Bring back blankness, bring back fear

January 6th, 2009

Bring back anything except this badness. Plain, simple badness, lodged in my body, interfering with my breathing, making me shiver. I have no idea what would make it better. It feels as though nothing will.

Even though I have no food whatsoever and however much I'd like to drink myself into a coma, I am making a tactical decision to keep myself alive for the night in the hope I will feel more human in the morning. I have taken an extra 50mg of sulpitac, the idea being to knock myself out and hopefully soon.

As ANIPRA once said to me, suicide always remains an option, you can always kill yourself later.

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