Thoughts before i go back to doctor

January 8th, 2009

OK, so I was lacking in compassion earlier.

It's still true though. Mental illness is bloody boring, from both the inside and the outside.

And it works both ways. Just as having a mental illness doesn't make you weak/lazy/dangerous/meaningless etc., neither does it mean that you are strong/inspiring/courageous/kind/lovely etc. Most of the time you're just getting through as well or as badly as you can.

I'm just feeling flat. I have contemplated my deep loneliness and how difficult I find it to form relationships. I am ready to go back but guess what, I don't want to.

"But, on the other hand, there is another hand." - Louis MacNeice