A Bad Night

February 16 2010

I'm really loosing a grip on things tonight. I feel panicky. My head feels as if it's pressurised and expanding. It's bombarded with thoughts, and currently I'm deaf and can't hear them. I'm about to scream, "this world is not real and I can't take it any more!" Everything looks out of proportion, it's the wrong colour, the wrong sound. Nothing looks the same, and me - I don't feel human. I want to sleep this off but I don't want any more bad dreams, most of all I'm scared I wont be able to come back from them...but I know thats just stupid, right?