessness, the loneliness, the disregard for health and life itself, the apathy for anything and everything.
I realized that I don’t need to cry for help anymore since no one is going to come. I've lived my life incorrectly, but I'm no longer going to sit around and cry about it. This life will not have been for naught.
Instead, I ll never be selfish, untrustworthy, and evil. I'm going to use what I've learned in my life.
If I am not reborn, it will be even better. I’ll never have to see anyone ever again.
goodbye.
I go where it takes me....
June 27 2010
A little street that don't walk the same
A coffee shop that used to call my name
A rusty old swing set
In the park where we first met
Seems everything is falling down
Don't look the same since she left town
I can't take seeing old mistakes
One more day
I'm packin' up
I'm pullin' out
I'm gonna grab what's left of my heart
Go where it takes me
I'm cuttin' loose
I gotta move
'Cause this ain't my town no more
Since Anitha got married
We planned a house up on that hill
I had a job waiting at the mill
Someday a yard full of children
That's all we talked about, but then
One day she just started to cry
Said she was sorry, then she said goodbye
I guess it's time I let go
What's already gone
Packin' up
I'm pullin' out
I'm gonna grab what's left of my heart
Go where it takes me
I'm cuttin' loose
I gotta move
'Cause this ain't my town no more
Since Anitha got married
Everywhere I look, I still see her
I can't take it no more
I'm packin' up
I'm pullin' out
I'm gonna grab what's left of my heart
Go where it takes me
I'm cuttin' loose
I've gotta move
'Cause this ain't my town no more
Since Anitha got married
Since Anitha got married
This song was composed by dunae steele in 1996. I think its really suits me. My friend sruthi send me this song.
A little street that don't walk the same
A coffee shop that used to call my name
A rusty old swing set
In the park where we first met
Seems everything is falling down
Don't look the same since she left town
I can't take seeing old mistakes
One more day
I'm packin' up
I'm pullin' out
I'm gonna grab what's left of my heart
Go where it takes me
I'm cuttin' loose
I gotta move
'Cause this ain't my town no more
Since Anitha got married
We planned a house up on that hill
I had a job waiting at the mill
Someday a yard full of children
That's all we talked about, but then
One day she just started to cry
Said she was sorry, then she said goodbye
I guess it's time I let go
What's already gone
Packin' up
I'm pullin' out
I'm gonna grab what's left of my heart
Go where it takes me
I'm cuttin' loose
I gotta move
'Cause this ain't my town no more
Since Anitha got married
Everywhere I look, I still see her
I can't take it no more
I'm packin' up
I'm pullin' out
I'm gonna grab what's left of my heart
Go where it takes me
I'm cuttin' loose
I've gotta move
'Cause this ain't my town no more
Since Anitha got married
Since Anitha got married
This song was composed by dunae steele in 1996. I think its really suits me. My friend sruthi send me this song.
Downhill
June 26 2010
I really don’t know what to do anymore. My life is going downhill. My beliefs are turning against me. It feels like nobody wants me here, so if I ended my life, everyone would be happier. I don't know what to write. I think I am ranting so I ll stop here.
I really don’t know what to do anymore. My life is going downhill. My beliefs are turning against me. It feels like nobody wants me here, so if I ended my life, everyone would be happier. I don't know what to write. I think I am ranting so I ll stop here.
Unknown letter
June 25 2010
Dear Prabhu:
I would listen to the kindly, considerate part of yourself that does not want to commit suicide because it would upset the people around you. It has a life-giving message for you.
If you are here on this earth, it is likely that you are here to carry out some task or purpose. Consider giving yourself some time to discover what it is.
It is very natural for 30's something you people to feel unhappy because they feel that they are not going anywhere, have no “place” in the world and to start feeling like they “don’t belong here.”
They are (quite naturally) impatient to learn what it is that they are supposed to be doing, and sometimes feel blank or empty or sad or lonely because their life purpose has not become clear yet.
But one’s life purpose is not always revealed quickly to a person.
Only a few people recognize their life purpose in their 30s.
Since you are at the middle of your life, you still have a few years to discover why you are here. As you gradually discover what you are here to do, you will take classes, join groups, meet new friends, etc., who will share your interests and outlook.
Then you will feel less lonely.
With regard to the suicidal thoughts prabhu consider getting a counselor or therapist, and possibly getting some anti-depressant medication if they recommend it.
Your sadness is understandable, but it is getting too intense and disrupting your life. It is likely becoming a serious depression. A counselor or therapist can help you deal with the negative thoughts, and work with you to get on a more positive path, so your life will be less painful and have more joy.
Cordially,
Fighting to Survive (been there)
Dear Prabhu:
I would listen to the kindly, considerate part of yourself that does not want to commit suicide because it would upset the people around you. It has a life-giving message for you.
If you are here on this earth, it is likely that you are here to carry out some task or purpose. Consider giving yourself some time to discover what it is.
It is very natural for 30's something you people to feel unhappy because they feel that they are not going anywhere, have no “place” in the world and to start feeling like they “don’t belong here.”
They are (quite naturally) impatient to learn what it is that they are supposed to be doing, and sometimes feel blank or empty or sad or lonely because their life purpose has not become clear yet.
But one’s life purpose is not always revealed quickly to a person.
Only a few people recognize their life purpose in their 30s.
