I had thought of many reasons of not living. Unfortunately, i forgot most of them. It seems i think of stuff, then i forget about them. I think suicide is a very reasonable course of action to take for people like me. I have no friends and I am not concerned with my well being family.
I am not someone who is looking for a cure for my loneliness. I am not looking for love or happiness. I just want to die. There is no one out there for me. Even if i met someone, I would destroy their lives. I am a disease on humanity. I deserve to be killed.
I used to think that i only needed 3 things in my life, a loving wife, a good job and I keep my parents,surroundings happy. Now i work 12 hours a day, come home sleep till morning, and do it all over again. When i sleep im not thinking, or a coma wouldnt be so bad either, i could use one of those, stop these horrible memories.