Ping !

December 13th, 2009

Recently my sleep patterns have become ridiculous. It has been as though someone has mis-set a timer in my brain. Three hours and ping! wide awake.

Yesterday though I actually felt tired, and you know what, it was kind of lovely. After all the relentless energy I enjoyed being a bit quiet and sleepy. I needed that break, that space. And last night I slept for a blissful six hours.

I am not very well physically at the moment. My head hurts, my limbs ache and I keep having little hot and cold shivers. But I am relieved to realise this - for a little while I was scared my mood was crashing. My experience of depression is so physical that I can't always tell which kind of unwell I am.