Since you are at the middle of your life, you still have a few years to discover why you are here. As you gradually discover what you are here to do, you will take classes, join groups, meet new friends, etc., who will share your interests and outlook.
Then you will feel less lonely.
With regard to the suicidal thoughts prabhu consider getting a counselor or therapist, and possibly getting some anti-depressant medication if they recommend it.
Your sadness is understandable, but it is getting too intense and disrupting your life. It is likely becoming a serious depression. A counselor or therapist can help you deal with the negative thoughts, and work with you to get on a more positive path, so your life will be less painful and have more joy.
Cordially,
Fighting to Survive (been there)
Idk
June 24 2010
Okay well I know I’m not too young but i constantly have this thought I shouldnt be here anymore. I try to be happy, I try to be myself but deep down I just feel like being alone and crying inside. I have no idea what I want anymore. I see myself going nowhere In life. Ive thought about killing myself and everytime I try to I cant bring myself to do it because I think of how other people would feel. I don't know I’m just ranting, I’m sorry.
Okay well I know I’m not too young but i constantly have this thought I shouldnt be here anymore. I try to be happy, I try to be myself but deep down I just feel like being alone and crying inside. I have no idea what I want anymore. I see myself going nowhere In life. Ive thought about killing myself and everytime I try to I cant bring myself to do it because I think of how other people would feel. I don't know I’m just ranting, I’m sorry.
Anitha got Married
June 23 2010
The pain is immense, I can’t go on I scream at GOD and ask why? But there is no answer. I can’t go on living, feeling what I feel. The torment is eating me alive, I am dying inside, just as I found hope, She was snatched away from me. At the same time writing this I can no longer envision a future, I no longer have hope, everything has been taken from me. From my fiancée, to my home and my life has reached an impasse. It’s a make or break time and I feel completely broken. I’m staring into an depth and this time there is no light at the end.
I am both physically and mentally traumatized. As a loved person I lost my Anitha…This day I am shut off from the world, I didn’t; no couldn’t speak with anyone because I didn’t understand why the accident happened, I tried to find some kind of justification but couldn't. I stopped interacting with people as it was the only way I could survive. I went into shock, I couldn’t communicate and the world had become a dark and lonely place. I wasn’t prepared for this farewell of a person I loved.
Goodbye Anitha & i miss you more than anything in the world...
The pain is immense, I can’t go on I scream at GOD and ask why? But there is no answer. I can’t go on living, feeling what I feel. The torment is eating me alive, I am dying inside, just as I found hope, She was snatched away from me. At the same time writing this I can no longer envision a future, I no longer have hope, everything has been taken from me. From my fiancée, to my home and my life has reached an impasse. It’s a make or break time and I feel completely broken. I’m staring into an depth and this time there is no light at the end.
I am both physically and mentally traumatized. As a loved person I lost my Anitha…This day I am shut off from the world, I didn’t; no couldn’t speak with anyone because I didn’t understand why the accident happened, I tried to find some kind of justification but couldn't. I stopped interacting with people as it was the only way I could survive. I went into shock, I couldn’t communicate and the world had become a dark and lonely place. I wasn’t prepared for this farewell of a person I loved.
Goodbye Anitha & i miss you more than anything in the world...
Darkness
June 22 2010
I have been struggling with my inner demons and haunted by the ghosts of my past for most of my life, and I simply don’t know how much more I can possibly take. I’m just not strong enough to keep fighting off the inner darkness that much longer, sometime sooner or later it’s going to engulf me… and I won’t survive.
I have been struggling with my inner demons and haunted by the ghosts of my past for most of my life, and I simply don’t know how much more I can possibly take. I’m just not strong enough to keep fighting off the inner darkness that much longer, sometime sooner or later it’s going to engulf me… and I won’t survive.
How bad I feel...
June 21 2010
It feels weird to be sitting here writing this on some random blog on the internet when I've never told a single person in my life how I really feel…guess that’s the thing about the internet you don’t really have to fear what you write…but anyway guess here it goes…
A couple of years ago my girlfriend broke up with me, yes I know your thinking this how all suicide stories start, but to be honest this started even before then…I just get no real pleasure out of my life.
So here I am again contemplating what has steadily become more and more of a real solution…the idea of not having to keep each day up honestly feeling so down and dragging myself through each hour until finally going back to bed and barely sleeping seems pretty great…
My family have been good to me…my dad and I have never been close and my mum is termagant( she never accept mistakes) but they’re good people…my friends have been there for me too I guess but I could never tell any of them just how bad I feel…
I guess that is about it really…I dunno where I am with suicide now but really the notion of living for another 20…maybe 30 years is an awful idea to me…maybe some people just aren’t meant for this life…it’s never felt right to me.
Kill me:(
June 20 2010
I had thought of many reasons of not living. Unfortunately, i forgot most of them. It seems i think of stuff, then i forget about them. I think suicide is a very reasonable course of action to take for people like me. I have no friends and I am not concerned with my well being family.
I am not someone who is looking for a cure for my loneliness. I am not looking for love or happiness. I just want to die. There is no one out there for me. Even if i met someone, I would destroy their lives. I am a disease on humanity. I deserve to be killed.
I used to think that i only needed 3 things in my life, a loving wife, a good job and I keep my parents,surroundings happy. Now i work 12 hours a day, come home sleep till morning, and do it all over again. When i sleep im not thinking, or a coma wouldnt be so bad either, i could use one of those, stop these horrible memories.
I had thought of many reasons of not living. Unfortunately, i forgot most of them. It seems i think of stuff, then i forget about them. I think suicide is a very reasonable course of action to take for people like me. I have no friends and I am not concerned with my well being family.
I am not someone who is looking for a cure for my loneliness. I am not looking for love or happiness. I just want to die. There is no one out there for me. Even if i met someone, I would destroy their lives. I am a disease on humanity. I deserve to be killed.
I used to think that i only needed 3 things in my life, a loving wife, a good job and I keep my parents,surroundings happy. Now i work 12 hours a day, come home sleep till morning, and do it all over again. When i sleep im not thinking, or a coma wouldnt be so bad either, i could use one of those, stop these horrible memories.
Its very disturbing to know, I wasnt born to live in this manner. Kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me.
Lazy days!
June 19 2010
Ever have one of those really really really lazy days? Where you just want to stay home and relax and lounge around? That's what I want to do today
Ever have one of those really really really lazy days? Where you just want to stay home and relax and lounge around? That's what I want to do today
Meme Ei8hteen
June 18 2010
The Oh My! Meme, Part One
1. The phone rings; who don't you want it to be?
Anybody from Pollachi
2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
Yes!
3. In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener?
2nd !!
4. What was the last compliment that someone gave you?
You are a f***ing crap!
5. Do you play the lottery?
Nope
6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness, who would you want with you?
Anipra
7. Do you like to ride horses?
Yes
8. Did you ever go to camp as a kid?
Nope
9. What is your favorite party game?
Nothing!. Get fully drunken and kinky...
10. If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was married, would you go for it?
Reject
11. When was the last time that you lied?
Oops!! an hour before...
12. Could you date someone with different religious beliefs than you?
Sure
13. If you have a S/O, who pursued who? If not, do you like to pursue or be pursued?
Pass
14. Use six words to describe yourself.
No more no less than you
15. Name a song that could make you cry?
Ore kana from guru
16. Are you pleased with your education?
Nope
17. How do you feel about gun control?
Good
18. If your house was on fire, what thing would be the first thing you grabbed?
My computer
19. How often do you have a romantic weekend?
Never after Anipra
20. Do you think more about the past, present or future?
Yes a lot
21. What was the last adult magazine that you have read?
Play boy
22. What are you told about your eyes?
Attractive
23. How tall is just right?
As I am
24. Where is your dream house located?
Pollachi
25. Do you have a secret fetish?
Many
26. Have you tried bourbon? If yes, what type?
No but I am mad of vodka
27. When was the last time you were at Marry brown?
Once in a month
28. When was the last time you were at Temple?
March 2
29. Where was the furthest place you traveled today?
To hall
30. What was your favorite job?
Hardware engineer
The Oh My! Meme, Part One
1. The phone rings; who don't you want it to be?
Anybody from Pollachi
2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
Yes!
3. In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener?
2nd !!
4. What was the last compliment that someone gave you?
You are a f***ing crap!
5. Do you play the lottery?
Nope
6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness, who would you want with you?
Anipra
7. Do you like to ride horses?
Yes
8. Did you ever go to camp as a kid?
Nope
9. What is your favorite party game?
Nothing!. Get fully drunken and kinky...
10. If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was married, would you go for it?
Reject
11. When was the last time that you lied?
Oops!! an hour before...
12. Could you date someone with different religious beliefs than you?
Sure
13. If you have a S/O, who pursued who? If not, do you like to pursue or be pursued?
Pass
14. Use six words to describe yourself.
No more no less than you
15. Name a song that could make you cry?
Ore kana from guru
16. Are you pleased with your education?
Nope
17. How do you feel about gun control?
Good
18. If your house was on fire, what thing would be the first thing you grabbed?
My computer
19. How often do you have a romantic weekend?
Never after Anipra
20. Do you think more about the past, present or future?
Yes a lot
21. What was the last adult magazine that you have read?
Play boy
22. What are you told about your eyes?
Attractive
23. How tall is just right?
As I am
24. Where is your dream house located?
Pollachi
25. Do you have a secret fetish?
Many
26. Have you tried bourbon? If yes, what type?
No but I am mad of vodka
27. When was the last time you were at Marry brown?
Once in a month
28. When was the last time you were at Temple?
March 2
29. Where was the furthest place you traveled today?
To hall
30. What was your favorite job?
Hardware engineer
Proactive in my life
June 17 2010
I've decided to be proactive in my life from this birthday. To go out and do stuff and explore new ideas and places and muses. I need to get out and see the world, coffee shop, park, town, city, and state etc etc. I’ve spent so much of my life twiddling my thumbs and waiting on other people to get their shit together, that I've never gone ahead and lived my life.
- Start my business
- Start a fresh blog for Google Valet
- Enter into My Space Contest by July 25th
- Get published
- Find Clients for Google Valet
- Get married at least this year
- Drink and Party
- Buy a Piano
- Learn to play it
- Learn how to live on completely vegetarian diet
- Not hurt Dad, Mum and Any one
I've decided to be proactive in my life from this birthday. To go out and do stuff and explore new ideas and places and muses. I need to get out and see the world, coffee shop, park, town, city, and state etc etc. I’ve spent so much of my life twiddling my thumbs and waiting on other people to get their shit together, that I've never gone ahead and lived my life.
- Start my business
- Start a fresh blog for Google Valet
- Enter into My Space Contest by July 25th
- Get published
- Find Clients for Google Valet
- Work hard for it
- Have atleast 100 clients
- Road trip this summer
- Visit Samu perima in Chennai- Get married at least this year
- Drink and Party
- Buy a Piano
- Learn to play it
- Learn how to live on completely vegetarian diet
- Not hurt Dad, Mum and Any one
Keep going...
June 16 2010
Few months ago, someone told me that, before the morning breaks, there will be stormy nights.. before breakthrough, there will be breakdowns.. and that’s what I will be going through this year.
This week has been very mentally, emotionally trialing for me in one area of my life… there were many stormy and sleepless nights…
I guess that’s what I get for asking from the universe when I set one of my 2010 life goals on this particular area… this is my journey… my breakdowns… my breakthroughs… till the sun rises.
Its my birthday!
June 15 2010
Woo Hoo! It’s my birthday today and I am too tired to write any more…
Instead I am posting a clip created by my brother Guru...
This was annoying in my head.
June 13 2010
Do you ever have one of those days when things are just GOOD and RIGHT and you feel accomplished?
(No? Then you should probably stop reading because I'm about to get really f***ing annoying.)
I'm not usually that person, I'm definitely not that cheerful man who always looks on the bright side and never thinks inappropriately mean thoughts about people who annoy him and wakes up singing along with the goddamn birds and would rather die than swear.
And I never will be, in case you are holding your breath.
(None of you are, right? Please don't. I don't know CPR.)
(I could probably figure it out, though. I mean, it can't be THAT hard. And I'm smart.)
(Apparently, I AM the man who is flippantly casual about life saving techniques and their importance. But that's beside the point.)
But today, I set some goals for myself and I met them.
(WITHOUT CAFFEINE. I'd like to stress that.)
I don't think I lack confidence, or even follow-through, but sometimes I think I DO suffer from the raging narcissism that I am occasionally accused of, and so it's always a good feeling to actually accomplish something that you KNEW you could do but just hadn't tried.
There are things I know that I will never do; things that I cannot be. But there are LOADS of things that I probably could do that I've just never had the courage to try. But I'm up for the challenge. Life is short. And I have a lot to do.
I wish I could sum up this post on the same profound note that I ended my last one, but that would just be too many deep thoughts in a row for this man, so instead I'm going to have to keep it simple and go with a little Ice Cube:
Today was a good day.
Do you ever have one of those days when things are just GOOD and RIGHT and you feel accomplished?
(No? Then you should probably stop reading because I'm about to get really f***ing annoying.)
I'm not usually that person, I'm definitely not that cheerful man who always looks on the bright side and never thinks inappropriately mean thoughts about people who annoy him and wakes up singing along with the goddamn birds and would rather die than swear.
And I never will be, in case you are holding your breath.
(None of you are, right? Please don't. I don't know CPR.)
(I could probably figure it out, though. I mean, it can't be THAT hard. And I'm smart.)
(Apparently, I AM the man who is flippantly casual about life saving techniques and their importance. But that's beside the point.)
But today, I set some goals for myself and I met them.
(WITHOUT CAFFEINE. I'd like to stress that.)
I don't think I lack confidence, or even follow-through, but sometimes I think I DO suffer from the raging narcissism that I am occasionally accused of, and so it's always a good feeling to actually accomplish something that you KNEW you could do but just hadn't tried.
There are things I know that I will never do; things that I cannot be. But there are LOADS of things that I probably could do that I've just never had the courage to try. But I'm up for the challenge. Life is short. And I have a lot to do.
I wish I could sum up this post on the same profound note that I ended my last one, but that would just be too many deep thoughts in a row for this man, so instead I'm going to have to keep it simple and go with a little Ice Cube:
Today was a good day.
Meme Se7enteen
June 12 2010
First Job: Hardware engineer
First Real Job: Aircel
First Favorite Politician: P.Chidambaram
First Car: Fiat
First Record/CD: Alaipauthey
First Sport Played: Cricket
First Concert: AR Rahman's Vanakam Chennai
First Foreign Country Visited: Nope
First Favorite TV Show: Malkudi days
First Favorite Actor: Rajinikanth
First Favorite Actress: Amala
First Girlfriend/Boyfriend: Deepa / Gejo
First Encounter with a Famous Person: Rajinikanth
First Brush With Death: while riding my bike
First House/Condo Owned: 33 Marapattei St, Pollachi.
First Film Seen: Billa
First Favorite Recording Artist: AR.Rahman
First Favorite Radio Station: Radio Mirchi
First Job: Hardware engineer
First Real Job: Aircel
First Favorite Politician: P.Chidambaram
First Car: Fiat
First Record/CD: Alaipauthey
First Sport Played: Cricket
First Concert: AR Rahman's Vanakam Chennai
First Foreign Country Visited: Nope
First Favorite TV Show: Malkudi days
First Favorite Actor: Rajinikanth
First Favorite Actress: Amala
First Girlfriend/Boyfriend: Deepa / Gejo
First Encounter with a Famous Person: Rajinikanth
First Brush With Death: while riding my bike
First House/Condo Owned: 33 Marapattei St, Pollachi.
First Film Seen: Billa
First Favorite Recording Artist: AR.Rahman
First Favorite Radio Station: Radio Mirchi
Meme 6ixteen
Fill in your favorite for each of the following:
1. Political show: Politics Hour NDTV
2. Picnic food: Tomato rice with potato fry
3. Mixed drink: Vodka with lime
4. Indian President: Pratibha Patil
5. Kind of student to teach: Poor student
6. Hobby you do or wish you still did: Computers
7. Sports commentator: Ravi shasthri
8. Sport to watch on TV: Soccer
9. Animal to have as a pet: Birds
10. Halloween costume you have worn: Nope
11. Kind of dessert: Black forest
12. Comic strip: Spider man
13. Ice cream flavor: Vanilla
14. News source: Sun TV
15. Vacation spot: Basket ball
16. Wine: White wine
17. Way to waste time instead of working: Dreaming
18. Reality show: Coffee with Anu
19. Childrens movie: Pasanga
20. Celebrity you wish would retire: Chief Minister Kalingar Karunanidhi
1. Political show: Politics Hour NDTV
2. Picnic food: Tomato rice with potato fry
3. Mixed drink: Vodka with lime
4. Indian President: Pratibha Patil
5. Kind of student to teach: Poor student
6. Hobby you do or wish you still did: Computers
7. Sports commentator: Ravi shasthri
8. Sport to watch on TV: Soccer
9. Animal to have as a pet: Birds
10. Halloween costume you have worn: Nope
11. Kind of dessert: Black forest
12. Comic strip: Spider man
13. Ice cream flavor: Vanilla
14. News source: Sun TV
15. Vacation spot: Basket ball
16. Wine: White wine
17. Way to waste time instead of working: Dreaming
18. Reality show: Coffee with Anu
19. Childrens movie: Pasanga
20. Celebrity you wish would retire: Chief Minister Kalingar Karunanidhi
An emotional roller coaster
June 10 2010
It’s been the most overwhelming, emotional and brilliant rollercoaster few days, with family members turning up from ooty and my brother guru from chennai coming to stay. The natural high is so high and the low is inexplicable and surprising. I know it’s a lot to do with my mind, late nights and way too much booze but i’m so happy to be able to experience this. I think most people live their whole lives without having the good fortune or opportunity to feel what i’m feeling now.
Thank you, my friends
And without meaning to be mushy, I feel blessed to have you around…..
It’s been the most overwhelming, emotional and brilliant rollercoaster few days, with family members turning up from ooty and my brother guru from chennai coming to stay. The natural high is so high and the low is inexplicable and surprising. I know it’s a lot to do with my mind, late nights and way too much booze but i’m so happy to be able to experience this. I think most people live their whole lives without having the good fortune or opportunity to feel what i’m feeling now.
Thank you, my friends
And without meaning to be mushy, I feel blessed to have you around…..
Come, let us have a coffee!
June 9 2010
PS: I just drank some very strong coffee and appear to have lost the plot for the moment. normal blogging will return tomorrow.
Make a difference
June 8 2010
Teacher's who play an important role in our school life right from the day1 till the end. I really get sob by watching this video
Teacher's who play an important role in our school life right from the day1 till the end. I really get sob by watching this video
Meme Fi5teen
June 7 2010
The Se7en Layer
LAYER 1: Tell us your... * Name: Prabhu
* Birthday (month, day): June 15
* Birthplace: Tiruppur
* Current location: Chennai
* Eye color: Black
* Hair color: Black
* Height: 175 cms
* Righty or lefty: Righty
* Zodiac sign: Gemini
LAYER 2: What's...
* Your heritage: Love
* The shoes you wore today: Green
* Your weakness: Emotion
* Your fears: Alto phobia
* Your perfect pizza: Chicken cheese with chilly flakes
* Goals you’d like to achieve: Adopt a child
* Your first waking thoughts: How ll b today?
* Your best physical feature: Eyes & Nose
* Your most missed memory: Anipra
LAYER 3: Do you...
* Smoke: Nope
* Cuss: Sorry
* Sing: Yes
* Do you think you’ve been in love: Of course!
* Did you go to college: Yes
* Liked high school: Very much
* Want to get/stay married: Ya!
* Believe in yourself: Trying
* Think you’re attractive: Some what
* Think you’re a health freak: Yes
* Get along with your parent(s): Ya
* Like thunderstorms: Nope
* Play an instrument: Learning
LAYER 4: In the past month have you…
* Drank alcohol: Yes
* Smoked: Once upon a time
* Done a drug: Yes
* Made out: Yes
* Gone on a date: Yes
* Gone to the mall: Yes
* Eaten an entire box of Oreos:. A lot
* Eaten sushi: Yes
* Been on stage: Nope
* Been dumped: Yes
* Gone skating: No
* Gone skinny dipping: Yes
* Stolen Anything: Yes
LAYER 5: Have you ever…
* Played a game that required removal of clothing: In childhood
* Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: Nope
* Been caught “doing something”: Many times
* Been called a tease: During teenage
* Gotten beaten up: Yes
* Shoplifted: Nope
LAYER 6:
* Age you did get/hope to be married: Yes
* Numbers and names of children (either you have or want): 2, Auro and Aathiti
* Describe your dream mate: Anipra
* How do you want to die: Peacefully
* What did you want to be when you grow up: A good human
* What country would you most like to visit: Australia
LAYER 7: Now tell...
* Name a drug you’ve taken illegally: Pentazocine mixed with Promethazine
* Name a person you could trust with my life: Sharmila
* Name a favorite CD that you own: Yanni's Acropolis
* Number of piercings: 2
* Number of tattoos: Nope
* Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: Once
* Name a past experience that you regret: I was a drug addict
The Sunday Stupid Thirty-Three:: Meme 4 teen
June 6 2010
1. When was the last time you cried?
Yesterday :(
2. Were you named after anyone?
Nope!!
3. Why are you so fickle when it comes to women?
Duno!!
4. What is your favorite lunch?
Of course Chicken
5. Do you have kids?
Nope!!
6. If you were another person would you be friends with you?
Ya!
7. Do you use sarcasm a lot?
Nope!!
8. Do you still have your tonsils?
Yes :(
9. Would you bungee jump?
I love it!
10. What is your favorite cereal?
Corn flakes
11. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off
No
12. Do you think you are strong enough to be with me?
Yes
13. What is your favorite ice cream?
Black forest
14. What is the first thing you notice about people?
Eyes
15. Red or pink?
Pink (means Krithi)
16. What is your least favorite thing about yourself?
Nose
17. Who do you mess with the most?
My Dad
18. What was the last thing you ate?
Idly & dosa
19. What are you listening to right now?
AR Rahman's fusion
20. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Sharmila
21. Why aren't you married?
Arghhhhh....
22. Last movie you watched?
My name is Khan
23. What did you dream about last night?
Anipra, anipra, anipra
24. What book are you reading?
How to stop worrying and start living
25. Summer or winter?
Winter
26. Hugs or kisses?
Both
27. Do you have any special talents?
Lots to say
28. What are they?
Secret
29. What did you watch on TV last?
Songs
30. What is your favorite sound?
Piano
31. Rolling Stones or The Beatles?
Rolling stones
32. Most likely to respond to this meme?
Sruthi and Pooja
33. Least likely to respond?
Not sure...
1. When was the last time you cried?
Yesterday :(
2. Were you named after anyone?
Nope!!
3. Why are you so fickle when it comes to women?
Duno!!
4. What is your favorite lunch?
Of course Chicken
5. Do you have kids?
Nope!!
6. If you were another person would you be friends with you?
Ya!
7. Do you use sarcasm a lot?
Nope!!
8. Do you still have your tonsils?
Yes :(
9. Would you bungee jump?
I love it!
10. What is your favorite cereal?
Corn flakes
11. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off
No
12. Do you think you are strong enough to be with me?
Yes
13. What is your favorite ice cream?
Black forest
14. What is the first thing you notice about people?
Eyes
15. Red or pink?
Pink (means Krithi)
16. What is your least favorite thing about yourself?
Nose
17. Who do you mess with the most?
My Dad
18. What was the last thing you ate?
Idly & dosa
19. What are you listening to right now?
AR Rahman's fusion
20. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Sharmila
21. Why aren't you married?
Arghhhhh....
22. Last movie you watched?
My name is Khan
23. What did you dream about last night?
Anipra, anipra, anipra
24. What book are you reading?
How to stop worrying and start living
25. Summer or winter?
Winter
26. Hugs or kisses?
Both
27. Do you have any special talents?
Lots to say
28. What are they?
Secret
29. What did you watch on TV last?
Songs
30. What is your favorite sound?
Piano
31. Rolling Stones or The Beatles?
Rolling stones
32. Most likely to respond to this meme?
Sruthi and Pooja
33. Least likely to respond?
Not sure...
Tamil Anthem by AR Rahman
June 5 2010
Semmozhiyaana Tamizh Mozhiyaam is a Tamil anthem composed by A. R. Rahman, penned by Tamil Nadu Chief Minister Kalaignar M. Karunanidhi and performed by several leading Tamil artistes of over three generations
A major highlight of the anthem is that it features singers who have distinguished themselves in other genres of music such as Carnatic (Aruna Sayeeram, Bombay Jaishree, Nithyashree and Sowmya), folk, Sufi (M.Y. Abdul Ghani, Khajamoideen, Naresh Iyer) and rap (Blaaze).
Semmozhiyaana Tamizh Mozhiyaam is a Tamil anthem composed by A. R. Rahman, penned by Tamil Nadu Chief Minister Kalaignar M. Karunanidhi and performed by several leading Tamil artistes of over three generations
A major highlight of the anthem is that it features singers who have distinguished themselves in other genres of music such as Carnatic (Aruna Sayeeram, Bombay Jaishree, Nithyashree and Sowmya), folk, Sufi (M.Y. Abdul Ghani, Khajamoideen, Naresh Iyer) and rap (Blaaze).
"The Finish This Sentence" Meme 13een
June 4 2010
1. My uncle once Caught me while drunk
2. Never in my life have I been as embarrassed, angry and ashamed when I was in jail
3. When I was three my parents send me to school
4. High school was a place I learned a lot
5. I will never forget to cut my nails
6. Once I met Rajini kanth in his home
7. There’s this girl I know who makes my life sober
8. Once, at a bar, I am lost
9. By noon, I’m definitely nap
10. Last night I had a terrible dream
11. If only I had a good idea for a business… Then I'd be rich!
12. Last time I go to temple with Anipra
13. What worries me most is that my Parents! yep
14. When I turn my head left I see the sky
15. When I turn my head right I see my bro guru standing and watching me
16. You know I’m lying when I deserve it
17. What I miss most about the Eighties is my Parents
18. If I were a character in Shakespeare I’d be Romeo
19. By this time next year I will start my computer showroom
20. A better name for me would be PEPSI
21. I have a hard time understanding feeling my way through it ...
22. If I ever go back to school, I’ll have good everlasting friendship
23. You know I like you if I love you
24. If I ever won an award, the first person I would thank would be my Saravanan Anna
25. Take my advice, never GIVE UP!
1. My uncle once Caught me while drunk
2. Never in my life have I been as embarrassed, angry and ashamed when I was in jail
3. When I was three my parents send me to school
4. High school was a place I learned a lot
5. I will never forget to cut my nails
6. Once I met Rajini kanth in his home
7. There’s this girl I know who makes my life sober
8. Once, at a bar, I am lost
9. By noon, I’m definitely nap
10. Last night I had a terrible dream
11. If only I had a good idea for a business… Then I'd be rich!
12. Last time I go to temple with Anipra
13. What worries me most is that my Parents! yep
14. When I turn my head left I see the sky
15. When I turn my head right I see my bro guru standing and watching me
16. You know I’m lying when I deserve it
17. What I miss most about the Eighties is my Parents
18. If I were a character in Shakespeare I’d be Romeo
19. By this time next year I will start my computer showroom
20. A better name for me would be PEPSI
21. I have a hard time understanding feeling my way through it ...
22. If I ever go back to school, I’ll have good everlasting friendship
23. You know I like you if I love you
24. If I ever won an award, the first person I would thank would be my Saravanan Anna
25. Take my advice, never GIVE UP!
Meme Twe1v2
June 3 2010
1. If you suddenly became single or are single, do you think you could last in a relationship for 12 months or more?
Sure (as I am now).
2. Do you forgive or forget?
I can usually forgive...it's the forgetting part that's very hard.
3. Do you trust people?
I try.....
4. What are you not looking forward to?
It getting really hot & humid again this summer-ugh!
5. Do you get mad easily?
Uhhh....yeahh....
6. Tell us about the last time you were told you that you have pretty eyes.
Hm....I don't remember...my eyes are teeny tiny so it would be a weird compliment.
7. Do you have strange dreams?
Almost always.
8. Tell us about the last time you fell asleep in someones arms.
I don't know if I've ever done that.
9. When did you last play a game?
I played GTA IV with my bro a few days back. He lost...but of course I did!
10. What do you have on you at all times?
Cellphone!
11. Do you go out in public without getting well dressed up?
Sometimes....I usually feel really gross so I don't do it often.
12. Do you like fruity or minty gum?
Depends.
13. Favourite musician or concert?
A.R Rahman is my all-time favorite musician. Favorite concert could possibly be Bombay Dreams.
14. Do you like anyone?
I love 'em!!!
15. Favourite computer game?
Um.....GTA always.
16. First album you ever went and bought with your own money?
Hmm.....INDIAN by AR.Rahman. I think probably march 1996.
17. Think back five months ago, were you single?
It's hard to say.
18. Do you believe in celebrating birthdays?
I will acknowledge 'em but usually don't do much celebrating.
19. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
I hope so...that would be nice!
20. Last thing you bought?
A gift for Sharmila.
21. Are you a jealous person?
Nope, and I hate those who are!
22. Does it take a lot to make you cry?
Not really.
23. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
Yes, and she's a really awesome friend.
24. Have you ever had your heart-broken?
Yes...smashed, broken, and bruised....:(
25. Have you ever done something while drunk that you still cannot believe you did?
Yes.
26. Is there anyone you secretly wish you could be spending your time with right now?
Yes.
27. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
No cuz I'm doing this and I probably wouldn't want to grab it (Lazy Prabhu).
28. Is your life anything like it was a year ago?
Yes...and no. Wasn't in the way I am now. So that's a good thing.
29. Go back one year on your blog. Leave us a link to your favorite post.
I know AWARDS don't mean EVERYTHING but this award was a nice one to get from a former friend/Blogger. The post is HERE.
30. You can only drink ONE hot drink for the rest of your life, what is it?
Oooooooo....of course it'd have to be an Iced vodka. YUM!
31. Tell us about someone that you have lost contact with someone you wish you didn't.
My ever loving Anipra. I believe she's in Pollachi but honestly I couldn't be for sure. Was one of the hardest "breakups" in my life. I think I have ever experienced. I still think of her...and wonder how she's doing.
32. What is the last thing you said out loud?
"Guru don't do that and you should start getting ready." (We are going to our uncle's home)
33. Will this year be better than last?
Hope so...guess we shall see. :)
1. If you suddenly became single or are single, do you think you could last in a relationship for 12 months or more?
Sure (as I am now).
2. Do you forgive or forget?
I can usually forgive...it's the forgetting part that's very hard.
3. Do you trust people?
I try.....
4. What are you not looking forward to?
It getting really hot & humid again this summer-ugh!
5. Do you get mad easily?
Uhhh....yeahh....
6. Tell us about the last time you were told you that you have pretty eyes.
Hm....I don't remember...my eyes are teeny tiny so it would be a weird compliment.
7. Do you have strange dreams?
Almost always.
8. Tell us about the last time you fell asleep in someones arms.
I don't know if I've ever done that.
9. When did you last play a game?
I played GTA IV with my bro a few days back. He lost...but of course I did!
10. What do you have on you at all times?
Cellphone!
11. Do you go out in public without getting well dressed up?
Sometimes....I usually feel really gross so I don't do it often.
12. Do you like fruity or minty gum?
Depends.
13. Favourite musician or concert?
A.R Rahman is my all-time favorite musician. Favorite concert could possibly be Bombay Dreams.
14. Do you like anyone?
I love 'em!!!
15. Favourite computer game?
Um.....GTA always.
16. First album you ever went and bought with your own money?
Hmm.....INDIAN by AR.Rahman. I think probably march 1996.
17. Think back five months ago, were you single?
It's hard to say.
18. Do you believe in celebrating birthdays?
I will acknowledge 'em but usually don't do much celebrating.
19. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
I hope so...that would be nice!
20. Last thing you bought?
A gift for Sharmila.
21. Are you a jealous person?
Nope, and I hate those who are!
22. Does it take a lot to make you cry?
Not really.
23. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
Yes, and she's a really awesome friend.
24. Have you ever had your heart-broken?
Yes...smashed, broken, and bruised....:(
25. Have you ever done something while drunk that you still cannot believe you did?
Yes.
26. Is there anyone you secretly wish you could be spending your time with right now?
Yes.
27. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
No cuz I'm doing this and I probably wouldn't want to grab it (Lazy Prabhu).
28. Is your life anything like it was a year ago?
Yes...and no. Wasn't in the way I am now. So that's a good thing.
29. Go back one year on your blog. Leave us a link to your favorite post.
I know AWARDS don't mean EVERYTHING but this award was a nice one to get from a former friend/Blogger. The post is HERE.
30. You can only drink ONE hot drink for the rest of your life, what is it?
Oooooooo....of course it'd have to be an Iced vodka. YUM!
31. Tell us about someone that you have lost contact with someone you wish you didn't.
My ever loving Anipra. I believe she's in Pollachi but honestly I couldn't be for sure. Was one of the hardest "breakups" in my life. I think I have ever experienced. I still think of her...and wonder how she's doing.
32. What is the last thing you said out loud?
"Guru don't do that and you should start getting ready." (We are going to our uncle's home)
33. Will this year be better than last?
Hope so...guess we shall see. :)
Unconditional love
June 2 2010
and sometime means… holding them as they walk through those tough time…
My 600th Post
June 1 2010
Hello there! It's my 600th post & it's time to celebrate it with a GIVEAWAY. So here's how it's gonna go: please answer the following questions that I will list below, then e-mail your answers to me (I don't want people to see 'em here). And in one month (or maybe less) I will announce the lucky person. To participate in this giveaway, all I ask is that you either
2 You become a follower of my Blog.
The prize is......well, it's a surprise. But there will be plenty of nice goodies and a small piece of my Gesture as well. That's the only hints you're gonna get right now. ;)
Also, Please Leave A Comment on THIS post if you choose to do the giveaway. I guess that's the other thing I would like to ask you for. That way you all will know how many people are participating. OK, sound good? If you have any questions, either let me know HERE or e-mail me to
So the questions. And they are....
1) Name TWO of my favorite persons
2) If you could describe MY BLOG in 3 words, what would those words be?
3) If I were stuck on a desert island, name 3 things you think I would bring.
So this giveaway is a little bit YOU and a little bit ME. I hope you like answering these questions and please e-mail them to me by JUNE 15th(on my birthday). My e-mail address is: prabhupepsi@gmail.com
I look forward to seeing your answers!
Enjoy your JUNE~
Hello there! It's my 600th post & it's time to celebrate it with a GIVEAWAY. So here's how it's gonna go: please answer the following questions that I will list below, then e-mail your answers to me (I don't want people to see 'em here). And in one month (or maybe less) I will announce the lucky person. To participate in this giveaway, all I ask is that you either
1 Are a follower of my Blog
2 You become a follower of my Blog.
The prize is......well, it's a surprise. But there will be plenty of nice goodies and a small piece of my Gesture as well. That's the only hints you're gonna get right now. ;)
Also, Please Leave A Comment on THIS post if you choose to do the giveaway. I guess that's the other thing I would like to ask you for. That way you all will know how many people are participating. OK, sound good? If you have any questions, either let me know HERE or e-mail me to
1) Name TWO of my favorite persons
2) If you could describe MY BLOG in 3 words, what would those words be?
3) If I were stuck on a desert island, name 3 things you think I would bring.
So this giveaway is a little bit YOU and a little bit ME. I hope you like answering these questions and please e-mail them to me by JUNE 15th(on my birthday). My e-mail address is: prabhupepsi@gmail.com
I look forward to seeing your answers!
Enjoy your JUNE~
PS: Photography by Guru.
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